I keep getting urges to kill my friends.
This probably sounds really strange and like I’m a horrible person, but when I’m talking to people I love or people that mean alot to me, I get this weird wave come over me and I just want to rip out their throat or punch them in the face until they die, and then cry and kill myself. And I keep having these thoughts when I’m talking to these people or just after I’ve finished talking to them. I’ll suddenly grip hold of something in my pocket or something to try and restrain myself. It’s strange, it just surges up inside your stomach and heart and makes you feel like I described.
The problem is that I love these people and I would never intend to hurt them, but it’s uncontrollable and when you think about it, half of you wants to cry and the other half wants to laugh but nothing is funny. I can’t talk to my friends about it either because they’ll probably think I’m insane and won’t feel safe around me.
What do I do about this? Am I insane? I don’t want to hurt anyone.
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I’m not a doctor but it sounds like you might need to seek professional help. I don’t think those feelings are normal or healthy….
I don’t think there is an easy answer for this sort of thing. It’s possible, I suppose, that you are just stressed out. It’s also possible that there is more to it than simple stress, and it might help to talk with your doctor. I would start there, and let him give you some professional guidance.
sounds familiar, you have some sort of personality disorder.
I don’t really want to take the risk of being locked up in a padded cell, also, I don’t want to have to ’see someone’ about it. I’ve always considered myself to be pretty easy going.
And yes, I do like these people, I love one of them, but it doesn’t feel like me to do these things.
sounds kinda like bipolar…in a way. You could be screaming for attention. Are you feeling like you are being ignored or anything
Because I don’t really want to be the one who had to go through therapy. Like I said, I’d like to think of myself as somewhat normal, or at least have normal thoughts toward loved ones.
Hey, don’t worry, therapy is normal now. I wish I had a therapist! Honestly! Sometimes its good to have an objective outsider’s point of view on whats going on in your life. It might be a little scary if you’re a young person still in high school or something, but theres no harm in reaching out to someone, just to share your thoughts and feelings. It sounds to me like these thoughts are really scaring you, so that points to the fact that you aren’t crazy. Crazy people don’t question their insanity. But if you are really worried that you might say or do something hurtful to your loved ones, then please seek help from a professional. You don’t need to tell your parents. Speak with your doctor (they can’t tell your parents or anyone else anything either, unless you’ve committed a crime), they get help you get in touch with someone who you can talk to.
i often fanatize about these things too
i don’t see why they need therapy, its normal
No, it really isnt “normal”. Its actually quite twisted and not the norm.
Hey can we be friends? Maybe hang out and talk some time?
An Undisclosed Location | 5 years, 4 months ago (3 hours, 34 minutes after post)
try seeking professional help.
you dont want the urges to become uncontrollable.
and you want to change so it will be easier for you to work wth it.
try the yellow pages under therapsit.
Please seek help. It must be very frightening for you. Help yourself and the ones you love. You don’t want this to get away from you.
dont worry your not alone, i get these same urges, i used to fantasize about killing friends and family but now its more changed into everybody, especially people i dont like. Your first comment is similar to how i feel about it too, im half scared and half laughing at it. I havent dont anything about it, i tried to go to a psych but i felt just like killing them for trying to pry :P
i guess the best thing to do is just keep it in, though i almost cried when i read your first comment because i didnt think there were any sane people who felt the same as me.
I feel ya… It sucks feeling that way and thinking people will think your some crazy psycho.. =/. But I think it’s funny too…
Powers edited this post 4 years, 8 months ago. Read the previous text »
I keep getting urges to kill my friends.
This probably sounds really strange and like I’m a horrible person, but when I’m talking to people I love or people that mean alot to me, I get this weird wave come over me and I just want to rip out their throat or punch them in the face until they die, and then cry and kill myself. And I keep having these thoughts when I’m talking to these people or just after I’ve finished talking to them. I’ll suddenly grip hold of something in my pocket or something to try and restrain myself. It’s strange, it just surges up inside your stomach and heart and makes you feel like I described.
The problem is that I love these people and I would never intend to hurt them, but it’s uncontrollable and when you think about it, half of you wants to cry and the other half wants to laugh but nothing is funny. I can’t talk to my friends about it either because they’ll probably think I’m insane and won’t feel safe around me.
