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i cant control myself anymore.

I cut myself all the time now , whether im depressed or not, and it feels like i no longer care what i do with my body or life. Sometimes i get so angry and depressed i grab the sharpest thing near me and slice up my arm. I have something in every room of the house for cutting. Scissors in my bedroom, the knives in the kitchen, razor in the bathroom, needles in my parents bedroom, pins and tacks in my parents office, letter opener and smaller scissors in my office. i no cutting is bad, and im angry at myself for not having any idea where im heading. When i get cuts by accident during the day, i dont even notice it or care. Sometimes i care, sometimes i think of getting rid of all my cutting instruments and telling my parents. But i can’t go near my weapons, im scared to touch them, because every time i do i get the urge to cut. My parents aren’t a help, they are a big part of the reason i cut in the first place, i hear about how kids who admit to their parents suffer and become even more suicidal. I don’t want to reach that point. Instead I try to stay out of the house, at my friends, where they can stop me if i try to cut. Where im happy and feel needed and loved.

Im sorry if this post seems more of a rant than a question. I’m just looking for advice to quit. Id rather have cutters who have quit reply, they understand how addictive it is. Im not looking for anything like ’see a therapist’, or ‘quit cutting’. I want a way i can quit on my own.

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