Love help: it’s just killing me. - Help.com

it’s just killing me.

for the past couple weeks i’ve been somewhat down because of my lack of help.
i’m dying to go to africa. possibly uganda and help! go to an orphanage somewhere. play with the kids that need a good hug and some love.

i’ve been looking up organizations i can go with and i think i’ve found a couple good ones. after i pay off my $600 debt (gahh) i can start saving up.

i’ve been spending every waking hour working and trying to make money. my job is at an overpriced restaurant. it’s hard to watch people walk in their designer clothes and spend hundreds on food when five dollars could feed a kid for a week.

i’m about to send a letter in to a contest and try to win $5,000 towards my next volunteer work (which would be africa).

despite all of my goals and such i’m so unsatisfied right now. it’s not a matter of me feeling like a good or a bad person. it’s about my extreme passion for the people that have so much less than i do and how i can do nothing for them right now. i have such an urge to do something NOW. like get on an airplane and fly across the ocean.
someone will die of starvation tomorrow and i am here on my laptop sitting in between my two couches with all of these useless belongings around me.
it just doesn’t feel right.
i need to do something radical. something extreme.

the things i’m doing are working towards doing something radical and extreme, but it’s just not cutting it for me right now. i’m upset about it.
i want to give my affection to someone who doesnt know what it’s like to be loved, and show them that i have love for them and show them they deserve to have it.

i dont think this is a shout for help (or a complete thought for that matter). maybe it’s more of a cry of frustration. thanks for listening.

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