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aspenheadline
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i’m not like this.

if you ask anybody, they’d say i was happy.
but the last six months, it’s like somebody is slipping me pills.
i’ve lost 42 pounds, and i was thin to begin with. (leaving me with about 68 pounds of a 16 year old).
i havent slept in four weeks.
i cant eat without heaving it back up.
i’m tired.
i’m stressed.
i’ve been diagnosed with a panic disorder and borderline personality disorder.
god, this is hard.
probably because i cant tell anybody else.
i choke.
i want out.
i want to give up.

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lageelovele offline Unverified User #
Cherry Hill, NJ, US | 1 year, 8 months ago (3 minutes after post)

dont kill your self…EVER!
you may want to consult a doctor…
try your best to eat and behave normally
i hope you get better!

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dav offline Unverified User #
Grand Prairie, TX, US | 1 year, 8 months ago (5 minutes after post)

talk to someone.

talk to a counselor…if you don’t like what they say, talk to a different one.

talk to someone at a church…sometimes they can be helpful without trying to convert you on the spot.

I used to be deathly afraid of flying, real panic disorder and phobia…I’d get the runs everytime I thought about it…I went to a doctor and realized that the fear of flying is normal and peaks in your mid 20s. After that I started taking a prescription anxiety pill when I got to the airport. After about 4 trips I carry the pill in my pocket, but I don’t take them. I’ve been to Europe 2 times and China 4 times…and that’s a 16 hour flight.

My point is there are entire groups of people out there who’s life goal is to help you realize that you are a normal 16 year old, with big and important problems, but with normal problems. If you really have non-normal problems they’ll work with you even harder.

I am now 2x your age…..life does suck sometimes. But I have seen so much in the last 16 years that I don’t mind the crap that I went through to get here.

TALK TO SOMEONE~!!!!!!

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