Love help: A Confession of the Dammed. - Help.com

that was beautiful.. you are you… and you should not change for someone to like you.. if they dont like you for who you are… then obviously they arent good enough to have in your life… im sorry about the part of where you couldnt be innocent as a child.. never had a childhood.. i can feel sorry because i have had the same insight on my life.. by being molested from 3 to 11 and being beat as a child from my parents because i didnt want to be the parent and raise my siblings and do al the house work myself while mom played nintendo all day… as it will never leave my mind and im not sure if i can ever completely forgive them… i go on with my life knowing that i am better then they ever were… great big hugs to you…

Good, bad, lie, truth, innocent, worldly…. all relative.

Adria ~ sometimes we learn more from our “fictonal character” (and we ALL have one) then we do from the real self. Self, must deal with persona… and ego.. and id..and Super Ego… blahhhhh so much! It’s amazing sometimes we learn anything. Sometimes a lie to a friend is a wish for their well-being. For me to judge you is to judge myself, and I’m too egotistical to do that :)
Bright blessing darlin’
Richard

(FORMERLY KITTENFACE71)

Adria!
I have been looking all over for you. I was away for a bit and I am so sorry that I have not been here to know how you are and what is going on in your life.

Your post was very heartfelt and honest, and leaves me pretty speechless. All I know is that you are one of my favorite helpers and it pains me that you feel like a phony. I guess that is what online friendships are about. It is so easy to just re-create yourself because we all have these fantasies of who we wish we were and online we can just create a whole little fantasy life. The problem with this though, is that through the creation of our fantasy selves we really miss out on the wonderful things that the real you has to offer. Although I have loved getting to know Adria I would love to get to know the real you and I think you should never be afraid to show her off! I am sure she is just as smart and creative as you described her to be and one day maybe she will make an appearance on help.com. Hugs and kisses Adria.

Adrianna,
What a beautiful post. I am proud of the woman who composed this. I have no idea what she looks like or what she is suffering through. I acknowledge her pain and her growth, for it takes courage to share what has been communicated.

As Richard has said, ‘Good, bad, lie, truth, innocent, worldly…. all relative.’ As human beings we have so much that influences our behavior, thoughts and perceptions of self and others.

It is not easy to find and then connect to the true essense of our soul. It is not easy to ‘let our light so shine among men that they may see your good works’. You have accomplished this in this post.

The persona ‘Adria’ is a part of you. It could not have existed without your creativity. I validate that part of you. I wish for you not to be shamed by creating this ‘pretty, talented, overwhelemed, emotional, happy’ woman. You allowed this part of yourself a voice. I honor you.

Thank you for sharing with us your life experience. For if we choose, we can take the lessons you have shared and grow ourselves. What a wonderful gift you have provided.

I heed your words. Life is precious and ever so fleeting.

The smallest leaf on the tree contains chlorophyl, exchanges sunlight to energy and provides oxygen & nutrients supporting the sustainence of life.

Thank you, Adrianna, you are blessed.

I am so sorry that you felt you had to be someone else to feel loved here, I hope you have time enough to stay here and show us who you really are before you go.
I know people are not always who they say they are online, some through evil thought and pretence, others because they like to fantasise about a life they could have had~ with being online you are given all that choice, you can be who you want to be, so in many ways it takes a strong mind to stay who you are without falling into the temptation and the trap of becomeing something and someone else but on that note it takes a very brave personality to be able to dig out of the trap once they have faen in and tell the truth, so you see, you should give yourself more credit, just because you fell it doesn’t mean that we should kick you while you are down but instead give you a helping hand and pull you back to your feet :)
So I offer you my hand and I hope I can be one of the many to help you back up, I may not have spoken to you much here at all but I do honestly belive what I say to you and I do mean it…
Best wishes to you, please do not feel so bad about a misstake that could and does happen to alot of people.

