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I guess I need to get this off my chest, and what better way than the anonymity of the internet?

8 months ago my girlfriend of a year dumped me. She and I had been entangled in a long distance relationship ever since we met at a college run summer school program. We spent a month together and really got close towards the end of the program. (you know it’s funny how love works, it’s like she just walked into my life so unexpectedly) Fortunately enough for both of us, both are families could afford to fly us to see each other once every month or month and a half. I guess it was like being on a constant honey moon. We just couldn’t keep our hands and eyes off each other when we were together. Even during the times we were away from each other, we called each other once a day. She really was something to me, and I devoted a fair amount of my time trying to make her happy. I guess I was so attatched because she was so different than any girl I had met before. She just stood out in crowds because of her beauty, the way she spoke, the way she carried herself. I was truly a lucky guy.

This past summer I left for the beginning of a “transitional” program designed to get us freshmen prepared for what our first (and worst) year at a military university might be like. We could still use our phones at the time and I was always sure to place a call to that special girl of mine. She would later go to an ivy league univeristy a hundred miles away. We both knew we would be seperated for a longer time before, but we weren’t particularly nervous since we had been doing the long distance for some time now. Then it happend. Over the course of a few days I could hear her interest in me sliding away. I knew something was up and was powerless to do anything. Just one day she decided to respond to my “I love you” with a silence and then asked if “we could take a break…”

We did.. I called her once or twice after that as a “friend” and haven’t heard anything since. After my 6th month initiation phase (I guess you could call it that) I found out she was with a mr. perfect at her university, and here I was, a soldier in training feeling abandoned, used, and betrayed. I guess the most shocking part about it was the way she just “showed up” in my life and the way she “walked away.” Literally she ended a lot of hopes and dreams with a single, impersonal phone call. Now I have no idea where she is or what she’s doing. I kind of feel like I’m watching the person who was right for me fall out of my grasp. It’s an amazing feeling of powerlessness. I mean, I’ve been trained to think that I can solve anything with dedication, discipline, and confidence. Too bad this one doesn’t work like that. At night I dream about randomly driving (which is already out of the question since only the most senior cadets here are allowed to have cars) and going the distance to sweep her off her feet and restore that past relationship. It has been hard for me to deal with that fact that this will never happen. The only thing I really wanted was a chance to say goodbye in person, you know just to be in her presence again would be nice.

Anyway, thanks to anyone who bothered to read this rant. I just feel better knowing that at least one person might give a ****. Plus I think it was a good Idea to get all that out my system!

- Cadet

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Anonymous #
5 years, 5 months ago (5 minutes after post)

awwh :(

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An Undisclosed Location | 5 years, 5 months ago (6 minutes after post)

mann that sucks

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nirvash offline Verified User (5 years, 5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 5 years, 5 months ago (8 minutes after post)

And you’re just going to let her go like that? I’d drop outta whatever you’re in and commit myself to winning her back like my life depended on it, if she really meant that much. Screw any other priorities in life. I’d put the person I love before anything.

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Anonymous #
5 years, 5 months ago (10 minutes after post)

hahahha have you ever watched Legally Blonde? same thing rightt so go steal her heart from that Ken doll she found! :)))

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US | 5 years, 5 months ago (42 minutes after post)

sorry

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Sorcerer1005 offline Verified User (5 years, 5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 19 #
Houston, TX, US | 5 years, 5 months ago (4 hours, 27 minutes after post)

Dam bro, I don’t even know what to say, that freaking girl dam lol Well, just going to have to sweep that one under the rug and forget about it. Sorry to hear that though I don’t even know you or anything but I’d feel pretty bad myself, although I have to say the whole long distance thing didn’t look to good even from the beginning, as is with most long distance relationships, I’m not sure if I would have gone on “with” it knowing we’d be apart. Anyways thats just me, hope you find someone else. Good Luck with your training, career and love life. :-)

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nextstar offline Verified User (5 years, 12 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 5 years, 5 months ago (5 hours, 33 minutes after post)

I know how do you feel , the best way is to move on , no good byes , just let her go. It is so painful now , you need time to get through this just don’t worry at the end you will find your way out (if you want to) .

