I don’t want to rely on the mirror to define who I am.
I’m sick and tired of this! Ever since I can remember I was determined that I was going to look perfect when I became a teen. Well when I hit 13 I was pretty much the ugly duckling and it devestated me. I made it my goal, or more like obsession to improve myself. So now, at 18, I’ve come a long way from 13, but I still have that awful ugly feeling. Not only that but I feel like I have no personality and I must make up for it by appearance. I’m not sure if through my early teen years I was so consumed by looking good that I’ve forgotten who I really am, or if I just have a personality different from most people but anyway my point is I’m tired of relying on my appearance to define myself. It’s like I can put on the makeup, do my hair, think about plastic surgery and all that, but I will never be good enough. It’s an endless cycle of trying and failing. I’m not saying that I don’t think its important to look my best, its just that when it becomes everything to me, an obsession that I can’t stop, its all so fake and I feel so worthless… Could someone please tell me what I can do to break this?
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