Beautiful post… I’m speechless. I personally don’t know you, but looking at your replies tells me you were a great helper. Is anyone, really their real selves on the internet though? I say things here that I would never say, I am way more confident, I *get hyper*. and all that stuff. Adrianna~ I have no doubt you are very loved on this site, and I think everyone realises nobody can be perfect. Thanks :)

I see no place where honor was lost or friendship abused..

if you really want to make it all better, then don’t tell us who you are NOT, tell us who you ARE!!

haha, todays challenge.

perhaps telling everyone bout the real you can help fix it? you obviously have beautiful mind, everything else can’t be too bad :)

You were there for me, the same way you are here for me now though you are saying that the Adria i knew does not exist at all. No matter how you put it Adria, you never pretended to be who you are. You denied some of your problems just to be there for me and a few who knew the real you. Though we have not talked as much anymore since that big day, you are always here. in my heart. that’s where you should be. You still have my crown. keep it with you.

beauty is skindeep .its the heart everyhere saw here and thats the most precious part

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My sweetest friend there is nothing you could write or say that would make me love you any less! I find myself fighting my own demonds on a daily and dont share 100% of myself with the help family, but I do share more here than I do in my so call real life Im allowed to vent here in a way that I am not able to any where else.

I have more trouble with my health and men then I care to write about in my life time, I have been blessed to fight money whoas and the struggle of being a single mom, and this bad girl look gives me more trouble by the second it dosent help that I have the mouth to go along with it!

The truth of the matter is that you are loved and allowed to love,vent,be well, or sick, even tell some small white lies here without the title of being dammed because we all can say that we have done more or less here than you and its kool! Later honey bunches of OOOOOHH

I dunno wot to say. You have helped so many people. Wish you did not feel like you had to be a different person to be accepted. But in a way are we all not slightly different in help.com. Do we all not act differently online than we do in real life. Perhaps we are happier and brighter. Perhaps we act more seriously. Perhaps even hide our emotions to help others. This is after all the online World where I cannot physically see you - and you cannot see me. So in here I can be Ditzy (superwoman lol) hope this makes sense :S

Still love ya Adrianna :)

what is going on? is this goodbye? Adria love you as you are, I can never forget how you supported me, please don’t disappear!!

Hey Adrianna,
Long time. I was told about this post you made 2 years ago. I thought of coming back to read it, but I was also busy in my personal life just living…lol…

Why today am I here? I thought of you for some reason on this day, and I decided to come and read what you had written so long ago.

You know what Adrianna? Its okay. EVERYBODY, all people, have made mistakes on this earth. We’re only human and weak in many different ways. The thing about mistakes and bad choices is that we learn from them and grow from them. These are the hands on learning experiences of life. Don’t ever let anyone fool you into thinking they haven’t made any mistakes. Don’t ever let anyone sit in judgement of you for a mistake you have made. I don’t judge you for this nor do I judge anyone for anything they have done wrong. It isn’t my place to judge or to condemn or to find fault.

I agree with what Xeno Dragon said above. That is how it is and he’s right.

You helped alot of people on this site. Who you are came through in the words you shared with so many others, and this is not something one can fake. That is the Adrianna I know you are in your heart. And so, I am thankful for what you shared with me on here.

Where are you now? And does it matter? As long as you are at peace and happy, then where you are is not important. If you are no longer on this earth, then I hope your soul looks down and sees that an old friend came by this site to say hello and let you know I love you as my friend now and always.

And if you’re still on this earth, then I hope one day you may check back on this site and read this message from an old friend of yours. I miss you and I will never forget the night we talked in a post about many things. The song you linked me to “I Hope You Dance” is a song I still listen to sometimes for I love what it says.

No matter where we are or what we are doing or what happens to us on this earth, life continues on inspite of all that. Either we continue on with it or just stop living.

I’ve maintained friendships with several people from this site that were on back when we were. Its been an interesting journey we all have shared after leaving help. Interesting to see the changes that have taken place in our lives and to share those changes with one another. Interesting to watch one another grow and to be there with each other when life gets hard.

And the one I left with?….I love him more than I did when we were here. He is still the beautiful soul he was back then, and he is my dearest and best friend on this entire earth. He taught me alot about people and life but more, he taught me about myself. He has helped me as I have helped him. And I am eternally thankful for him and having him in my life. I’m so very proud of him and his acheivements, proud he makes his own decisions and stands by who he is and what he believes in and doesn’t let other people influence him.

So Adrianna, you take care and please be at peace no matter where you are. I miss you, and I will always be your friend here on earth and in eternity.
Tapdancer

Dammit, I still miss you.