Year help: I’m self injuring again. - Help.com

I’m so sorry this is torturing you. :( If you need to cry, cry as much as you want. I wish you’d do something else to let your emotions out. If you’re good at singing, sing! If you’re good at writing, write a song, poem, or short story that expresses your emotions. Ride a bike, cut paper. Punch a pillow. Just try not to cut. I know it’s hard, but I think you can do it.

I want to cry. I don’t know why I can’t. It just won’t come. I tried jogging and biking, but I don’t live in a nice area, so once it gets dark I can’t go outside. I live alone, so all I can do is just pace my apartment.

well we’re here for u. just talk to us instead.

Aw, that’s too bad. I used to have a problem when it’d take me a while to cry. I tried to. I guess if you can’t cry, you can’t. Bfriend3 is right. Talk to us, we’ll listen.

Thanks. I just feel so alone. And I don’t know why. I just feel so sad. all the time.

Anonymous, how about focusing on developing some coping skills this evening instead of more of the same.

sometimes talking about it helps. u can tell us anything. im all ears!

Well i’m an actress and usually I’m in rehearsal at night. I’m currently between shows so I have nothing to do. That does not help

Depression is hard to deal with, I guess. I’ve never really had it, though. My sister did. Well, she still does sometimes. But what we do is joke, make her smile, and calm her down. Try listening to jokes, or watching cheesy old cartoons you used to like, or still like…anything that makes you smile.

Try reading information on this diorder
and you should go to your doctor,
and ask what you should do about it.

http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/self…
http://www.selfharm.net/diag.html

i can’t understand why someone needs to inflict pain on themselves, but plz read up on it on the internet, the more you understand the better it is to deal with it.

get ice froma freezer and squeeze it til it melts away
do the old screaming into a pillow
listen to aggressive music
call someone and tell them everything
dont be alone. being left by yourself is one of the worst things
every other time if you know ur going through that phase again keep yourself busy
mayb just get a crap job for in between to keep preoccupied?
do ANYTHING but harm your skin
and exercise is one of the best things because not only will it wear you out it realeses endorphines thatll make you happier.
and as for being in a bad neighbourhood a few situps and pushups or aerobics mayb

or yehh just post anonymously everyhting youve been thinking of to strangers youll never have to meet…

Yeah. I suppose I didn’t really have to post anonymously. I don’t know what I’m afraid of. heh.

yehh i used to post so much crap anonymously on the net because i didnt want to drag anyone down.

does anyone know how u feel atm??

“hello mr henderson… im mrs corny…”

Anonymous, you are the only person you can depend on to guide you through the rest of your life. If you do not love you and you cannot act in your best interest then how will you ever expect love and kindness from another? It is time to grow up. Would you like to share why you need to punish yourself so frequently?

Well, I think a couple people i know lurk on this site, too. I don’t want them to know.

If I knew why candp, I would gladly share. I don’t know why.

As for growing up, I’m over 30. I don’t think I want to get much older. lol.

That’s just pathetic now that I think about it. a 30 something woman doing this,

age doesn’t matter if you have a problem, you need to help yourself.
props for having the courage to post your issues.

Thanks Bionic

Do you feel you are worthy of better treatment from yourself or deserving of self punishment?

anytime anon ;)

I don’t feel worthy or deserving of anything. neither punishment nor treatment

then go help someone. it should give you some sense of what good human beings mean

and can i say something?

not really off topic

but my friend is still in hospital from self harm. she was on the computer and talking to me on msn.

then i called her cos she was being depressed and stopped typing for a while, and she sounded faint, so i went there and she was passed out.

and she just started self harming about a week ago.

it doesnt matter agewise

or how much you do it.

accidents can happen.

me and like fifteen other people are freaking out because it hurts that we have no real control over what shes doing.

Thanks fairyfloss. I know if my family found out they’d be so hurt. If my friends found out they’d think I’m crazy and not want to be friends anymore. My parents are busy with my brother who is currently in detox and on suicide watch. If they knew about this, they’d fall apart. I need to be the strong one for them. Not the weak one that hurts herself.
I need to just stop.

Thanks everyone. I’m going to go run up and down the stairs for awhile until I’m too tired and go to bed. It’s getting late anyway. I’ll be back on tomorrow.

your not weak

other people just jump onto the tracks

but your hesitating

because you care so much for your friends and family.

im glad you chose to post

Thanks fliick. I’m doing the best I can every day.

have you tried to write in a journal… everytime you get the urge to hurt yourself… write in the journal about what is bothering you.. and then why you feel like hurting yourself… maybe if you reflect on the past moments. it will help you understand why… also… by writing down in the journal.. it will take you from that very moment of wanting to hurt yourself…. do this everytime you feel like hurting yourself and see if it helps you… please… my daughter was a cutter and it is a hard thing for a parent, friend or relative to see on someone they love…

That’s not a bad idea lil bit. Thank you!

I’m so glad I posted. Everyone has been giving me so many wonderful ideas.

you are very welcome hun.. please keep us posted on if it is working for you or not… great big hugs..

My daughter cuts herself. She has to live with my sister who’s a total witch. My sister is extremely mentally & verbally abusive to her. The dhs in their infinite wisdom thinks both of my daughters are better off there than with me based on lies my sister told about me & everyone else in my family. She made it so that no one, not even the kids’ father can have them. When she cuts herself, she writes “HELP” on her bedroom walls in her own blood & covers it up with posters.

My kids already plan to come back to me as soon as they’re old enough. Until then, I’m trying to help their boyfriends rent an apartment close to them so that at least the girls will have them close enough to see them every day. It might be easier for the girls to deal with their situation if they can be comforted by their boyfriends. Thanks for the advice. I really appreciate it. I hope you’re feeling better & wish you good luck on conquering your problem. I’ve found that even if you’re not an alcoholic/drug addict AA helps. The 12 steps apply to many other problems beside alcohol & drug addiction. They too are people in need of help. They can sympathize with you. It’s nice to talk to other people who’ve made an honest attempt to make their lives better.

Reading this gave me chills. I’m in a similar situation. My withdrawals aren’t quite as severe as what you’re describing (thankfully, as I don’t think I’d be strong enough to ignore them if they were) but they are worsening again. Which is sad, because I was getting better; but I’ve turned back again.
Please, don’t hurt yourself. It’s so hard not to, and I know how it feels to have that need; but please don’t give in to it. You don’t deserve that injury.
I wish I could be there for you when you feel that need to hurt yourself. I used to have someone who would just hold me and sit with me in silence; and it helped me so much. I wish I, or someone, could be there to do that for you.
Whenever you feel like you need to hurt yourself, come on to this site and write posts like this one. Perhaps telling someone will help in some small way.
Take care of yourself.