Part Two: Just Another Relationship Rant.
So in case you don’t know im bi and in love with my bi bestfriend. Needless to say she doesn’t know that. We kinda developed into a friends with benefits thing but we’ve never acknowledged it or spoken about it, it just happens. So over the last few months we stopped being physical and I was okay with that. But the last two weeks or so we’ve started again, but little things like touching, closeness, cuddling and whatnot. Last night we were over at her house just watching movies and tv and hanging out with her family. Anyways we ended up going to bed and making out PG or PG13 depending on your views then going to sleep. I left a rather large hickey on her neck as I found out in the morning. I had to leave obnoxiously early for work, she came down and gave me a hug and said we’d text later. (she still hadn’t seen her neck) So I get to work and text her that im sorry about marking up her neck. She responds with “I cant do this anymore. Its over, whatever this thing we do is. I wont do it” (not actually a direct quote) I say im really sorry and she says its okay but its over and she doesn’t want to talk about it anymore. I get why shes angry because her family will almost definitely notice the marks and will know theyre from me. (neither of us have come out) Anyway im sure our friendship will be fine, we’ll just go back to pretending nothing ever happened. Im just not sure how to feel. I mean on one hand Im almost glad because now maybe I can try to move on and she actually acknowledged that something was going on. On the other hand im sad because I care about her so much and want to be with her and it seems like any possibility of that is officially closed.
Basically I don’t know what I expect from posting this. Sympathy, encouragement, advice, lol a stern talking to, dunno….just needed to rant.
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