well. do you take any drugs??
some types of drugs gets people real paraniod
i smoke weed, i know that’s a factor. one good thing to make me feel better…
yeh.
weed does that to people.
it’s weird though, i hate this **** it’s as if someone’s trying to tell me something you know and now that sounds like true paranoia unless it IS from an outside source.
BUT I smoke weed sometimes, I always feel like i’m being watched and i got a god on my side so i don’t know what the **** is up with me
maybe try to think this out logically…
who is watching you?
how are they doing it?
who’s paying the budget?
…. while i’m not one to condemn pot, i do know that it has been known to trigger schizophrenic episodes in a few people. i’m not joking. you might be one of those people. it’s worth looking into.
I feel LITERALLY frozen in fear sometimes and if an airplane or a helicopter flys overhead sometimes my heart will stop and I’ll have an attack and images flash in my head but sometimes I know it’s all complete BS - I like it that way ’cause I still have the lingering fear but no physical reactions.
that’s not what I want to hear. but i’m afraid i’m such a case unless I keep talking myself out of it.
i’m just scared - it comes and goes. really, REALLY scared.
maybe you should lay low for a while.
go see a doctor.
how much do you smoke??
maybe people should tell me reasons why LA would never be attacked.
in the past week i’ve only smoked a dub. that’s twenty but the upside of it was my guitar playing, it gave me a new ear. so i’d do that as I’d be sometimes crippled in fear waiting for the hugest flash and boom as I tried to ******* keep god in my heart
north korea only has WMD’s to scare the USA into submission, right????? and it’s worked already, right? we’re helping them out. but we hacked into al queda’s computers and they’ve “gone dark” but this was all on FOX News and everyone knows they’re all hype BS anyway not giving a **** about anything. jesus i sound insane. i hate my self.
sorry to have to tell you that. i know pot usually makes most people feel a little paranoid, it sounds like what you’re going through is much worse.
i’m one of those people who think it should be decriminalized (for various reasons i won’t get into here) — But, really, I know first-hand of a girl who snapped into a schizophrenic state. the police were called, she was sectioned/committed for 72 hours - her mother was told later that it was the marijuana she smoked which triggered a schizophrenic episode (and she never showed signs of it before).
you have to be careful. do some research or even call into one of those centres for addictions/ mental health places (pretend you’re researching a paper). — different things can trigger this reaction from what i understand. weed, these days, might be laced w/ other drugs; or else the person might have a predisposition.
you know the paranoia is irrational if it’s affecting how you function in life. i suggest again, check this out (adverse reactions from weed).
maybe next time you smoke it you should have someone there with you. because if you go into these attacks. they can help you.
schitzo….thats what you are
well i’m also really anxious all the time so i’ve been isolating from all of my now NO friends. so, no one’s there except for me, music, g.o.d., and my ****** insane head. it wasn’t really the weed. i don’t know, i could just be saying that ’cause I like the way it made me play guitar but **** I know it’s all gonna be okay.
yes, addiction and mental health play the biggest part of it, but do i seem like a very insane person?
i already know i’m addicted, got a bad case of it.
from my experience, i’d say no. you actually sound pretty rational/lucid, if a bit dramatic. but then, i’ve been wrong before.
it just comes and goes. right now i’ll be okay. but at night though, mostly I just have this sense of impending doom. I had it like ten minutes ago and I prayed it away and came on here. but what do i do about this “outside source” thing? where did nostradamus get his predictions?
and like if I’ll be thinking of something and a little thing happens it automatically means something, correlating with what i was thinking about. corner of my eye stuff too.
i once knew a guy that thought he was jesus c., then he told me he practiced scientology. …that to me is insane.
weed, paranoia, and the occult. yeah, are you sure you really want to get rid of this feeling? the only way you’ll stop feeling paranoid is if you stop entertaining these thoughts (i.e., you have to stop trying to read into things). otherwise, you’ll drive yourself insane. from what i understand, black magic can only manifest itself in your life if it’s invited. if you’re into that kinda stuff!
seriously last night i was playing guitar and my neighbor was having a party and I SWEAR TO GOD they were watching me everything I did and everything they were saying correlated. i checked the fence and I don’t think there’s any way they could see me. but when i turned off the light to go inside (i was in my barn) I stood there scared ’cause i knew they’d be able to see me and then they all got quiet and one dude said “i’d pay to..” and so I’d had it and just **** it went inside with my head down like ******* always (thank god I was high though, I was playing well and they were enjoying it in my head)
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it sounds like you just get super self-conscious. i think you need to stop smoking up alone - socialize more and the paranoia will go away.
