i need to cut
got blade out and everything…..home alone…..just wanna carve something into my wrist…..i cant get the memories of her to stop messing with me….she will never be able to enjoy her life cause she died in june….idk what to do….
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There’s no sense in doing that; pain doesn’t heal pain. And cutting hurts and leaves scars and is areal mess. Nope, not worth it.
Turn on some upbeat music and grab some cookies or somethin’.
im addicted….nothing else helps
no the blood does
That makes no sense man. Have you talked with a counselor or someone about these feelings that are messing with ya?
im not a man and yes
bitheway, every single post i read of yours, the same answers come from you. i suggest reading back throughout your other posts. there is a wealth of information, advice and help there which you do not seem to be interested in using or even taking any notice of
k ill leave….bye
So you’re talking to them, and it’s done nothing for you?
well if youre going to react like that, thats not my fault. no ones attacking you here or anything. but youre not willing to listen to anything anyone says. james is here reaching out to you and youre practically ignoring him. if you want to leave, fine. but theres no ned to be so dramatic about it.
darling, if you really want help quitting this, stop making excuses and start doing something to help yourself. we’re not a pity party. we’ll help you, but only if you genuinely need help and want to help yourself.
which one..the one that says i have an eating disorder, the one that tells me cutting is the weakest thing i could be doing, or the one at the psych ward who sat back and let him sexually asault me and then tell me in a session that she knew he did it and that i deserved it and that she wasnt in the least bit sorry…..
i tried talking to people
i havent cut in 21 days now three whole weeks…
So why start again? No sense in doing that. Everyone has hard things to deal with, but hurting yourself doesn’t help the cause. Not at all. Talking will though, with the right people.
Again?????? :(
it does help tho u dont understand
Why don’t you, instead of cutting yourself, go get something pierced, or get a tatoo…that might turn into a new addiction for you (if you don’t already have any, that is)
i am against piercings and tatoos
i just am….i dont scar
If cutting helped, you’d be seeing improvements. And if it helped, you wouldn’t here telling me you’re about to do it again - you just would.
but youll scar your skin with cuts? odd philosophy.
we dont understand? youre talkin to the wrong people here hun. we understand more than anyone ever. we also have advice to give and ways to get through it, if youre interested. are you?or are you looking for some pity?
If I didn’t understand pain and misfortune, I wouldn’t be human.
im sorry i bothered u…ill just b going now
Alright. But when you finally want to face what’s bothering you, we are around.
oh look, stop being so self involved and pitying of yourself here. we are here to help. we are trying. you are not listening. it seems you dont even want to get better.
do you have some of the same replies copied so you can just press ctrl v and watch the pity start flowing?
thanks for helping….cya around
were not going to beg you to stay around.were here to help people who want help.
im going to another site bye
well, if youre goi9n, go. youve said it a few times now. when you really want help return, well be here.
Exactly. Still here. Like jam on toast. The only place we might go is to the other side of the toast. But we always stick around…yeah…
yeah… I know the feeling… ya know? sometimes it’s just butter on toast though. better traction.
she might be suffering from hypochondriasis!
stop playing games *******
O.o who are the stars in reference to lol?
Yeah, sometimes though, they sprinkle cinnamon sugar on it and it gets in its eyes and makes it sneeze. I always say bless you, though, and soon it’ll pass and it’ll be sugary sweet :)
It must have been my toast comment…it tends to anger the gallery.
well…im ok bein called a bunch of stars. ive been called worse hahaha
teehee! *giggles and wiggles and blushes*
But seriously…ouch. Stick to stared toast like the rest of us. :D
wow…
you swear a lot…
:P
******* ******* ******* ******* ******* *******! *******
Settle down with the stars you two! You’re scarin the cats!
You mentioned that you haven’t cut in a long time, and that’s awesome - but the real question is what ARE you doing? It’s a poor analogy, but bear with me. I recently became a raw vegan, after a lifetime of meat and potatoes. The trick was finding foods I liked way better than the garbage i used to eat. Quitting meat didn’t work. Giving myself better food to eat did. And I’d definitely suggest losing the therapists that abused you, if you haven’t already. Stick to the ones that help you feel better!
