Hello, it is legally and ethically wrong to support one’s decision to commit suicide, but I will say that I admire your strength for making it through one more day.
Do you have someone to talk to? Is this something you might want to consider? ( If you haven’t)
You are a lovely person who is in a world of hurt. I can understand your need to want to end it, because so far things you have tried haven’t worked. So you know that you have been unsuccessful twice already, chances are, the third time may not be successful either… you are very fortunate to not have life long physical effects of these suicides you could have ended up alot worse, and most people do.
I feel that your struggles are more emotional than physical right?
Have you considered that you haven’t been successful for a reason? you are among many who are given a second chance at live, not many are given a second… someone bigger than all of us wants you to stay and figure this all out. I’m willing to help you, if ever you need to talk, rant, whatever, please give me a shout.
You are a wonderful person and perhaps you don’t give yourself enough credit because the focus is on how others see you, or treat you. your family is frustrated because they feel helpless to help and sometimes we respond in anger because for some reason shouting is supposed to suprize us into thinking ” Hey I’ll give that a try, I didn’t see it that way before” But as much as yelling isn’t a shock into reality, you unsuccessful attempts are… you are meant to exist. you were made with a purpose, and geee wouldn’t it be nice to finally figure out what the heck that may be? Stick around, we’ll help you find that out.