i need help with dental work and i have no idea how
to get it or if there is any such reality of fulfilling this hope of mine, i know i would do it for someone if i could. i have been sinking in depression for the past several years because of alot of trauma, {my son going thru late stage 4 cancer, now in remission thank God, but that 1 1/2yrs. was critical condition, ICU, life-support, and so many other big things going on! all at once!!}. i’ve been struggling for so long just trying to make ends meet. i’m a single mom. disabled. i just get by and that’s ok with me. at 40-ish, i cant even smile anymore, im too embarrased. since everything i’ve been thru in the past few years, i just can’t seem to bounce back, i’ve gone from a “so THEY say”.. pretty [29 year old-looking!], vibrant, caring, good-hearted, person… to someone who’s been falling apart, literally, all over, quietly and alone.
i would be a good candidate for one of those makeover shows but there’s billion’s of us right? my front teeth broke a few times and i’ve had them fixed cheaply by dentists who didnt care about doing a decent job. to me they look so horrible i dont even want to smile anymore, i feel so ugly. they’re getting worse, and the depression i live with as it is is torture sometimes.
looks arent important to me but i have a low self esteem and always did. my kid’s come first and always will. i dont have dental coverage and before 911 i used to travel to the city, nearly an hour away from me, i live in new york state, and spend every last penny i had left getting my teeth fixed at columbia university dental school. they were great, residents ready to be liscenced, wonderful work at such low low cost! but i havent been able to travel like that, no gas to get to the city and no strength to walk thru all the bad streets i had to to get there. i have been selling my things on ebay and hoping to make enough money to get my front teeth fixed but the bills just wont stop overwhelming my pocketbook, i’m always broke, and the dentist fund jar doesn’t have a penny in it, it’s just not happening. it’s been years.
i just wish i could find a dentist who would help me with low cost or someone who’s blessed with more money than they know what to do with to help a total stranger; me. by paying a dentist for me. i don’t want money, i just want to be able to smile again without feeling so ugly. i help people [and causes] whenever i can and believe in giving.. going around and coming around.
i just keep getting up everyday for my 2 boys, theyre grown, my youngest graduating high school this year, and they are the only reason i keep going.
i just watch the season’s and literally year’s go by now. i feel like my life is spent and people tell me i have my whole life ahead of me, that im still young, pretty, and a real good person. i don’t see it. to keep it simple, i feel stupid putting this out there but also feel desparate as i am suffering more than i can express.
i had sugery recently and they never told me how hard physical therapy recovery would be, and its nearing impossible for me to continue because i have to travel 40 minutes from home, 3 days a week, and i really cant afford the gas. allthough there are several physical therapy places right in my hometown, this is the only one that takes the ultra-limited help i have gotten, allthough my injury will leave me partially disabled in my right arm, the only one that really knows what it’s doing!, i try to remain grateful.
thank you in advance for any help or direction i may get. sincerely.
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hi, i am looking for help but dont even know where to begin, in where to go {so i ended up here} or to even begin to state what i need. im real tired of life being such a struggle and not having any enjoyable times. this is really just an ice breaker and im babbling. i had sugery recently and they never told me how hard physical therapy recovery would be, and its nearing impossible for me to continue because i have to travel 40 minutes from home, 3 days a week, and i cant afford the gas. allthough there are several physical therapy places right in my hometown, this is the only one that takes my ultra-limited coverage. yesterday i saw my doctor who again has treated me with malpractice but theres nothing i can do. it took every ounce of strength to drive the hour home from ‘there’, the only ‘covered’ doctors i can see, having just found out two separate pieces of bad health news. my head was throbbing from a near 24 hour migrane, all i wanted to do was get home and plop down on the couch [oh, i dont have a couch right now, lol] but my son was there just leaving to face a sudden hardship, so i never got in my front door, i jumped in the car with him to be there for moral support, two more hours of driving, his thing went well, thank God because i prayed the whole time. im really tired today. is there anyone who just wants to send me a spiritually uplifting hello? ~thanks.
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