BAM! anon is reveeeeeeeeeeealed mwahahaha
HA!
i knew itt
it’s the person whose English is incoherent!
I’ll forgive you darling. :D
u know fighting with me doesnt help….so leave if u just use this post to talk to eachother….
as for me being a poser….i am not, lets see in the last 6 weeks i had cut almost every day for 3 weeks, oded 2 times, and strangled myself a bunch…..
for those accusing me, leave….your not helping…if you dont understand cutting just leave
for those who understand what its like to cut….and know how hard it is not to….stay if you want
Let me see. What to do right now is nothing. Stop and think of some good times. Remember the dead are not gone. She may be sitting right there next to you. Do you want her to see what you are about to do? Time is on your side. Try to feel her spirit not the blade. Positive thoughts and feeling will generate positive results. It may take time. There that concept of time again but it will work for you if you give it a chance. You may miss out on some insightful spiritual knowledge that may be directed to you when you open your spirit and thoughts to what is happening around you. Try some of the spiritual websites they have a lot of inspiration. But just don’t do anything yet. Sit and let you mind flow out all the negative.
I am in your corner sending my vibes. Your life is in God’s hands so let him decide.
Just a concerned earth person
finally someone who is helpful
if you dont understand cutting and how hard the cravings are to fight then leave, if you are jsut here to talk to eachother leave
excuse me? reread the post please. we all came to your aid, and tried to help. you didnt listen, or take on board anything tht was offered. then you said you were leaving, and left. so we continued on without you. now it seems youre back, which must mean youre ready to stop the pity and actually try to help yourself?
and fyi, were all cutters, why do you think we came to this post in the first place huh?
well excuse me if i feel attacked here….sorry if ive tried everything already suggested and nothing works….i wouldnt have come here if i knew what would work…..ive tried every alternative and nothing….
dont assume ****
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 6 minutes after post)
I know exactly what it’s like.
do you know what it’s like to want to stop cutting so f***ing badly but find that you have no one, absolutely no one to talk to or help you? Have you ever thought to yourself I’d like to quit this addiction? Have you ever cut so deeply and not told anyone because you didn’t actually want attention? I understand a lot more than you, darling. I don’t make posts one after another and make the same excuses. For once in my life, I’m getting my life back in order. And to watch you throw a pity party for yourself half makes me laugh and half makes me disgusted. I’m ranting this and then I’m going to go back to not caring.
Learn something from this. Stop being such a attention sl*t and start wanting help. Until you realize this, we’re all going to sit back and watch that nice party of yours that has some nice toast and a whole lot of insults. So enjoy. Have fun watching everyone go head over heels to help you. But it won’t last long. And soon you’ll be alone again.
you know what im fine now….so whatever im never coming back
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 9 minutes after post)
have a nice life.
and yet you continue the pity party. were not going to stress out over this.
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 12 minutes after post)
“you’re better within one hour? I never knew that could happen with addiction.”
sorry, had a bit of truth, had to translate so it… the poster… could read it
I got it…I think it means…”toast heals addictions in 1 hour”.
**** u all to hell
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 14 minutes after post)
well, obviously, but toast is above the heads of some people here. I don’t think they realize the healing powers. It’s not right for us to convert them so soon.
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 14 minutes after post)
wow, angry!
1-800-NEED-HIM talk to these guys they are awsome! ive been an addict of several things and they got the awnser to solve it i promise!!!!! please just call them please!!!
if you feel attacked by these guys i can understand! look at the remarks they act like they are helping
1-800-NEED-HIM i promise they wont critizize you.. you guys are putting her down with hummor!!!!!!!! whats the matter with you!!!!!!!! do u feel better to put them down when they are searching for help???
