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Somebody please just talk to me.

tell me something. anything
Theres so much love and so little hate inside of me.
There are times when I have to go out and find out where I can spread it but all I can do is cry because I get the impression noone wants it.
Noone wants it because they give up on me before I have the chance to show them who I really am.
I like who I am but I hate who I am turning into.
I will never find someone who wants to be with me as much as I want to be with them.
Nobody really knows me consiquently I am completely alone.
I am ungrateful for the things I have already.
I am despirate for change, for a break from the cycles, for destruction of convention.
I want to commit suicide but I never will because I don’t have the courage.
My priorites are stuck in the wrong place.
The very worst times are when I want to cry but I can’t because it feels like there is nothing left inside.
The very best times is when I can’t stop laughing at something that ran through my head thats not really funny anyway and everyone looks at me like I’ve lost it.

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Please-put on-pants. offline Verified User (9 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 42 #
Pahala, HI, US | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (1 minute after post)

okay.=)
what would you like to talk about buddy?maybe i can help you out.

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Robert Fox offline Verified User (9 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (2 minutes after post)

Hey, your life has obviously been hard since you were little. If you want to feel better I will talk to you without wax.

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Please-put on-pants. offline Verified User (9 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 42 #
Pahala, HI, US | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (5 minutes after post)

omg. you have read Digital Fortress to?XD i love that saying

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Heaven22 offline Verified User (9 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Bairro Belchior, 27, BR | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (5 minutes after post)

So post here to talk! Or you’re just kidding? Maybe you wanna see this topic bigger

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Robert Fox offline Verified User (9 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (7 minutes after post)

Lol, I read it a LONG time ago. I don’t know why I just thought about it.

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Anonymous #
9 months, 2 weeks ago (10 minutes after post)

see this topic bigger? did i miss something?

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Heaven22 offline Verified User (9 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Bairro Belchior, 27, BR | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (12 minutes after post)

robert_fox83 wrote:
Lol, I read it a LONG time ago. I don’t know why I just thought about it.

this topic was created 10 minutes ago and you can’t say ” a long time ago”

Anonymous wrote:
see this topic bigger? did i miss something?

No but maybe she is kidding because if she wants to talk she would be here

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Please-put on-pants. offline Verified User (9 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 42 #
Pahala, HI, US | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (13 minutes after post)

Well hes just saying that you made this post to talk and ur not saying much…

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Robert Fox offline Verified User (9 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (14 minutes after post)

Well lets keep it goin’!!!!!!!

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Anonymous #
9 months, 2 weeks ago (15 minutes after post)

ok
im going to fail my exams in may and i wont be able to go to the uni i want to
i realise how bleak im being but im in a bleak mood and this is a bleak place
=P :’(

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Anonymous #
9 months, 2 weeks ago (16 minutes after post)

digital fortress isnt as good as deception point

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Please-put on-pants. offline Verified User (9 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 42 #
Pahala, HI, US | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (16 minutes after post)

another bullet in the dirt right? lol keeping a dead post alive

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Anonymous #
9 months, 2 weeks ago (17 minutes after post)

why dont you try to study harder before the exams
where do you want to go?

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Please-put on-pants. offline Verified User (9 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 42 #
Pahala, HI, US | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (18 minutes after post)

if you know your going to fail your exams why not just study?you still have over 2 months comon dont be disspirited!

and digital fortress totally kicks deception points ***=)

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wack offline Unverified User #
GB | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (18 minutes after post)

We are all special, we all have different qualities, even though it is difficult to accept sometimes it is our differences that make us unique, it is so boring fitting in with the crowd, following the latest trends etc!

You seem like you are starting to doubt yourself, but i believe you know deep down that you just like everyone else in the world is important! I know its difficult, but try to stay strong, take each day as it comes, and celebrate each day you get by! appriciate yourself, love yourself, dont apologise for who you are or want to be anyone else! One day you will, have grown and learnt and will be happy again!

I give you this advice from someone who is them self not in a great place right now, and came on this site to find help for myself, and learning that other people are going through the same thing has helped! so thank you, you have helped me survive!

Everyone should just remember, this is only life!? what are we here for? why get stressed out, whats the worst thing that can possibly happen! lets all just chill out, take a step back and try to enjoy the ride, as we are never going to understand why we are here, and why there is so much pain and suffering! all we know is we know nothing!

