Just because you still feel pain when you think about someone leaving, doesn’t necessarily mean you still love them. Like Poe said, you can’t have moved on, AND still think about him all the time and still be in love with him. You need to think about it, and your life right now. Are you with someone else? Are you comparing that person to your ex? Are you in love with your ex the way he was, or the pedestal version of him you have created since the breakup. People tend to look back on the good parts, and forget that there were plenty of bad parts - usually the cause of the “ex” part to begin with. I still love my second boyfriend from highschool, and I always will, but that doesn’t mean that I would ever want to get back with him. I love my husband in a much more significant, and more current way, and he is the love of my life. My ex is one of the many people who shaped my life, and I love him for the part he played in that. But he is not a part of my current life, never could be, and if I were to act on a “past” love, it would change my current path and I would end up unhappy. You may want to really think about that. If you are that in love with your ex, what do you see your life being like in 5 years if you were to get BACK with him? Better, or worse?