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Cool, that is really beautiful and has a lot of truth to it. Thanks for posting.
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well thats good then i guess lol.
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What a great poem. Thanks you so much for sharing it Raver.
My favorite part is:
Have faith and find a shelter
For when it starts to rain.
Believe that when its over,
You’ll see the sun again.
Thanks. I found it the other day in my wardrobe. (theres all sorts of junk on the floor there lol)
I brought it when i was in an abusive relationship when i was younger. And i was taken to the shops one day. And i secretly brought it. Its just a piece of card with this on it. I was just trying to cheer myself up at the time. It has a lot of meaning, i wasnt aloud to buy my own things or spend my own money. So it means a lot. Its one of the positive things i can take from such a bad experience.
Maximina, glad you popped up here, saves me from clicking elsewhere to find you, wanted to add you as a friend.
Fizz I would be honored!
Raver you should check out the poem I posted a couple of months ago. I think you would like it. It has similar meaning for me. It is amazing the power words can have to inspire us to remember what is important in life!
You know RB and I hope you don’t mind me saying, you’ve really been through a lot, but I just have a strong feeling that you are going to be ok in the long run.
You have an inner strength in you.
Maximina :) wrote:
Fizz I would be honored!
I think I’ll be the one who’s honored, you seem so genuine, a trait I like very much.
Oh i do, its in there!
I’m a fighter. I get kicked down, but i do what i can to try and get better. I think of bad things occasionally, but i know that i need to find something more rational and helpful. I think you know what i’m talking about. But i wanna sort things out.
I am looking forward so much to having a car. Having my own house. Going to America.
Me and my bloke are saving up for all these things. I’ve been to America before and i want to take him there…i love it there. The people are so much different to England. They are actually sociable lol and friendly.
A year ago, i had no hopes or dreams for the future. Now i actually look forward to things.
When all the metaphors have let you down, that is exactly when a brand new metaphor is about to rise over the horizon of the ground of your being, to enlighten all the dark and dreary light-starved metaphors in your mind.
:)
I know. But its suprising how many of us are in a rainstorm.
My point is, there is no may or may not. The sun WILL come.
Negativity doesn’t get anyone anywhere…its something we find hardest to fight. And yet, through the fight. I have something that makes me smile.
That’s so funny, so often I think that people here in the U.S. and especially in the South, aren’t nearly as friendly and socialable as they used to be.
I think about how things have changed from when I was a kid, my Daddy waving to strangers and them waving back, but now if you wave they look at you like you are a total freak.
Maybe I am a total freak, but at least I’m for the most part a happy little freak.
I’m sorry you feel this way.
I am dam proud to be where i am right now.
And i didn’t get here by thinking i was doomed to be miserable.
I feel bad for you PomPom it seems you don’t have any hope! In order for the good to happen in your life you have to believe. You have to have hope.
Sometimes rainstorms lead to beautiful rainbows. Rainstorms can be wonderful. Great things can emerge from adversity.
PomPom wrote:
its all lies, you’ll spend your whole life waiting for the good part and the truth is for most of us, there is no such thing metaphorically speaking or otherwise
That is sad and really not true, there are millions of good parts if you just let them be.
Fizz wrote:
That’s so funny, so often I think that people here in the U.S. and especially in the South, aren’t nearly as friendly and socialable as they used to be.I think about how things have changed from when I was a kid, my Daddy waving to strangers and them waving back, but now if you wave they look at you like you are a total freak. Maybe I am a total freak, but at least I’m for the most part a happy little freak.
A happy freak is better then an unhappy freak.
I won’t pretend i know American people all that well, i just went on holiday for a few weeks and went to a few places. But even like, if i got on a bus…guys would give up their seat for me and my mom. And things like that. In england its like…guys would rather be shot than give you a seat.
I’m not like that though. I have my manners. I gave up my seat for some old ladies in the doctors surgery the other week. I may only be 18 but i can still be old fashioned if i want to lol.
Raver where did you spend your holiday in the U.S.?
Basic manners would make any place, a better place.
PomPom
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Maximina :) wrote:
I feel bad for you PomPom it seems you don’t have any hope! In order for the good to happen in your life you have to believe. You have to have hope.
i lost my hope a long long time ago and i’ve even given up the fight, good for you if things are getting better Raver, but for most of us that just isn’t true and reading stuff like that gets me even more depressed because I know it wont be true, not for me at least I spose
Fizz wrote:
That’s so funny, so often I think that people here in the U.S. and especially in the South, aren’t nearly as friendly and socialable as they used to be.
I think about how things have changed from when I was a kid, my Daddy waving to strangers and them waving back, but now if you wave they look at you like you are a total freak.
the whole world has become unfriendly, its just the way things are, i’ve seen the world change over the years and it sure aint changing for the better
I think Pom Pom needs a group hug. Pom Pom life will never get better unless you have the courage to believe and fight for what you want. You can have a better life, but it starts with belief in yourself and the courage to have hope.
PomPom wrote:
stuff like that gets me even more depressed because I know it wont be true
That reminds me of a line of verse that can be taken several ways …
“nothing surpasses this, in the midst of misery to remember bliss”
If the whole world was unfriendly none of us would be at this post or even on this website!
If you look for the negative you will find it, you’ll be a much happier person if you look for the positive. Maybe that is harder to find, but it’s there if you search and are willing to see it.
It brightened my day ;) thanks
very beautiful raver… thank you for sharing…. it really does have a lot of meaning…
I tried to commit suicide last year. Last may. It would of worked had the empty bliser packs and bottles not been found. I knew what i wanted to achieve. And that was death. I took some pretty dangerous tablets. not just the usual painkillers. I also took stuff i knew i was allergic to.
But i’m here. I survived. Not without punishment. I can have amnesia about things. I can have problems concentrating at times. Among other minor things.
Look i’m not saying there are people worse off and you should be grateful.
But dammit i was THAT serious about wanting to die. And i can be happy now. My life is FAR from perfect. I would change a million things. But sometimes, like today for example,
i can sit back
look at all the sh!t.
And think, yep. I’m ok.
Things get better PomPom. Don’t accept depression. Fight it.
Starlight wrote:
It brightened my day ;) thanks
lil_bit_shi wrote:
very beautiful raver… thank you for sharing…. it really does have a lot of meaning…
Your very welcome :)
i remember, 17 years old sitting on my bed for a bit over a week.. with a knife next to me.. only moving to use the bathroom… i never ate or drank… just laid there, suffering in silence by myself… i was soooo ready to go… but then something came over me… and i started thinking about my daughter.. who was 1 1/2 at the time… and i couldnt do it… i struggle every day with depression… and yeah.. i take my happy pills… but there are still times.. in which i have an extreme melt down.. i will just start screaming in horror… wanting to just end it all… stop the suffering… even while taking my meds… it just seems like my life is sooo over whelming… and after about an hour of this meltdown.. its my children who i think about… and i stop being so suicidal… as i start thinking of how selfish it would be of me to take myself away from them… so i continue on with the pain of living every day… taking it day by day.. trying to get through it all… so until next time in which i melt down again… here i am… hiding behind all my smiles…
Happiness and goodness may seem to be wimps if they can be easily destroyed by any random bully of negativity and destruction, but as the sum of all our desires, ambitions, and solutions, they deserve respect.
RaverBarbie wrote:
But i’m here. I survived.
The world is a better place because you were not successful!
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