Love to everybody

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Anonymous #
9 months, 2 weeks ago (20 minutes after post)

Wack-
i agree with you
you seem to like quotes so i have a few for you
Dont take life to seriously none of us is going to get thriugh it alive any ways

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Robert Fox offline Verified User (9 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (20 minutes after post)

Okay, first of all, read Dear John by Nicholas Sparks. It’s simply the ****…

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Anonymous #
9 months, 2 weeks ago (22 minutes after post)

i do study hard for exams im just not good at exams i cant concentrate in them
http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=Q95kX_E…

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rubyolu offline Unverified User #
Wichita, KS, US | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (25 minutes after post)

it looks to me that you have not realize your goals in life. until you do not try to understand who you are and what you are suppose to do in life, you cannot be happy.

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Anonymous #
9 months, 2 weeks ago (28 minutes after post)

i dont believe that

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rubyolu offline Unverified User #
Wichita, KS, US | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (33 minutes after post)

truth is always hard to believe. may be you might not have met people who are suffering more than you and have more pain. if you ever feel to suicide then think first about someone who has more trouble than yours or just think about people wo are suffering in underdeveloped countries. we get life once and we can fully enjoy it. if there is happiness then of course there is sorrow too. I just live on this. I have suffered alot in my life. and i am still suffering. I know i will surely get fruitful result of my patience and hard work.

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philly4baseball offline Verified User (9 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
Allendale, NJ, US | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 21 minutes after post)

Try talking to someone, someone that u could tell anything to im open for ya if u need any help i can listen i might not be lots of help but i’ll listen to ya

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george197 offline Verified User (9 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
Lincoln, H7, GB | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (2 hours, 33 minutes after post)

hey il talk to you if you like,dont beat yourself up so much.if you want to talk i have msn.il give you my addy anytime you fancy chatting..just ask.

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Cookie Dough! offline Verified User (10 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Kensington, G4, GB | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (2 hours, 36 minutes after post)

Hey, I can relate to the exams situation. If it’s a matter of focusing, perhaps get together with a few studious members of your group and study with them? That may motivate you to study harder.

If you really are absolutely convinced that you’re going to fail and there’s no way out, then do consider the following:

1) Is there a specific reason why you’re in this situation? If so, letters for extenuating circumstances can go a long way.

2) Is there no way for you to take a year out to repeat your subjects? If you don’t like the idea of failing, then perhaps drop a couple of subjects now to concentrate on the remaining subjects. You can then concentrate on these few subjects and kick a$$. The remaining subjects can be studied during a year out.

Rereading your initial post, however, the exams reason doesn’t seem to be the only thing getting you down. If you tell us more, maybe we can better advise?

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elizabethnotes offline Verified User (9 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Macomb, MI, US | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (6 hours, 37 minutes after post)

Replying to the original post:

It isn’t easy to be yourself with someone you’ve just met,
and it can hurt if they turn you away before you really come out of your shell.
But people are just trying to find other people to connect to…
better to be rejected for who you are than what you aren’t.

It is not an easy line to walk… and I should know, as I constantly fall off it myself. Feel free to send me a message any time you wish to talk. ^_^

* * *

As for the school thing… it is what it is.
My undergrad is gonna be a 6 year program for music…
I took my time in the beginning and repeated just about every 8am class I ever had due to my awesome morning skills… And I am currently losing my mind due to the fact that I have hit my saturation point about three semesters ago.

But the rules for a difficult class are simple: talk with your instructors.

I have found that a great number of professors are way more invested in my education than I thought they were, they really want you to do well, and will often give extensions or options that you didn’t know were available…
Even if the cause is just stress… as in “this is too big, how do I even approach it”… they will often give you ideas and check in with you to see how things are going. Communication is the key.

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pollyanna offline Verified User (9 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
Nantes, B5, FR | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (17 hours, 16 minutes after post)

“You simply will not be the same person two months from now after consciously giving thanks each day for the abundance that exists in your life. And you will have set in motion an ancient spiritual law: the more you have and are grateful for, the more will be given you.”
Sarah Ban Breathnach

The gratitude exercise in Discover Meditation is so enjoyable and rewarding. Happiness and joy to you, Pollyanna

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An Unknown Location | 4 months, 2 weeks ago (4 months, 4 weeks after post)

anonymous, dont attempt suicide. your problem is not worser than mine. trust me killing your self isnt worth it unless your whole entire life and family is fcked up like mine is…

P.S. : Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary infinite problem in life.

From: Some Guy That Really Needs To Die

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