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natalie.sharpi
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suicidal and in need of help…

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ok well, i was a normal girl, and my mum was my life, i though she was right about everything, not my dad. i was too young to understand but my dad was depressed, so my mum took charge. at the age of seven things started to go down hill. i was badly bullied and pretty vioent - soon i grew out of fighting back physicaly and at school the teachers treated me really wrong. I went home and my mum just said i was a waste of space, time, energy and the child she never wanted. I moved school and started weekly boarding. i made friends and during the week i was so happy. i came home and….well it got worse and i bagan to become depressed. I am the eldest twin - my parents treat my sis great, really great - just me. then i found out my friends had problems, and they seemed to think that i could always help so they came to me - being a weekly boarder and excluded from family life - my friends mean the WORLD to me and watching them hurt and me not being able to fix it was hell. i began cutting….badly. school soon found out and i was hauled in for two hour interegations every night with the wittiest and cleverest teacher - the head of boarding. it was like a ball game me, her, me, her. she won. i told her everything. social services were called in and my sister almost broke with the upset. they decided that there was no case. i had 103 hours in total of interegation from the head of boarding, doctors, medical centre, headmistress, house mistress…..the list goes on. they did nothing. home got worse - being stripped down every night by doctors and parents so i could no longer cut. gradually without the support of cutting i’m getting more and more and more depressed, i’m turning bullemic and i’ve started smoking. i beleive in god but i can’t find a way out. i’m spiralling and spinnig. my freedom has been taken - no phone, no computer, no contact, no nothing and my parents told everyone i knew. god help me **** it god help me

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acheetham4 offline Unverified User #
GB | 5 months, 3 weeks ago (16 hours, 27 minutes after post)

reading your post has seriously touched my soul!you must be going through hell!
you are ot&will not ever be a waste of space,trust me im a parent myself and we all say things we later regret.
I think you are taking on to much of your friends heartache when you need solace yourself!
when we watch people who are depressed we suppress ourselves even further than we have to
my friend used to cut &i couldnt understand why she said she did it to feel alive-its like we pinch ourselves to prove its real-we all have different ways of dealing with our anger&pain!
there is a light at the end of the tunnel,my advice to you is get a diary&record everyday and when you cut you will find the answer-in the meantime go to church and seek god he will be there please dont hurt yourself my love and prayers are with you.x

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natalie.sharpi offline Verified User (5 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
Gloucester, E6, GB | 5 months, 3 weeks ago (23 hours, 47 minutes after post)

thanks =] - my teachers took my diaries…for “evidence” but i’m starting a new one

xx

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ere4u offline Unverified User #
GB | 5 months, 3 weeks ago (1 day, 1 hour after post)

your welcome natalie,i really do hope you get youself better&write your feelings
down as much as you can especially when you feel the need to cut x
if ever you need to speak to me im only a click away.

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