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I don’t know much about B P D- But I know what it’s like to have O.C.D-because I have it.I really believe it’s just part of a person , a flaw we are born with.So with that realization , Its not just going to disappear someday.I don’t like taking meds and going to a psych,but that’s whats really NEEDED.Since thats a problem for you,It is VITAL for you to get all the help you can get to be healthy.Or you won’t be much good for anyone else.So focus on doing that and do your own part in managing it by learning about it.Knowledge is Power.And Prayer is Power if thats your thing.I highly recommend it myself.Hang on I have more

Your G-friend? You are taking her choice too personal.Thats just a decision she has made.So that makes it her issue.NOt yours.She owns that problem,You just happen to be a small part of it.Accept it to be just that and nothing more.Hey, it could have been worse.She could have married,cheated,have a child involved and your lives would of just been another statistic of a “Dysfunctionl Family.’But- she didn’t. Try to honor her decision and her honesty and leave the rest up to fate or God. And if you take care of you like you should if she comes around ,you will be a more healthy,stronger person for it.

Can you tell me what self-destructing behavior you are doing? And it may help to know when it started and why too .

Professional help is usually free at your local county health office. We might not have a very good heath care system in the US, but we’re not completely devoid of public assistance (assuming you live in the US, that is.) They also often have programs to help lower-income people purchase the proper medication, so you may get more help than you think.

Girlfriends are going to come and go, but no matter what happens or who you are with, your own health is still something you’ll have to deal with. Getting a better handle on your condition will only help you build stronger relationships in the future, be it with this girl or someone else. A self-destructive nature, on the other hand, is going to prevent you from having any kinds of meaningful relationships whatsoever, so it’s really quite a good idea to tend to things when you can and be the best person you can be for the future.

Felicity-{KIMKRISS} wrote:
But I know what it’s like to have O.C.D-because I have it.I really believe it’s just part of a person , a flaw we are born with.So with that realization , Its not just going to disappear someday.I don’t like taking meds and going to a psych,but that’s whats really NEEDED.Since thats a problem for you,It is VITAL for you to get all the help you can get to be healthy.

i agree.. my daughter has been diagnosed with ocd and has meds that she takes for it.. other wise the little things that seem to be huge for you will interfear with your daily life and may cause you to become so dependent on trying to keep up with it… it will drive you insane.. best of luck hun.

It will only drive you crazy or whatever if you let it.Don’t allow the compulsions,the best way to do that is distraction.maybe study up on habits and accept change as a good thing.Variety is the spice of life!

because of ocd i can run 7 different thought processes in my head at the same time and I can only control 5. The other two make my life a living hell. I’m ready to turn to anything needed to get rid of the other two, whatever that is. I don’t really have any motivation left, i hardly care about anything, and i don’t care at all what happens to me. I just want something to end this for me

Yes its can be tormenting.The first step I took in getting a better handle on it. Was to get mad ,Even wrote a poem on it .I don’t know how it came to me,but I started seeing it as ‘Thoughts from the Devil’ and refused to listen to anything negative.Then basicly fought it by focusing on focusing.Does that make sense? If not,Try to organize the thoughts as priorities.Concentrating on keeping the 1 most important thought first above all and putting the others on the back burner.You are the master of your thought life but,when you cant control it,then you need medication to get some peace of mind.If your like me and a lot of other people,you hate to admit this small weakness.but you need to fight it,then later on down the road you will be able to manage it.And you will see how this weakness can be learned blessing you can use as a tool to help others or something in your future.Kids,career etc.Do you believe in God?

I turned my back on god when he turned his on me.

Was that before the OCD or PD started?If you don’t mind my asking

I don’t believe for a minute that God turns his back on any one. It’s all about his will , his timing and allowing things to happen for our own good. Do you want to talk about it? I think it may help. Just say the word -’no’ - and I won’t bring it up again.

I may not believe in god, but he’s the only thing that scares me, because I don’t want to be wrong about that. I’m at the point where I’d rather feel nothing at all, a coma would be preferable if I couldn’t think. All I want is peace and it’s something I’ve been unable to find so far. I can either continue to go through hell, or make my own peace.

No, those are not the only choices . What if in 3 days,you had that peace. Imagine what a relief it would be. You would feel so free .Don’t blow that chance.Tell me ,What have you tried?

I don’t know about other countries,but if your in the U.S.,there are so many resources.I can get back to you with some places to contact if you like.Just ask.But I think the best thing to do is go to a hospital.What do you think about that?