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If you’re seriously thinking about murder or living trapped in a miserable life, you will probably end up in some type of prison anyway, right? Why are you so worried about Juvenile Detention?
Why not consider running away just to see what else life has to offer? There’s a lot of life out there. Plenty of existence just around the corner that you would never have dreamed of. Maybe there is a life you’d love to live out there, but you just never found it because you are staying in the same place, day after day.

I feel this way all the time…
It helps talking to someone who you can trust…tell them how you are feeling. Be completely honest, and tell them EXACTLY what you need too.
I know this is soooooo much easier said then done, and I’m still learning to find the courage too myself, but I know it will help.
I’ve thought about running away also, but in the end I realized it wasn’t worth it.
Living on the streets is anything but easy.
Before you leave, make sure you have somewhere to go.
Maybe you could stay with a friend or nice reletive….
Try to think of how interesting your life could turn out if you just go looking for adventure…sounds corny, but if you really think about it, life has so much to offer, it may seem like nothing good will ever happen again, but sometimes you have to go looking for it.
Pray for a miracle, by all means, but don’t just sit there waiting for it to happen.
Do you have a dream or some sort of goal you want to reach?

I know how you feel…. my mom found out about my struggle with depression and she said the same, but then either forgot or stopped caring…
Try to find something that does inspires you, it could be anything. Shoot for the impossible and try to make it happen. Or maybe try something simple atfirst and find a way to make that happen. Just try to stay active cuz one of the worst ways one can fall into depression is doing nothing.
Ask for help from the church. They are vary kind loving people willing to listen to your problems.
I really don’t know what else to tell you, I wish I did, but all I can say is don’t give up! Keep trying to find something that makes you even remotely happy, maybe then it won’t feel so bad.
I pray you feel better soon!

You said you are on daily meds. Do you think they are helping you? Or you can be having side effects from them. Talk to your doctor about how you are feeling. Maybe he will changes your meds and it can make a world of difference in your life. When people are constantly having negative thoughts, there is a problem in the brain that does not allow good thoughts through. The right medications can help. Therapy can help. Just dont let these thoughts overcome you. Try and see yourself separate from these thoughts. They are not who you are. Stay strong and continue to seek help until you find what works for you.

I do not know if this is advice, but I do know that hurt people hurt people. I am sorry you have so much pain in just 17 years. Please do not hurt other people because of your pain, it will only make things worse. I believe you when you say nothing good has happened to you. I have felt that way too. If you can trust one thing, trust that I can sense your goodness and that I share your pain. You are not alone. Give yourself a future by finding one thing you would love to learn to do well like play guitar, or a sport, or art. Put all of your strong feelings into the challenge of learning. When you accomplish this goal you will see why you are necessary to this world. You have a huge gift inside you that you have not found yet, but it is there. Believe it. God does not make junk.

When you say you have homicidal thoughts…why? Who? When you think about hurting someone or homicide, what type of relief do you think it will provide? You say you despise people, what people and why?

Right now you feel like no one can help, no one can understand what your feeling or thinking. You can’t find a hobby/redirection cause you’re filled with so much rage, you can’t focus on any single thing long enough to benefit.

You’re so young. Being 17 is hard but there’s so much out there for you. Wait. Your opinion may or may not change, but you need to give yourself more time.

Since you quite school, are you doing home schooling? Or working on getting a GED. You need to have something to focus on in life. A goal to work towards. That way your mind is not idle and dwelling on the past.

I know you said you have been to two psychologist, how long did you work with each of them. Dealing with the type of mental issues are dealing with, takes time to get better. Also does your doctor for your illness know about the emotional problems you are suffering with?

Do you realize your hatred of everyone could be a result of the problems your brain is having. And six weeks is not very long in getting help. My first therapist I saw 3 days week for 3 months. Then we went to 1 day a week. I don’t remember how long I stayed with her. I can’t say she made a huge difference for me but she did make a difference. My second therapist I went once a week for about 4 months and she was what helped turn my life around. So don’t give up. You need to find the right person to help you.

And even if your rheumatologist is an ***, he needs to know about the emotional difficulties you are having. Just in case there is a connections with the meds you are on.

I am leaving to sell girl scout cookies with my daughter. I am going to invite some friends to your post who might be able to give you advise. I will check back later.

Babacup offered great med advice and counsel. I have a good book I got because I was worried about someone who was always angry. Little things, big things, mishaps would turn his world upside down. He had no copeing skills. I read stuff to him and he agreed.

There’s a book I read that was great and enlightend me. It’s called “The Angry Book”
It speaks of interesting reasons why we show anger. It did say anger is almost always based on emotional pain. It can also be fear. I hope you find it, please look for it, it was excellent and had all kinds of sections. Why people have the alcholic rages, depression anger and why. I hope this helps. Good luck, stay strong, weather the storm. Sunny days are coming.

Hello rsky61,

After reading through you’re post I can tell that you are an extremely smart person, that your soul is very poetic, and as scared of these thought’s you have it is not “crazy”. Many people in this world think the same way you do but are afraid to talk about such thing’s because society has this false since of reality about what is normal and what is not normal.

Do not fear you’re thought’s but harvest them and find out the root of all your pain. It take’s time my brother but things will improve. I know they have for me and I am not much older then you.

Take life a mile at a time, live every moment as if it we’re your last. You never know how much you’re life really means in the scheme of things. Every action you make can affect the entire world without you even knowing it.

I know you prob think I am crazy or thinking “what does this guy know” but I have been there and only wish you the best. If you ever need someone to vent to our talk about anything going on in your life. Feel free to email me any time.

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peace bro