reason help: i have an eating disorder and i just binged and tried to purge. - Help.com

i dont really purge that often. i’ve dont it on and off for a short time. i dont think it would be enough to make my gag reflexes to dull.
and this was the first time i’ve tried to do it in a few months because i’ve been doing so good with NOT eating.
what are the loads more?
i wouldnt want to make you sit here and tell me ALL of them if there are a lot. is there i site i can go to or something?

whats the reason that feeding them would kill them sooner?
…i wish i could go to the doctor, or get treatment, or something, but not i or my family have the money to do so. we dont have insurance or anything either. not that my family knows about this or anything.

thanks for your help so far, both of you.

yes i eat when im upset.
when i dont eat i think that everything is fine because of the fact that i know i eat when i’m upset. (did that make sense?)
it’s always different reasons. and i’ve sat and thought long and hard about what causes these sorts of things to happen to me. and there are a few.
i know why i have a preoccupation with my weight and with food. i know why i hate myself when i eat. i know what makes me sad and upset.
the problem is making those things go away.
you may think i’m starving for food, but really, i’m starving for attention.
i want to love myself. and the funny thing is, everyone around me would call me the most confident person with the best head on her shoulders. always happy. always laughing, and always smiling.
funny how things arent always what they seem.

Hi, I am a certified paramedic, the blood spots you are seeing are from damage to the lining of your esophagus. Your eyes are red because of the increased blood pressure to your head when you are forcing yourself to vomit. You can cause further health problems by “not eating”, and you can become mal nurished. I won’t ask you the reasoning behind this. But, if you don’t get some food variety into your system it won’t be good, and not eating isn’t going to help either. This condition is what’s known as bulimia, long term this can be life threatening. Pm me if you would like to talk in private I would be more than happy to help in any way I can.

thank you.
thanks very much.

it could be because you didnt drink enough water or liquid when you were eating = it didnt come up easily. not that im trying to give tips. i had to go into hospital because of this it seriously damages your body

I have just got in from a night out. I went out for a meal with my friends. I tried to pretend like everything was fine and eat like a normal person, but I couldn’t, I ended up leaving most of my meal. Luckily my friends know I’m fussy and just assumed I didn’t like it, and two of them ended up finishing my meal between them. When I got home I felt hungry and had a yoghurt, now I feel fat and sick and wish I hadn’t. I hate it and wish I could just eat without feeling guilty, but I don’t want to get help, because then I won’t be in control of what I eat anymore.