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I am struggling to stay sober.

I haven’t had any alcohol or pain pills in over a week. I am fine with out them during the day. At night is when I struggle most. I have tried to just go to sleep but I dont sleep well in the first place so it doesn’t really work. I just lay there and debate if it would be worth it to ruin my sobriety. I fear being alone with myself at night. I find it rather difficult to remain positive and clear headed. I just dont know what to do with myself. reading, writing, watching tv, playing a game or doing a puzzle, just doesn’t seem to be enough to keep my mind occupied from my thoughts of drinking or taking a pill or two. I figured if I wrote out what im thinking it would help me recognize my negative reliance on substances and prevent me from doing anything i would regret.

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Commander Ikari offline Verified User (1 year, 9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 79 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 9 months ago (3 minutes after post)

keep strong, you can go the distance. you should talk to a friend or someone to help keep you on track

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just2happi offline Unverified User #
Las Vegas, NV, US | 1 year, 9 months ago (9 minutes after post)

My daughter is alive and well because of AA. Do you have anyone who can
help you get to an AA meeting? If not, I would think you can just phone
and someone will help you. PLEASE PLEASE know that your thought processes
are likely altered due to withdrawal from alcohol and meds, what you are
doing is very very incredible, but you should get help.

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KittyPhish offline Verified User (1 year, 10 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
Ocala, FL, US | 1 year, 9 months ago (10 minutes after post)

I agree with mr. commander, when I found the drugs to be too much I talked to the people I did it with, we helped each other out of the drug induced ruts we were in.

its honorable that you’ve taken this first step, to know whats wrong is to want to fix it.

the desire for drugs and alcohol is a moment thing, I wanna be high or drunk right now. Plan for the future, instead of waiting for that next hit or sip or pill, think of how all the money you saved can take you on an awesome vacation down the road.

you’re awesome, I know you can do it.

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bluskye31 offline Verified User (1 year, 9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
North Fort Myers, FL, US | 1 year, 9 months ago (3 hours, 6 minutes after post)

The way your feeling is totally normal. I just went through this and will not sugar coated for you. The best suggest I could make is to stay as busy as possible and find support somewhaer NA or a realistic church. My place of worship is wonderful they have some kinda support group everynight of the week. Find a sponsor, get support, NO ONE can do this by themselves. i am just working on Step 1 but i would be able to listen and understanding but a computer is not the only support you can have. it is great that you have come this far don’t stop now. look in your yellow pages find meetings go and try them for me they have been what has kept me sober. start believing not only that Jesus loves you but that you are worth his love. its hard trust me i know and truly am still going through my first trials as a sober christian but i didn’t get the will or the faith to be sober until i found Christ. give it some thought. And remember it won’t be easy but if you don’t suceed God will gladly refund your mirsery because thatsa what we addicts thrieve off of isnt it, the high kills the misery, even temporaly. but when you make it through the shakes, stomach problems, restlessness, insominia and the other sucking dts you will be stronger mentally and physically, and since you have the will power to ackonoledge that you need help the life of your dreams is not far behind. WE CAN DO THIS. YOU CAN DO THIS! Believe in yourself and have faith He would not lead you to what you can not handle.He will help just ask.

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angielynn88 offline Verified User (1 year, 9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 9 months ago (1 day, 23 hours after post)

I know exactly what you are going through, I am an addict whos lost everything yet I still try every day to pick my self up ….some days are better than others.. some days the desire to use,something anything is so over baring..but I’m not giving up and niether should you…I’ve heard it does get better!!!!!

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nancygrue offline Unverified User #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 9 months ago (1 week, 4 days after post)

take a walk with a friend and talk.
get outside, look at the clouds or the stars.
think about someone who has lost a body part to stupidity related to alcohol abuse.
think about the expense of purchasing alcohol - in dollars and sense.

Think About What’s Next

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kalia_ offline Verified User (1 year, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
GB | 1 year, 8 months ago (2 weeks, 2 days after post)

I’m struggling too.. it’s like I just want to pass out. I am not depressed or n e thing. I get up b4 work and go running. I try to take care of myself, but I have continual crisis going on and it’s so hard. I have everthing going for me, yet I just wreck it. perhaps I am gentically programmed as my Mum is bad in terms of denial… voddie bottles under the floor boards , decanted into her hot water bottle and has been for years. I don;t like being like this. I am a smart woman. is it to do with boredom?
I always was a bad party head and I love getting out now and about, but it seems all my money goes on ale…
No1 knows apart from me and the bloke I am with is continually making me want to get wiped out, cos he keeps beating on me. I know i need to remove him out of my life, but I know the under lying factor is I am an alcoholic… Then i binge drink after abstinance..
But lately I am getting even worse and even if i remove blaming factors the reality is, i just want to be wiped out!

Sad eh!

Mez

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