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you say you had therapy when you were younger. It could be time to try that again. In the past it appears an event has triggered your self harming, but now you describe it as almost habit like. You’re used to doing it so that’s why you do it. You can get help to change that habit. You sound strong as you have managed to control it before, that is pretty amazing. Use that strength to push yourself to finding a final answer and solution. It is possible.

thoughts of suicide can be normal, i’ve thought of it many times myself, and even thought of how to do it, but i never did and i am so greatful cause now i see that those things did pass. i was a cutter for years. but then one day i just stopped. i still think about it and when i get really upset i take a good long look at my scars. its something you just have to work past, and it can be hard. just be careful. i know it feels like you have nothing and no one and things are falling apart and you just can’t stop the emotional hurt, but it will stop. and even if you feel you have nothing, you still have yourself, and there is someone out there who you may not even think about, who thinks about you. and even if you still harm yourself, be VERY careful about it, and ask “why am i doing this?” and after a while you will stop. maybe even get a pet. a cuddly cat or a dog that you can just suggle into when you’re feeling like harming yourself. its amazing how the love of an animal can make life seem worth it again. good luck to you. i know you can do whatever you put your heart to.

Self injury is an addictive behavior pattern. Much like thrill seekers. The pain releases endorphines in your body that give you a “Rush” if sorts. And once you’ve done it and you know you can, it’s so easy to go back.

Just so you don’t think I’m talking out of my a$$, I speak from experience and research. I used to burn myself. And I still get urges all the time. Keep yourself distracted and find something else to stop the urge. Wear a rubber band on your wrist and when you get the urge, snap yourself with it, really hard. Get and ice cube out of the freezer and squeeze it in yuor hand really hard. (It hurts like h*ll, trust me!!)

Seek counseling again.

Good luck honey.

You need medical help. You can’t just go on like that! Lot of people that cares for you will be deeply hurt if something bad happens to you. Think of them and seek medical help, please.

visit www.klove.com and listen to some music on there and then try to find the station for where youre at, maybe the music will help, i know it helped me lots.