Well hey, I tried helping, she didn’t want it, and left. So we continued a happy convo before leaving, and she came back all meanie faced. I don’t see anything wrong with that.
she doesnt seem to happy right now… she is still looking for someone to support her!! and at LEASE so some mercey
does any one here belive in jesus christ?
Well…all I did was try to help. And I was told to go to hell. So I see no reason to show mercy of any kind. Actually…I’m done here.
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 22 minutes after post)
Yes, I believe in Jesus Christ, I don’t think anyone doubts his existence at one time.
It could be a conspiracy theory though.
would jesus say… mr grumpy gills very angery grrr or give up on any one??? has he given up on you???
grube_2 wrote:
would jesus say… mr grumpy gills very angery grrr or give up on any one??? has he given up on you???
Not sure…I will ask him next time he calls.
u mock god!! do u not understand the full power he has?
whaaaat…i left for like, 2 minutes and its turned into religious sermon already??!?! omg. come oooooon
alyssa_wiser_gir wrote:
and yes jesus might say mr.grumpy gills grr very angery to a fish
You are one of my new favorite people.
he is saying sarcasticly and jesus is SERIOUS… america has taken him lightly and has become luke warm as mentioned in romans ch3… jesus is serious and if you realize the true power in him you wouldnt make such light comments
lay off the crack there kiddo…i find tht helps with my delusions
the bible states many times that if you do not give it all to him you cannot be his deciple! i belive every word is true and if you donot denny yourself you are still of the world
yea…no **** im of the world. im..human. i aint from the moon
now how can you refuse an offer like that
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 29 minutes after post)
*sigh*
go away. you’re not supposed to preach at us. I’m gonna tell you youuuu
jesus is the awnser to all! if you live your life as a servant to him nothing else can bring you into depretion you can do all things… once you give your life you will be filled with the wholly spirit and joy will flow abbundantly in your life
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 30 minutes after post)
*tell on youuuuu
I play my Trumpet from the moon using exoctronic pressure that builds up in the cellular walls fusioned together by extressential lunar waves…
live my life as a servant. didnt we fight wrs so we WOULDNT have to do that? why the hell would i choose to serve?! youre a silly billy
lol no monk im a conservative prodostant
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 31 minutes after post)
ha ha
they can’t even spell their own religion!
hmm, is that like a protestant?
by the way is bitheway still out there?????
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 32 minutes after post)
lol, funny sentence *grins*
ya ppl made fun of me for my spelling… it happens but ur changing the topic off jesus…
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 34 minutes after post)
err… it’s not supposed to be about Jesus, hun. How about you go pray? It’ll make you feel better. :)
well…i just would have imagined were you so into your religion and god youd know how to spell the religion you live your life by. just puttin it out there ya know
ya
and in romans 1 if it talks about a repubate mind…(verry dangerious) and if you give up on god after a while he will give up on you… may god have mercy
mercy sounds pretty gay
your full ofit stop wasting peoples time
theirs a point and time where ppl just dont and wont get it im sry may god opean your eyes and let you see bye
@hotmail add me too james ;)
oops haha
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 37 minutes after post)
this post is rapidly going out of control.
I love it.
(email removed)
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add meeeeeeeeeeee add meeeeeeeeee everyone hehe
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 39 minutes after post)
fine, I’m excluded.
*cries*
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 41 minutes after post)
alyssa
ur mom
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 42 minutes after post)
oh, I don’t feel like telling you, I just felt excluded
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 43 minutes after post)
nifty!
I’m sleepy.
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 44 minutes after post)
Idk my bff jill?
12?
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 46 minutes after post)
yesh, tis indeed
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 49 minutes after post)
you’re seriously 12?
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 50 minutes after post)
err… ’cause you’re not allowed on this site.
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 52 minutes after post)
depends if I’m bored. Maybe.
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (1 hour, 54 minutes after post)
I like rules. They’re nice. I like messing with people. It’s fun.
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (2 hours, 2 minutes after post)
err… no, I’m not even gonna respond to that. I’m bored. I need a new toy to play with.
Happy early birthday!
