getting help for myself and not commiting sucide or hurting myself help: hi my name is Alisha Anne Abbott I live in Grand Island NE and - Help.com

Beautiful lady. God loves you no matter what circumstances you have been in or experienced since 5th grade. You have a lot of wonderful experiences inside of you just waiting to come out. Love is inside too - a measure every person is given with their first breath of life. You call out to this forum because you don’t want to commit suicide don’t you see? It’s ok to be where you are at because nothing is a sure thing right? Meaning, everything is constantly changing. Your body changes when it turns icy cold outside, it shivers to produce warmth on it’s own. Your intestines process and move toxic waste that your body doesn’t use. So know this child when I say everything is always changing…tomorrow keeps coming whether we stick a sword in the earth or not. The thing about suicide is you may be in a worse hell in the afterlife of that experience vs. working it out here on earth because God specifically says, “don’t do that”. You may think you are going to a better place, but there is purpose for you here. There is love here even if you don’t see it, just like the sun produces heat even if we don’t feel it on a cold winter day…so take a moment to realize that even if it’s the toughest thing for you to do right now because life is striking you with it’s worse - think about one thing you are grateful for and your attitude will start to alter your emotional body. check out this website: www.thesecret.tv. I too have had victory from the past (continually improving) feeling of agony. Email me anytime - I am happy and grateful that you are beginning to feel uplifted and happier now, that you are filled with a spirit of peace and well being, knowing you are loved. Biofeedback, counseling, suicide hotline, police are all helpers, women crisis centers (numbers in your local phone book in the front blue pages typically - bare with me it’s been a while since I looked) - yet Biofeedback (I think I have a directory link if you need it) may be an approach worth entertaining because I truly feel this can help with continued nonabrasive (confidential) stress reduction treatment sessions to eliminate emotional and psychological disturbances so you can help better maintain and face daily stresses without being overwhelmed. Good luck with your research in helping yourself. You have many good spots of advice here, you are not a burden at all - take your time, inch by inch, and focus on your research rather than external situations if you can, at least for now