life help: Hey yall well lastnight i fight into a fight with my mom…again

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Hey yall well lastnight i fight into a fight with my mom…

again and well i hit here and ran out the door and went to my brothers house and i cutting my body up pretty bad. and well it wasn’t good. But here is a couple poems i wrote over the past weeks and stuff. I just wanted to show them to someone.

Regret.

I walk with these shadows that i can’t exscape. There haunting me,screaming at me,Laughting at me.I’m sceared that i won’t be able to get away from this life i live,from my past,from the person that i have become.I wonder why it has gone this far. I look back at the photographs and smile for a moment,Then I think of now and remember everything.I see the fights, hear the crys and I know now why i am who i am. I look down at what i’ve done. Everytime you fight I run and hide i can’t take it.I look at the blood driping off of my body and I feel better for a bit…Untill the next time you fight. I walk down this road with all these things i regret,with all the pain I am and I know why i am what i am.

I’M JUST A GIRL.

I’m just a girl who lives in this world where i do not belong.
I can’t be perfect like some others.
I can’t be who you want me to be.
there is no point in telling me how i need to live my life.
Or who i need to be.
It’s not going to work. It’s not worth your time to even try.
If you try harder i will reabell even harder and worse.
I can’t live this life anymore. all the fighting,hating,hurtting,all the sadness and screaming.
Just STOP! don’t you see how this is affecting me? Can’t you see what your doing to me?
Why can’t you see all the pain you have put me thro.
How can’t you see all the pain i’m in.
Everytime you fight,hate,hurt,scream all what your doing is putting another scar in my heart,mind body and soul.
I can’t live like this anymore.
I can’t live in this world of pain and untrust.
I’m just a girl who lives in this world where i do not belong.
Will there be anywhere for this girl to be ok and live in peace.

Hate and Pain.

whats the difference between hate and pain
in both situations you lose and gain
wether it is the loss of blood or the loss of joy
your spirit is trown away like a broken toy
only when the cuts seal shut and the hate is stored away
will you return to the world and be ok..

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (42 minutes after post)

im going to counteract your poetry with poetry!

Each Scar has its own tale to tell
and each one is for all the pain that i dwell
one for laughter - and one for tears
one for memories - and one for fears
All this pain kept inside
leads to all these scars that i must hide
so take the time to listen to me
and dont start cutting
please, let your skin be!

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Atlanta, GA, US | 1 year, 11 months ago (8 hours, 32 minutes after post)

Rough one, Meg.

But as always, your verse is uncannily poignant, honest and touches me deeply. Somehow reminds me of Emily Dickinson. I hope you keep your writings together.

meghancorcoran18 2 #
Post Falls, ID, US | 1 year, 11 months ago (8 hours, 38 minutes after post)

Your poetry is good.but i am a cutter i have be now for over 8 months and i tryed stoping many times. Its just when i fight with my family or who ever i just runnaway and hide then i let all my anger out on my body and the more i do it the more i realie on it and i never wanted that to happen.

Help me with: Hey everyone.I was wanting to know…i havnt cut for 3 months 6 days and 17 hours…And latly all what i have been thinking about is cutting?

meghancorcoran18 2 #
Post Falls, ID, US | 1 year, 11 months ago (8 hours, 57 minutes after post)

wow well thank you Oster. thats really sweet of you to say. and i had no clue that i touched you deeply with my writting.

Help me with: Hey everyone.I was wanting to know…i havnt cut for 3 months 6 days and 17 hours…And latly all what i have been thinking about is cutting?

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (10 hours, 57 minutes after post)

read this, its a post on this site about cutting.

http://help.com/post/115550-people-wh…

you gotta stop cutting…if youve been cutting for 8months then it obviously hasnt helped the problem. and you still have issues that cutting just isnt solving. you need to find another way to relive the frustration and anger.

search on the web for “alternatives to self harm”

sure youll be able to find a load. if that isnt helping then find yourself a counciller. ive seen one and it can help when you find the right one trust me!

good luck xx

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meghancorcoran18 2 #
Post Falls, ID, US | 1 year, 11 months ago (12 hours, 26 minutes after post)

Thank you so much. People have told me on here to tell someone that is in my life about what i do and that they would help me. I told two people that are very very close to me and well one of them took it really well. He kind of knew about it befor hand and he was still a little freaked out because he did want to except that i would do somethig to harmful to myself. But he took it really well and he has been trying to help me but he also has his own problems and stuff like that and when i told the other person. He really freaked out he didn;t know what to do or say to me and that hurt me even more because i have known both of these guys my hole life and i thought my friend would take it better then he did and help me. I debated for a couple months whether or not i would tell these people. but when i told this good friend of mine he basicly took off on me and wouldn’t talk to me for the longest time. We hung out all the time every weekend almost everyday and sence i told him we havn’t hung out at all and it hurts me more then ever because we are so close. It makes me feel like i made a made a bad choice by telling him that i do cut and that i do have these problems in my life.

Help me with: Hey everyone.I was wanting to know…i havnt cut for 3 months 6 days and 17 hours…And latly all what i have been thinking about is cutting?

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (17 hours, 22 minutes after post)

not at all babes, listen…if he was a GOOD friend he would be supportive…at the same time it may be hard for him to deal with.

the best thing you can do is make sure you meet up with him and have a talk about it. explain to him how you feel when you cut. explain that your not trying to kill yourself…a big misconception nowadays is that everybody who cuts are emo and are trying to kill themselves…which we both know isnt the case. so try to be really clear and honest with him.

if he still doesnt try to support you and is acting like a jerk then he isnt worth it.

along the bumpy road in life some hard things come around and you find out who your real friends are..

“when you lose everything you want, you find the only thing you need”

if you remember that saying and take it in and use it, you will become very powerful one day. you will be very strong and emotionally stable. (amongst help from other things obviously) but you gotta be strong and stand up and say

“bollox to you world!!” because you dont owe it anything, and lifes to short to go around pleasing others. you gotta help yourself!!

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meghancorcoran18 2 #
Post Falls, ID, US | 1 year, 11 months ago (20 hours, 32 minutes after post)

UMHM I understand that every much but the thing is i can’t just for get about it and leave him be. Because hes my brother…So its like everytime see him its going to hurt because he dosnt want to talk to me or hang out with me.

Help me with: Hey everyone.I was wanting to know…i havnt cut for 3 months 6 days and 17 hours…And latly all what i have been thinking about is cutting?

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