What do I do about this? Am I insane? I don’t want to hurt anyone.
Powers edited this post 4 years, 8 months ago. Read the previous text »
I keep getting urges to kill my friends.
This probably sounds really strange and like I’m a horrible person, but when I’m talking to people I love or people that mean alot to me, I get this weird wave come over me and I just want to rip out their throat or punch them in the face until they die, and then cry and kill myself. And I keep having these thoughts when I’m talking to these people or just after I’ve finished talking to them. I’ll suddenly grip hold of something in my pocket or something to try and restrain myself. It’s strange, it just surges up inside your stomach and heart and makes you feel like I described.
The problem is that I love these people and I would never intend to hurt them, but it’s uncontrollable and when you think about it, half of you wants to cry and the other half wants to laugh but nothing is funny. I can’t talk to my friends about it either because they’ll probably think I’m insane and won’t feel safe around me.
What do I do about this? Am I insane? I don’t want to hurt anyone.
Ever so and often i have urges to kill people and these images or thoughts don’t disturb me. Also i never get sad or even care about other peoples feelings. Also when i think about killing people my body kinda shakes like orgasmic like and i usually feels good. I don’t know what to do and I’m trying not to act on these impulses i would never hurt a child or a friend. But it gets harder and harder for me to hold off every time i think about it. I think I’m going to become a monster or something. Does anyone know what i should do or anyone wanna talk because it’s really hard to walk around with this when i can’t even tell anyone. I recently tried to kill an animal but i didn’t almost did but instead walked away from the cat. I don’t know what to do with myself please just give me some advice or something. Thank you for taking time to read this though.
i think urges to kill are normal i get them not with my family though i often wonder what it wud be like…….i get filled with anger so much some times for no reason maybe i need help too
I have had this problem for a long time, I tend to get very sweaty and tense in a moment where I’m trying to hold my anger towards an individual that did nothing to me, I just want to kill them and i dunno why. I have been seeking counseling to my urges to kill ***** or whores or any girl i know that sleeps around, I nearly murdered my step sister so i agreed to see a psychologist. After examining me for a few days he believed its a childhood thing where i was neglected and i was in search of love and their was no one in my life at the time only my family who never understood my feelings, he advised i get a spouse or a girlfriend because it has been sometime i haven’t had one, I think this problem begins with people neglecting you or people misunderstanding you so you turn to violence. Movies have a great effect on you as well, You’d be surprised how many of our thoughts come from them.
Watch the show Dexter. I think you’ll feel very connected to it, possibly comforted. I know it does that for me. I feel better about being myself now.
An Undisclosed Location | 3 years, 8 months ago (1 year, 7 months after post)
This is an “anger issue” that should be addressed thru therapy!
antisocial personality disorder. look it up in the dsm. or you could be socio/psychopathic. either way its the same result..but look into either kf those, maybe u meet the criteria.
Well I have been having these thoughts a lot like toward my girlfriend, my family, friends, and sometimes i get a gut feeling like i’m going to do it. but i know what would happen if i did, prison, psycho crappy life, so why do i have these thoughts??? I think maybe its a ton of stress depression or anger i get them for no reason at all sometimes i will be playing games and i get thoughts of murder or hurting someone or something, i thought i was the only one too, but i’m not. it makes me feel a little better, this has been going on for almost a year for me, i have never acted on these feelings or urges and i hope i never will i stay away from those thoughts pr just keep the people away from me when i have the thoughts, just think about all the great times in your life and all the things your friemds and you went through, dont stress about these thoughts just keep a strong mind and one day they will vanish trust me. if your mind is strong and you ignore it or try your hardesst not to have the urge then you will be fine, sometimes talking it out makes it worse i told my girlfriend about my problem and she still loves me and she still hangs with me, even though i have those thoughts or urges toward her as well, i get by and i think i will have to deal with it for now, i hope not but just know youre strong…
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An Undisclosed Location | 3 years, 7 months ago (1 year, 9 months after post)
Ewiw, glad you like it..have a great day!
An Undisclosed Location | 3 years, 7 months ago (1 year, 9 months after post)
really believe this is NOT the norm. sure, we get mad at people when we are wronged, but to take another person’s life is way out there! therapy would be the answer to anger issues. Anger build up inside a person only causes harm to that person usually, but occasionally, we see it played out on the news when a person kills a bunch of people. So, the key to deal with those issues through therapy before it gets to a breaking point.
