My best friend/only person that cared about me just left…
She didnt leave permanently but i guess i shall tell you the story.
We became friends around the last month of summer or so and just hung out as friends, even though i liked her, i didnt tell her. She eventually found out around the beginning of the school year and we started doing things that normal “friends” wouldnt do. EX: kissing, holding hands, hugging, making out etc.
We never went as far to make love because i knew something like this would have happened. (she asked but i declined because i had that strange feeling and she understood)
However, we always spent time together, it was a crazy hassle though because i have to go to school everyday except for the weekends. (im a freshman) And she has to go to work basicly everyday because she has 2 pain in the butt jobs to get some money. I tried helping her out as much as i could but i could tell that i was starting to get in the way of both of her jobs and her need to get rest.
We still ended up hanging out nearly everyday and she started doing less things with me and not answering her phone as often, so i got a little curious.
I really love her and she loves me its just im 15 and shes 18 and we know we shouldnt be doing these kinds of things because its too much to give so much time to with everything going on.
Then today as she was about to leave my house from her car to go to her house, she stopped the car, opened the door. came out and hugged me and told me “this is just so hard” and i told her that its ok, its going to work out and i told her i loved her and will always love her. now that i think about it i should have added im going to miss you and im always here for you but it just didnt come out and i regret that.
She said while we were in my house that she doesnt want to end up breaking my heart and i know she wont, its just so hard to take that all in at once. now i will have noone to talk to or call before i go to bed, my parents are gonna start asking questions and i think im going to go crazy.
I know this is good for the both of us because i ended up having no time to spend with friends from school or just talk or hang out. It was becoming a repetetive thing and im glad we “talked” about it. she didnt really talk because i could tell she was about to cry and didnt want to talk. i really hope we can get through this and hopefully we still keep in touch like i told her we should. ill still call and we can still hang out, its just she works 7 days a week and theres nearly no time to hang out.
the other thing is she partys, i doubt she will for a while because of this, i just dont want her to find another guy, well. i wouldnt care if it was another guy, as long as he treats her good and not like ****. If shes happy im fine with that, i just hhope she knows im always here for her. i dont want her to forget about me. and i really need help you guys. she means a whole lot to me, and i cant stand to not talk to her.
she said if we ever do hang out we could but no kissing or any of that, but do you know how wierd that would feel? however, we wernt even going out in the first place because we didnt want to end up hurting each other.
Shes the one i want to be with my whole life. and i dont want something like this to F it all up.
if anyone has any suggestions on what i should tell her or do, please tell me. I love her so much.
And none of you have probably felt the way i am feeling right now. as much as id like to shoot myself, im not.
lifes not worth it to do that, i still have a chance and i just need help to get there.
please, im begging you.
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