I feel alone.
I know it’s the christmas season and i should feel happy about seeing my family all together but I can’t get into it.
It isn’t just the season. I have felt like this for a while. Uneeded. A fifth wheel if you will. I don’t search out new friendships and the ones I have I feel I can leave with little or no impact.
I want to leave but I can’t bring myself to do it.
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Okay. So how old are you?
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brokenpoet121 wrote:
Okay. So how old are you?
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30.
i am 32 and have felt that way many times. hopefully you r in the same position as me, because when i felt that way, after talking with family and friends i realized that was not true. it was all MY self esteem and MY feelings. non of it was comming from them. I hope everything works out for you. I would talk to ur family and friends before leaving though. you might feel differently after
It’s just a phase of time in which things are tough. Realize your family loves you, get together with them and spend time together, talk and tell your stories and just have a good time with them for Christmas. Realize that everything will be okay, and they still love you and won’t stop doing so. :)
I know exactly how you feel. Because I am feeling that way right now. I am spendng my Christmas here with my bf away from my counrty and home (he is french) but yet I feel empty. and he provokes me to try to be jealous with is ex. but it makes me feel like I’m unwanted. Even if everything seems good I feel alone and pressed. I don’t do good with friend now in these days. I stop intrest in making new friendships, and I’m empty one more. I wish there was another way to cheer you up but if it helps you are not alone.
And even with family I feel the same way. I almost feel lost or like if I am trying to hold on to something that’s not there?
If you dont think you can talk to your family etc as above, i always take some time out for myself gather myself and then really make a effort if this doesnt work then maybe there is an important reason you feel like this
well there always a reason to feel alone
but the question is why?
Those are things we have to think about and discover what we want and how will it make us feel.
It’s just welling to do something about it.
castaneda.edit wrote:
And even with family I feel the same way. I almost feel lost or like if I am trying to hold on to something that’s not there?
Although it does not solve my problem. It is kind of comforting to know tnat I’m not alone in this. I just want to feel involved rather than numb.
Dealing with emotions is the hard. Numb on the other hand- you might want to search for what makes you happy. What use to make you happy?How did you lose this happiness?
Champigny-sur-Marne, A8, FR | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 4 minutes after post)
I can tell you that I write a lot. and I used to cry a lot, and I would be numb al the time. Adviced others and never accepted there input. But I found happiness once in the pitts of darkness. I soon came to realize that I do have a heart beneath the shadows that cloud my spirit. We just have to take a big step and do efforts and maybe by making others happy (smile or comment) that will open us up a little bit more. Sounds funny but I do try and it help at times. I go out and try to enjoy the sky, the breez, or sit down out side of a caffee and people watch while i drink.
castaneda.edit wrote:
Dealing with emotions is the hard. Numb on the other hand- you might want to search for what makes you happy. What use to make you happy?How did you lose this happiness?
I don’t know. I have felt good, but not happy…. does thta make sense?
over the last 2 years I have dealt with falling in love while knowing that nothing would happen and realising that the only solution was to remove myself from her life. This despite the fact we were good friends.
I know this is the center of my problem, I just can’t deal with it.
Champigny-sur-Marne, A8, FR | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 5 minutes after post)
yep lots
castaneda.edit wrote:
yep lots
I know I m not the first person to have this happen, or that I am the only persom to have this happen at the moment.
Still it is nice to know someone empathises.
Champigny-sur-Marne, A8, FR | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 13 minutes after post)
You know what I did with a guy I couldn’t get over ‘em. I eveluatied him.
1. he doesn’t call to say hi
2. he doesn’t care about what i say or do
3. If he would to show me a bit of efforts maybe I can still get along with him
4. If he love(ed/s) we would of been together by now.
then I said F*** you ????? I don’t need you I can do a lot better then this. you are not worth my energy and tears anymore.
I know it sounds funny but it work (for this person at least.)
Champigny-sur-Marne, A8, FR | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 16 minutes after post)
I wish I could of related to someone like what you are going through when I was feeling like S***
Hey Any time. Really, It’s a bad feeing I wouldn’t even wish upone another soul.
It the evaluation helps place the he t she:$
castaneda.edit wrote:
You know what I did with a guy I couldn’t get over ‘em. I eveluatied him. 1. he doesn’t call to say hi2. he doesn’t care about what i say or do3. If he would to show me a bit of efforts maybe I can still get along with him4. If he love(ed/s) we would of been together by now. then I said F*** you ????? I don’t need you I can do a lot better then this. you are not worth my energy and tears anymore. I know it sounds funny but it work (for this person at least.)
The first two she did. Thats friendship. The second two… well thats asking a little more. This is where the problems stared….. I was involved more than she ever would be…. and I knoew that. Isaw where it was headed but tried to pretend that all was good on a friedship level… in the hope that the friendship could be saved. I was wrong. I eventually felt terrible through my pretending, sure she disn’t know, but I was lying to myself.
This is why the friendship has ended. I was sick of pretending.
Champigny-sur-Marne, A8, FR | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 20 minutes after post)
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if you want to chat sometime.
Champigny-sur-Marne, A8, FR | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 21 minutes after post)
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Champigny-sur-Marne, A8, FR | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 25 minutes after post)
well exactlly what i did and sometimes do here and there, I don’t want t say thatbeing honest to your self is a must because that has gotten me in to troubles before. You just have to play t smart without sharing so much and gain very little. ambition is the perfect thing that must come to mind when you search for your self.
Champigny-sur-Marne, A8, FR | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 26 minutes after post)
what is it that Mathew wats?
castaneda.edit wrote:
ladyedy85@hotmail
thanks.
I’ve spken to a heap of people about this. All have different idea’s/opinions. None have helped yet.
I think I just have to keep on my path. Push her out of my life completely and hope that other friendshps on both sides are not affected.
Harsh, but like bandage, it needs to be removed sometime…… I ned to get this off.
castaneda.edit wrote:
what is it that Mathew wats?
I want to be happy again…… I know I can’t be happy with this hanging over me.
I also need a break. If this means being un-emotional and taking what I can get in the short term…. so be it… But I need an emotional release and I have no idea where to find that.
Champigny-sur-Marne, A8, FR | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 32 minutes after post)
yes take enough time needed you’ll soon come to find out that it has been healed. That will be the road that you need to make efforts on to lead to a path that guides you to happiness. It will be over soon, and a new women will finally step before you. you just need to relax and let the emotions heal by them self. but try to do efforts if you see no progress. Think about your needs, they will make you feel good at the end.
Champigny-sur-Marne, A8, FR | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 32 minutes after post)
Only good deeds can make a lonely person strong.
Champigny-sur-Marne, A8, FR | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 34 minutes after post)
always find your emotion within your self… the positive Matthew…The one that make him smile at problems.
Champigny-sur-Marne, A8, FR | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 39 minutes after post)
you are lucky, you are becoming much more wiser in for the future, more awear of things. because of the rough time you are having people like want to see you when you are revived. Trust me it feels great.
Champigny-sur-Marne, A8, FR | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 40 minutes after post)
and then you will feel like hey I need space and will feel emotion once again.
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