i truly think they were watching me, I heard one of them say my name at one point. I was kind of notorious at my school - quiet, vintage always had a guitar so not improbable.
yeah, I miss being around real people. not just my dogs. hahaha
i’m just lonely and I need these things in my head to stop. as long as i know they’re all just in my head - that should work wonders, right? I see therapists, but the last time I saw one I was so out of it I didn’t have anything to say although I could barely move from anxiety and other things. usually i’m pretty open. the weed made me feel like i was living a lie. but i liked being down, the music was so much BETTER. aHHHHHHHHHHHH
you can’t become dependent on weed as a means of escaping real life- real life which is going on all around, all the time. animal company is awesome - but there’s no substitute for human interaction. basically, it’ll remind you that none of us are immortal or perfect, but that we all survive. what kind of a plot do you think is being hatched anyways?
i don’t KNOW! i think it started at my grandpa’s house when there was a storm and all I saw was a flash of light and i just froze in every way and kept repeating “PEACE” so i guess there was something in the back of my mind but it’s just grown from there ’cause now i can’t even let airplanes and helicopters fly overhead without freaking out and what the **** I’ve already gotten that this is complete bullshit but i’m just so scared that I DON”T KNOW
****! AND I’m afraid that I have a ******* brain tumor - have been for months, like seriously HAVE a GROWTH on my BRAIN - I went to the neurologist the other day and he basically told me to stop tripping myself out. I WOULD BE PASSING OUT AND **** IF I HAD A BRAIN TUMOR! (telling myself)
well i’m done… i’ll be okay, go help someone else who may need it more.
I had a convorsation with someone at work today and we were talking about how the weather is acting up and people are getting worse, He said “its like the end of the world sh*t” We laughed and I said “I wish !” he looked at me all crazy… I say that because IT NOT GOING TO HAPPEN FOR A LONG TIME.
well thank you. that i like to HEAR!
Well were all safe dont worry.
Honestly I do think you have mental issues
i know i have mental issues.
Cali is going to sink eventually. Do you have dreams of this?
no, no dreams of that. i visualize a nuclear attack on los angeles that demolishes la and oc. i live in oc. it happens in my brain and it frightens me. then i pray and it goes away. but it’s constant!
maybe it will happen, but atleast you know that it’s the devil that installs that fear in you. you said it yourself. pray.
My younger brother says that being paranoid is just a heightened sense of awareness.
I’m not suggesting that you try to escape or run away from your problems….
It might be worth considering moving out of the LA area (traffic, smog, etc). Maybe move to a location that is NOT a potential nuclear target. Also, stay away from the pot, it’s messing you up. Find a good M.D. who can start you on some psyc meds.
P.S. Your guitar playing will be better if your head is clear. I was looking for a guitar tech a few years back and the best around had a history of drinking. My guitar teacher said to me, “you don’t want a drunk or pot head working on your baby do you?”
We made a call to make sure he was off the booze, got the guitar adjusted and all was fine. Point: if you wouldn’t let a pot head work on your guitar, you shouldn’t let a pot head play it! Unless of course you are like totally grovin on how amazing strumming that G chord for two hours sounds.
the guitar playing seriously has improved since i smoked weed. but anyway, i don’t really anymore, it makes me a social retard and i embarrass myself and go home and want to die. unless i’m playing guitar, then people like me. anyways. but yeah i’ve started meditating and such and i hear planes and **** now and don’t freak out like i used to - and i thank the energy that is everything for that. i do still want to move away from LA though, which sucks ’cause there’s so much “culture” there. ohh well. but thank you to everyone who wrote on here - letting you know i feel a lot better nowadays! planets are aligning in my favor! :) love you
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Hey U,
I think you need to talk with your doctor, if you don’t currently have one. You need to go to your nearest free clinic and request to see a physician, who can put you on the right track to getting some help. You have build this things up in your mind that you actually believe something is going to happen to you…I don’t know if you work or go to school, but you also need things to occupy your mind on a daily basis. When we tend to sit around and not have anything to keep us busy, that’s when you are most vulnerable to let these terrible things creep inside your mind and take over.. You may need medication to help control your thoughts and help you to feel better. Please seek professional help, or this will drive you insane…
word. thanks. i have more a grip on things now. :)
i have a therapist that i’m gonna dump (lol) and medicine makes it way worse so.
thank you for your concern. :)
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