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sunshinealik
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Denver, NC, US

i really need help.

badly.
i don’t know what to do but this ‘feeling’ won’t stop and it’s slowly taking control.
it’s killing me.
i’d do anything to make this….pain stop.
i just want someone to help…but at times help would never be enough for this low im suffering…
at times i just want to die so it will stop…
but luckly there is always something in the way to stop me….
no one is understands…
and my friends….lets just say they can’t help….
I’LL JUST ALWAYS BE THIS BIG LOSER WHO WANTS TO DIE!!!
and no one cares…

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sunshinealik changed the tags on this post: they were "friends, Pain and nociception, suffering, Control, Feeling, Stop, Cares river, kill, Times, Die" 7 months ago.

tumble weed offline Verified User (10 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Waterloo, ON, CA | 7 months ago (1 minute after post)

I care… what’s this pain that is killing you…

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katiemr offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
GB | 7 months ago (3 minutes after post)

i second tumble weeds comment

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sunshinealik offline Verified User (11 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
Denver, NC, US | 7 months ago (4 minutes after post)

everything!
and….there is always this constant weight on me…..
i don’t know why…but it’s telling me the most horrid things…and i just can’t ignore it any longer!

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00112233 offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 8 #
An Undisclosed Location | 7 months ago (5 minutes after post)

i care to. i hv th same feeln and odk wat it is.

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sunshinealik offline Verified User (11 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
Denver, NC, US | 7 months ago (6 minutes after post)

it just something i can’t explain…and i want to go away!

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tumble weed offline Verified User (10 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Waterloo, ON, CA | 7 months ago (9 minutes after post)

what makes you feel good?

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00112233 offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 8 #
An Undisclosed Location | 7 months ago (10 minutes after post)

yeah i so can realate. im into meaditatin, and pettin animals, that helps me. but wateva makes you feel like urself

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sunshinealik offline Verified User (11 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
Denver, NC, US | 7 months ago (11 minutes after post)

the thing is NOTHING helps!
i just want out!!!

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00112233 offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 8 #
An Undisclosed Location | 7 months ago (12 minutes after post)

hum. i wonder….nah that wouldnt work

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sunshinealik offline Verified User (11 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
Denver, NC, US | 7 months ago (13 minutes after post)

im afraid whats going to happen…whenever i get really low again…never know…that scares me…i’d do anything.

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tumble weed offline Verified User (10 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Waterloo, ON, CA | 7 months ago (14 minutes after post)

tell me what’s good about being “out”?

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00112233 offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 8 #
An Undisclosed Location | 7 months ago (15 minutes after post)

what good about being in? whats good about feelin like nothin ever workd, that nobody really cares what you do or who u are?!

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00112233 offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 8 #
An Undisclosed Location | 7 months ago (15 minutes after post)

woops…works, not workd

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tumble weed offline Verified User (10 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Waterloo, ON, CA | 7 months ago (16 minutes after post)

if you’re having trouble in life… change it!!! because if you’re having trouble with something… others are probably having troubles in the same area… much like animalluvr here… you guys can come together and help all those who are in your situation… what do you think???

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sunshinealik offline Verified User (11 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
Denver, NC, US | 7 months ago (16 minutes after post)

i just want out of this…low?
i know that won’t happen though…it just keeps getting worse intill one day….i’ll do something really stupid….

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tumble weed offline Verified User (10 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Waterloo, ON, CA | 7 months ago (16 minutes after post)

start caring animalluvr… help people see

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00112233 offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 8 #
An Undisclosed Location | 7 months ago (17 minutes after post)

i know wat u mean ive cut and my ex told me that i was an insolite little **** and no one loved me and so i got help. i still hurt inside because i still love him and i know that nothing really helps. but tell me, do you know, even the slightest thouhgt, what could make you hurt?

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sunshinealik offline Verified User (11 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
Denver, NC, US | 7 months ago (17 minutes after post)

animalluvr can i get ur email if u don’t mind…and when i need help i’ll email you maybe?

