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i feel so empty.
I mean in my home i have a GREAT life. I always take it for granted but deep down i know i’m way better off than some of my friends. in school i’m known everyone, i have friends in the 7th and 8th grades and i’m friends with so many people and people say i’m the nicest person they’ve ever met and stuff. i had a fun day today hanging out with my secret special person, and my other friends. playin video games, it was awesome. after he gave me a big everlastin hug and it was good then. But then i get on the computer and i go on here and i have a total random breakdown. I don’t know If i’m hiding my sadness of the 2nd aniversary of a friend’s death subconsciencly. I know that I’m being sad because i just sat down and thought, wow some people really aren’t my friends. I realized that some people just say i’m their friend because i’m always there. But when i’m down i feel like there’s really no one that i feel wont judge me or pretend to care and just apply it to themselves when they are done and go “wow i’m such a good person!”.
Its a real long story but its like, i’ve talked to 3 people and it seems like they are totally different. They are there, but it seems like everyone is in on a practical joke. Am I crazy? maybe i’m being too over drammatic. my friend actually told me that they felt bad cuz they couldn’t relate to how i was feeling because they NEVER sit down and think of the bad things in life! I’VE NEVER HAD THIS KIND OF SADNESS HAPPEN TO ME LIKE THIS EVER! if you knew me you would say that i could never frown. well i never could. I fear that i’m portraying a negative side of me to all my friends, but i am always cheery at school. i dunno.. what should i do?? is there really anything i can do? or is this like, what u go through in early teen years.
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