You will fall in love again .. I know it :)

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Anonymous #
5 years, 5 months ago (10 hours, 43 minutes after post)

What a story.
If she is supposed to be with you I’m sure she’ll realize it sooner or later.
If not,who knows? Another great girl might pop into your life again :)

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vickierhodesm offline Verified User (5 years, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
Missoula, MT, US | 5 years, 5 months ago (13 hours, 16 minutes after post)

I don’t think she felt as strongly as you did and I’m sorry for that, but you could look at it this way. At least you found out now instead of after getting engaged or married. When you lose a loved one whether in death or a breakup it can hurt so bad and it takes a long time to get over it. You have to take this one day at a time with baby steps until you don’t feel that pain anymore. Go out with friends, don’t cut your self off from the world and have a good time it will help. Try very hard every day to not dwell on her and her face, but on something completely different. I really hopes this helps. Good Luck

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willanie offline Verified User (5 years, 5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
US | 5 years, 5 months ago (16 hours, 51 minutes after post)

I’m really sorry. If it feels any better I know what it feels like when “the” person walks out of your life but of all the attempts from people to make me feel better there was one that really stood out:” when there is a relationship that fails in your life it is to prepare you for the one person that was really meant for you”. Strongs!!
P.S Reckless driving dreams means that you are losing control of your life and you are responsible for it.( You sound like a really nice guy, don’t throw away your life.Nothing is forever, the frustration and the hurt WILL go away!!!!)

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grey_cadet_'11 offline Verified User (5 years, 5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Undisclosed Location | 5 years, 5 months ago (18 hours, 12 minutes after post)

Well I wasn’t exactly going to wrecklessly drive to see her, it was more of just a pleasant dream where I made a road trip to her college. You know, the usual wishful thinking of sweeping her off her feet again. I mean, I have way too much to risk for me to do something stupid. That’s what saddens me I guess. Knowing that I can’t do anything about it, and that I’m stuck here attatched to my school and my dreams of getting a flight position in the USAF. Anyway, thanks for all the sympathy guys. I never really told anybody all of this so I saw this as an opportunity to get it out of my system!

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5 years, 5 months ago (21 hours, 20 minutes after post)

I’ve never told anybody this but something similar happened to me. I had this boyfriend for a couple of months and all of a sudden he told me that he had to move to across the country and that he just wanted to be friends. It really broke my heart, it took me awhile to get over it. For like two years I couldn’t get him out of my head! I hated every moment of it. I mean it seemed like no one else was appealing to me anymore…but one day I woke up and that feeling was gone. It may have taken awhile but yeah…he recently contacted me and told me that he was sorry that he was such a stupid jerk in the past. He regret what he did…too bad for him. :) It just takes time to get over someone. Keep yourself busy. You seem like a nice guy, so I’m sure things will turn out just the way they are supposed to be.

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An Unknown Location | 3 years, 4 months ago (2 years, 1 month after post)

Was just surfing by looking for info on a project.

First, we salute you and thank you for choosing the military, no matter what branch.

Second, take it from an old married lady..get over it and move on. Most people love many times before they find one that is worthy of them. What is important is becoming the man that is worthy of the best. Be honest and true, if that is not enough for her then she does not deserve you. Don’t let anyone soil who you are, don’t let this disappointment affect you negatively. A man’s character is not measured by what life gives him, but by what he does with what life gives him. Don’t do stupid things, don’t emabarrass yourself, don’t carry the hurt and let it damage you in any way. If you do, you give her power over you long after she has gone.

I promise you there will be another, better woman, but you have to be ready for her. Don’t waste your time mourning for long. Feel the pain, put it in it’s place and use it to make you a better man…not an angry man.

My husband flew for the Navy for 30 years. I am grateful to the lovely wife he lost to cancer and the nasty, insecure ***** who divorced him for making him the wonderful guy he is today. He has loved and he has hurt, but he rose above it and learned from it.

Do the right thing.

Oh…and I could care less about being anonymous…Long Beach, CA…moving to Tennessee in the future!
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