An Undisclosed Location | 3 years, 7 months ago (1 year, 9 months after post)
ummm..this was not the post that was answering..wild…oh well!
again Ewiw, glad you like the site and have a great day.
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I believe most people have thoughts about violence towards others but when you have the urge and the urge gets stronger and uncontrollable then that’s a sign something is out of balance. It could be a chemical imbalance, or manifestation of unexpressed thoughts or problems, a need for that adrenal rush one feels when the get this urge. My suggestion is to seek therapy, maybe CBT in combo with mood stabilizer or a supplement called EMPower Plus which has really helped on of sons so much that I can’t imagine him being without it ever and can tell when he misses a dose.
Always know that you’re not alone and there’s help and that to some degree this is normal. Take control of yourself and your health and figure out what you need to normalize things and get back into balance. The urge is nothing more than your thoughts eliciting hormones to be released into your system making you feel anxious or violent. If you were having a thought about riding a roller coaster and the thrill you feel from that, you’d have the same kind of cascading emotions rushing through you. Thoughts trigger the release of chemicals in your body/mind and you have options to get that under control and feel better.
therapy is not the awenser. it often prolongs and worsens the problem. try exersizing these urges in the virtual world and try to make the experience as realistic as possible. another option could be to turn you urges into a positive output, by studiying and practising matral arts, or inlisting in the marine corp and kill for the good ole U.S.A. and plus, you get paid for killing there, not only that, they train you to kill with effentcy :)
professional help…before you hurt someone you dont want to.
I am having the same feelings but this has been going on for a couple years. I have a great family life, but it all starts when people that i dont know start running their mouth. Thats when the violent urges start coming. I start to imagine how much physical pain i can cause them in their remaining moments on this earth and how much i would enjoy scilencing them. Whether i need to use a gun or knife or any instrument to get the job done. It honestly does scare me but i feel more and more like my sanity is slipping from me. I’ve told my mother about it and she hopes that i dont try anything stupid. I dont think its stupid, i think the person running their mouth to me is the stupid one. I am worried about going to a psychologist or whatever because i know they wont tell me what i want to hear. Just a warning to all you people out there who like to mouth off to strangers, one day a normal guy like me might not be so normal in the head. Sometimes i think i need to join the Army so i can kill people and get paid for it, HAHA i mean what a ******* job am i right? I would probably move on to a tank crewman so i can blow **** up next.
An Undisclosed Location | 2 years, 10 months ago (2 years, 5 months after post)
cfgifgfi, we ALL deal with that…hurting others. First and farmost, forgive yourself. Life is about today…yesterday is gone. Just use those mistakes to live a better today.
everyone wants to kill
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I keep getting urges to kill my friends.
This probably sounds really strange and like I’m a horrible person, but when I’m talking to people I love or people that mean alot to me, I get this weird wave come over me and I just want to rip out their throat or punch them in the face until they die, and then cry and kill myself. And I keep having these thoughts when I’m talking to these people or just after I’ve finished talking to them. I’ll suddenly grip hold of something in my pocket or something to try and restrain myself. It’s strange, it just surges up inside your stomach and heart and makes you feel like I described.
The problem is that I love these people and I would never intend to hurt them, but it’s uncontrollable and when you think about it, half of you wants to cry and the other half wants to laugh but nothing is funny. I can’t talk to my friends about it either because they’ll probably think I’m insane and won’t feel safe around me.
What do I do about this? Am I insane? I don’t want to hurt anyone.
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Ever so and often i have urges to kill people and these images or thoughts don’t disturb me. Also i never get sad or even care about other peoples feelings. Also when i think about killing people my body kinda shakes like orgasmic like and i usually feels good. I don’t know what to do and I’m trying not to act on these impulses i would never hurt a child or a friend. But it gets harder and harder for me to hold off every time i think about it. I think I’m going to become a monster or something. Does anyone know what i should do or anyone wanna talk because it’s really hard to walk around with this when i can’t even tell anyone. I recently tried to kill an animal but i didn’t almost did but instead walked away from the cat. I don’t know what to do with myself please just give me some advice or something. Thank you for taking time to read this though.
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