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when your a 1000 miles away from the girl you love and you feel distant emotionally…… its th worst feeling in the world because theres nothing you can do.

Probably more, its a country’s width.

we do video chats as much as we can, its complicated. we met online, i dont wanna dicuss validity right now, i have so much and it would hurt me now. We are slowly becoming more and more comfortable to be as open as we are on aim when we chat on video but lately on aim…. we havent been teh same, shes been feeling very distant and detached to me. ANd I’ve grown apathetic. its just been the last week, we also had a pretty major bout… our first on sunday, im not sure if that has nething to dow ith it. I really do love her, I just dont noe whats goin on rite now and i hate it so bad., Today i made an effort to be happy, to be chatty and good… but she wasnt really much back so. I just miss her bein excited to see me, and telling me she loves me out of the blue.

Well its been 5 months.

Yes, and we’ve known eachother for over a year. THis isnt a small thing, it is love whether or not people around me believe it… we’ve gone thru so much together and done so much.

That wuld require us to be a bit older unfortunately. 17/ 18, highschool… college. Shes coming out this summer if i can convince my parents, its all just not that easy you know…. especially when you really do care for someone. i spend a lot of nights terribly sad that I cant be with her, I dont think sum1 can really understand that pain unless theyve been thru it.

haha im not the older one XD

yep… I dont think thats so inconcievable…

Not for some time.

Maybe, but she always missed me, and when she is really missin me she tells me. Latley i jus feel like I odnt noe how shes feeling at all.

SHe is the latter but we have made huge strides and we have been doin very ell in that regard, as far as the first comment. Maybe she does but we talk about it very frequently i highly doubt that.

I say the sweetest things I think, i tell her how much i love her. I jsut dont feel like its phasin her much today, she smiles but….

Whatever, thanks for bein here a bit. Im off to punch sumthing hard to turn my sadness and apathy into rage.

…. it at least lets sum emotion out without me feeeling powerless.

Im all good now, I talked it out a bit with her, Im feeling better. Now shes just bein busy and im bein a lil lonely but not sad.

I didnt hurt myself.