*wanders away*
ok….if ur gonna cut urself…find a new hobby….i am in the 9th grade and i am 14 years old….i use to cut myself..very badly….
how i stopped was i asked myself…what would jesus do?
ask yourself that same question….Jesus wouldnt cut himself…he would try to help himself and others…personaly i think it is very stupid to mark your body with scars all over your arms and legs or whereever you cut. That is just destroying you. It isnt help any…I promise.
Now…I dont know how old you are or what…but if a 14 year old girl can figure this one out on her own…then **** stop being a baby about it and do something!!
I understand the slump this person is in right now, talking to them and trying to cheer them up won’t help and it seems they need help on their own quite a bit. I’ve just concluded that people can’t really get help if they’re not willing for it, it’s merely a cry for help, but with no willpower for it, it’s senseless to wonder if they’ll stop cutting or not right now. We’ll just see, in the mean time, we’ll pray for you.
well, just relax, and think of the good times that you have had with her… and decide if those memories would be best wasted in a head of a dead person… probably not, right? so, simply carry a picture in your pocket and move on… she is still alive in your head, heart, and dreams.
Read this.
http://help.com/post/115550-people-wh…
and if you still want to cut, go to the dam doctor. theres nothing else these people can say to help you. so if it isnt helping you need to get proff help.
I’m sorry for what you’re going through bitheway. I’m sorry for how some of the people on your post acted as well, I know you’ll feel a little attacked and invaded with them talking to each other on your post and laughing about cookies or whatever but please don’t be discouraged, they’re good people and they’re just doing what they think is right. Some people are tougher than others, they might no understand that just by not agreeing with you and making assumptions such as you are trying to get pity that they can make you feel incredibly bad. I don’t believe you’re seeking pity, though its natural to want it, like when a kid cries on his Mum “there there..” It feels subtely but a whole lot better, like cutting really.. I think what you really want is a solution. Taking some natural anxiety/mood brighteners from a chemist helped me a lot, not anti depressants, just some local general thing, it will help or do nothing at all. Otherwise all I can suggest is seeing a professional, and you might have to try several to find one that actually seems to understand. Good luck >_
hey there,
i know what your going through. i was addicted too.. i still have urges to cut.. but see i got put into a mental/behavioral unit for burning my leg to a third degree.. like one of the replys..its not worth it.. i know thats hard to think.. but its still hard for me.. if you need to talk about it more shout me… The person that died.. would she want you to cut? i dont think so.. i believe she would want you to be happy and not cry over her.. because you will see her again one day… be happy… think about her life, not her death.. holla sum time
peace out-AnNa LuVs YoU(Meow)
MariaB said,
“Remember the dead are not gone. She may be sitting right there next to you. Do you want her to see what you are about to do? Time is on your side. Try to feel her spirit not the blade.”
Well, unfortunately that is not true at all. All people who die are not able to contact us, they are not here. Their spirit is where God has placed it. They cannot see you, hear you, etc.
Only in Jesus Christ is truth found.
don’t listen to these people…read your Bible starting weith the New Testamant (Gospel of John is a great place to start).
Go to a local church, seek the pastor for guidance. Find a Christian help/crisis center.
Your difficulties are not worse than any other person’s, just manifest in a different form.
hi bitheway remember me??? last week you had the same post up and you kept saying you needed 2 cut and that you couldnt wait. it had been 2 weeks then. its been 3 weeks now. you can wait and you can do it. you can stop, even if you have 2 spend hours and hours talking 2 ppl.
merry xmas n dont cut. i repeat every thing i said last week. if you need 2 talk im here.
I used to cut and it does help for a little while..
But I cut everwhere
Chest, arms, legs everywhere…
The trouble is that I always wanted to be a model, When I finally got my big break, they noticed my scars and said that I couldnt do the job…
So… ya know
xxxx
You should just jump off a bridge.
