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I’m going to pour my heart out.
about the puddle of negative in my life no matter how vuldrable it makes me feel. i am sick of being sad and sick of people being suspicious of me and mostly I’m sick of being sick of **** and sick of having to use astricks.
my dads a superduper alcohalic and he’s currently homeless. he’s in hawaii so i’m not to afraid he’s going to die of natural elements but none the less I am scared ****less.
half the rest of my family is an alcoholic/drug abuser and is seems the everyone is walking on egg shells just about to relaps.
as a 17 year old i have long started experimented with mainly pot, and have been careful but i am so scared i’ll end up just like my dad.
I want a relationship with a decent guy, but everyone I’ve been attracted to has been… a bad boy. and i still have faith that there is a balance of bad boy and decency and have been, unsuccesful of finding this.(but being only 17 doesn’t make this my biggest problem) the relationship problem is troublesome because im seceretly afraid of everything and have terrible trust issues.
turning 17 is really significant to me. my mom who is one of the most stable people in my life told me that she never thought that she’d make it to 17 so not only getting herself to 40 something but me to 17 as well amazes her but the idea freaks me out.
at this point of my concentration there is no way my homeworks getting done and the concept of colledge and a future is scaring the hell out of me.
im just freakin scared. i can’t calm my self down.
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