sleep help: I think I’m going to do something damaging to myself.

amichelleab

I think I’m going to do something damaging to myself.

It’s coming, I can feel it. I keep swinging back and forth with moods. Yesterday was the first time one of the lows lasted more than an hour…it lasted all day…Last night I though sleeping would make it go away. I woke up crying and kicking and moaning in my sleep. Even my dreams are tormented. I felt slightly better when I woke up but now I can feel it coming down. I know it’s going to happen. Kind of like when you are sick to your stomach and you know you are going to throw up but you’re not sure exactly when. As I said in a previous post I’m contemplating turning to cutting and drinking but I haven’t done either yet. How do I make these mood swings stop? I don’t like feeling so dark, alone, and just depressed.

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sportsrbes 1 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 8 months ago (3 minutes after post)

wats coming?

amichelleab 0 #
New Hampton, IA, US | 1 year, 8 months ago (3 minutes after post)

another low, where i might do something stupid

Help me with: never really been drunk before but IOam now!

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It’s coming, I can feel it. I keep swinging back and forth with moods. Yesterday was the first time one of the lows lasted more than an hour…it lasted all day…Last night I though sleeping would make it go away. I woke up crying and kicking and moaning in my sleep. Even my dreams are tormented. I felt slightly better when I woke up but now I can feel it coming down. I know it’s going to happen. Kind of like when you are sick to your stomach and you know you are going to throw up but you’re not sure exactly when. As I said in a previous post I’m contemplating turning to cutting and drinking but I haven’t done either yet. How do I make these mood swings stop? I don’t like feeling so dark, alone, and just depressed.

Help me with: never really been drunk before but IOam now!

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 8 months ago (36 minutes after post)

close your eyes and remember a time in your life when you felt positive, felt love,
laughter, joy and go back to that moment until you feel it again, do that as often as you need to as you move through your mood swings, it may feel weird or even ridiculous but eventually it will seem natural. Look up with your eyes until you feel yourself go crosseyed, a teacher I had once told me that when we look up it gives us a moment to get out of the dark. it works. focus on every positive thing you can picture and be grateful for them,even if it feels like a stretch, birds, the sound of laughter, music, colours. so many things.
and the help line or other services that you can connect with a ‘live’ person would be a great place to turn to now as well, that’s what they are there for, and the people that work there do it because they want to offer help.
take care amichelleab, if you have the capacity to feel deep lows, you have the ability to feel joy and happiness just as deeply and saying that I know sometimes its hard to do so.

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New Hampton, IA, US | 1 year, 8 months ago (46 minutes after post)

oh boswoodenboat, thank you. I think that is the most helpful piece of information I have received on this site. Thank you!

Help me with: never really been drunk before but IOam now!

Leslie63 4 #
Weston, MA, US | 1 year, 8 months ago (4 hours, 28 minutes after post)

I cut because i also felt low. i started a little more then a year ago and at times i drink too. Its so addicting i have been clean for two months but i feel much worst. i only stopped because my mom threatened to have me sent to a hospital because i am so addicted. as time progresses you start to feel worst and worst, those lows become everyday for you. cutting becomes your life and soon you feel so much dread and guilt from doing it that you become even worst then you were before. you feel better for a little while after you do it but the guilt you feel after is awful. darling you will have bad days, awful days, dreadful days but sometimes one really good day can make up for a week of terrible days. if you start cutting you may become addicted because you do feel better but its really not worth it. i almost started again last night i was sobbing and shaking because i felt so miserable that all i could think about was hurting myself in some way but i got a bowl of ice cream and called up a friend then went and watched one of my favorite shows, anything to distract myself. i know life is hard and hurting yourself seems like such a good idea at the time but its a really awful thing to live with. i have scars all over my body, people are afraid im going to break down, i dont go through a day without thinking about it, it really controls you and darling you are already feeling awful now you dont want to add more stress to your load. find things relaxing a walk, music or a shower or maybe just light a scented candle. it will be a pain i understand but its much healthier then harming yourself. hope all goes well.

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 8 months ago (2 days, 7 hours after post)

you got everything going for you, dont worry about a thing, if there is somthing bothering you or someone bothering you just let it, them, go, pray it allways helps me

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