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00112233 offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 8 #
An Undisclosed Location | 7 months ago (18 minutes after post)

yeah no prob. i just dont wanna put it out here….lemme be ur friend then ill give it 2 ya through that

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sunshinealik offline Verified User (11 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
Denver, NC, US | 7 months ago (19 minutes after post)

my ex.
my life.
…i’ve cut before…alot…but i promised myself i would start and im afraid i’ll end up cutting…an go to far…you know?

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00112233 offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 8 #
An Undisclosed Location | 7 months ago (20 minutes after post)

ya i do. umm, go 2 my profile, mb it will let u see my email….i said to let ya see it but idk

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tumble weed offline Verified User (10 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Waterloo, ON, CA | 7 months ago (20 minutes after post)

there are a lot of people who use to cut on this website… a lot of people to talk to about these lows and maybe understand your situation… i’ll try and find one for you

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00112233 offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 8 #
An Undisclosed Location | 7 months ago (20 minutes after post)

o_0

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tumble weed offline Verified User (10 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Waterloo, ON, CA | 7 months ago (22 minutes after post)
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00112233 offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 8 #
An Undisclosed Location | 7 months ago (23 minutes after post)

wat was dat ****?

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00112233 offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 8 #
An Undisclosed Location | 7 months ago (23 minutes after post)

sunshinealik, u there?

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sunshinealik offline Verified User (11 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
Denver, NC, US | 7 months ago (24 minutes after post)

sry. im here.

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00112233 offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 8 #
An Undisclosed Location | 7 months ago (25 minutes after post)

its ok, did u go n expt me?

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00112233 offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 8 #
An Undisclosed Location | 7 months ago (27 minutes after post)

hellllooo?

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sunshinealik offline Verified User (11 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
Denver, NC, US | 7 months ago (32 minutes after post)

sry.
my mum needed teh computer for a min.
i added u to my yahoo account…

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caseycdea offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
Asheville, NC, US | 7 months ago (1 hour, 11 minutes after post)

Sunshinealik, It sounds very painfull, lonely , and isolating what you are going through. Nietze, the famous philosopher said: what doesn’t kill you can make you stronger. It is not necessarily the good times and happy go lucky times that gives meaning to our lives, but the pain and suufering that gives us our depth, compassion for others, and our capacity for seeing beauty. I bet that you are stronger than you think. and I guarantee you that this time will pass. And don’t be afraid to ask for help. maybe you can find a balance between letting others help you but still following your own intuition. I know it sounds like b.s., but you are unique and significant. Of all the billions of living beings, just on this earth,the number of human beings that there are is just not that many -relatively. It is rare to be a human.

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rickyandfamily offline Verified User (8 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
Bastrop, LA, US | 7 months ago (1 hour, 21 minutes after post)

hey sunshinealik my name is ricky, i just wanted to tell you try to keep going on minute by minute hour by hour. i hurt too it gets so bad i really lose it and go off the deep end. but i always make it thru, you do the same , all the love is with you

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caseycdea offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
Asheville, NC, US | 7 months ago (2 hours, 5 minutes after post)

TO THE REVIEWERS: I came upon your site by chance. I don’t have a computer at home and shouldn’t be on this site at work. I don’t have time for a correspondence site.Like I said, seeing your site was happenstance and I got curious and sunshinealike’s post struck a chord in me. I felt obligated to respond. So I was wondering if you could just post my initial response and I will be done with it. Thanks

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vickierhodesm offline Verified User (10 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
Missoula, MT, US | 7 months ago (2 hours, 27 minutes after post)

Sunshine you need to get professional help right away! Don’t hesitate. We can talk to you when you need it, but not one of us is a professional, something inside you is making you feel this way and you can’t shake it and it is causing you such pain that you would rather end it than go on. Get yourself into a regular doctor and tell them what is going on and then they can refer you to someone, even if you can’t afford it there is still help out there. Go Now! We all really care about you so please listen.

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