You know some young people really do need help and have a hard time taking advice or understanding it. Whether or not you think it is just a cry for help it is still a cry that deserves honest attention. Yes people should learn to help themselves but they still need to be taught how to help themselves. I do not have the answers but I can help you find where to look for them. If this woman is even still involved in this post, please do not give up on yourself. THere are decent people in this world who are honest and want to help you. Contact me if you need someone to talk to.
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (20 hours, 27 minutes after post)
saaaaraaaaah! you finally made it. geez luv, we been waitin a while!
sure youre home now? maybe youre not…O.o
jenn honey, if u ever wanna talk boutthis, instead of putting up with the silly little 12 yr olds writing stupid stuff,just send me a shout or something ok hon? ill get to u as soon as possible ok? stay ok hon
*hugs*
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (22 hours, 56 minutes after post)
we tried talking. if youll read the post, youll see what transpired from that. fyi, were not 12 and silly:)
no but someone is, and i dont believe ‘go jump off a bridge’ is very constructive do u? not havinga go at all of u ok
jenna_jag wrote:
hi bitheway remember me??? last week you had the same post up and you kept saying you needed 2 cut and that you couldnt wait. it had been 2 weeks then. its been 3 weeks now. you can wait and you can do it. you can stop, even if you have 2 spend hours and hours talking 2 ppl.
merry xmas n dont cut. i repeat every thing i said last week. if you need 2 talk im here.
Good points…
wow. this post has more twists and turns than a dodgy lead! stay safe bitheway, and get professional help. It is, for many, one of the most difficult options, but often it is the best one. bite the bullet, push both pain and pride aside, search and don’t stop searching until you find the help you need. Think about it, you know exactly what I mean. There comes a time when one must help oneself in any way possible. U up for the challenge?
why the **** hurt yourself when there are 6 billion other people you can hurt
violence will never solve anything!~~
just look ahead!~ what would she want you to do?~ things like that.. and maybe grab some cookies as well!~~
Ehhh Courty you said you tried talking. Okay, so talking to each over this persons post isn’t helping. So if you’re done just talk somewhere else? Don’t mean to be rude just.. yeah.
no offense but theres some little kids on this site who need help with there homework and stuff and this creeps them out , so maybe taking it down and calling that hotline would help everybody ?
if they dont like the discussion, they know what ita bout from the title, they can stay away
you have to be over 13 i think…and 13year olds have problems 2. if lil kids want to come on here then let them.
if anythin i think its good that young kids come on here because they are obviously seeking knowledge about something, which they need to grow up.
its about maturity not age. i know a 13 yr old whos more mature than most adults i know. whereas i know another who is childish to the point of twattishness
lmao. i love the word twattishness.
but i agree, although there are more mature adults then teenagers…there are still some who reverse there roles.
if youll read the post from the beginning fletch, youll see that we tried talking to and helping th poster. but it seems she wasnt interested in anything but getting some pity.
3 different posts in a week, and there is so much advice on them. but will she take any? no. so its not our fault the post went the way it did as she wasnt willing to even try helping herself.
shed already left by the time the chatting started.
Hey, if you’re going to play a stupid blame game, blame me. I was there. And if all you’re going to do is come here to pass judgement on the people who tried helping, you’re not even TRYING, so don’t bother making a comment at all.
most of yall think you were trying. but you wern’t helping her at at all. u just made her feel worse. someone in depression needs to be eased into things slowly. if they are in pain and you just walk up and say “snap out of it! c’mon! its easy!” that hurts them and makes them angry in ways that you cannot begin to understand (if you have never been in depression thats a VERY good thing and I am happy for you, honest) but the downside of not being in depression is you cannot begin to imagine what it feels like. so please if you think ur trying to help and its obvious its not working just say “im sorry i couldn’t help” then leave the post. simple as that.
youre talking to a bunch of people who are very familier with depression, its effects, discriminations and pain.
we DO know the pain and how it feels.
we DID try to help, our help was rejected.
know what and who youre talking about before you go saying we dont know.
Apparently they didn’t read my initial attempts to help… >.
lol, do they ever?
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