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ugggh…

..im so confused. Im so depressed. I dont know why i get like this at night i just get so unhappy and think about everyone and everything and then i want to cry cuz i am reminded of how alone i am. I dont mean to complain but i dont want to be me. Im boring and I dont even understand myself. I really dont. I just want to scream and punch everything.But during the day im a little stronger and im able to hold everything in and ignore my feelings, and at night it all comes out. I guess its cuz i know no one is watching….But i dont want to continue this anymore, i am starting to annoy myself by doing it and instead of being sad i get angry.

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KateMonster offline Verified User (8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
Athens, OH, US | 6 months, 1 week ago (5 minutes after post)

I’m the same way. My depression is like the monster under my bed; as soon as I try to fall asleep it’s there. Plus, it’s hard work keep all those emotions in during the day.

But keeping problems inside is really unhealthy. If you want to change certain things about yourself, try to find someone to talk to so that you work through those feelings rather than bottle them up.

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attica offline Verified User (6 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 6 months, 1 week ago (10 minutes after post)

annoyance is good! all your doing is focusing on the bad **** in your life and NONE of the good stuff. do something you enjoy, and when you arent doing it, think about doing it. say to yourself, “i am lonely and sad, but at least im alive and this person loves me and loves me for who i am even though i am so loney and sad.”
also, a problem nowadays, with everyone, is that we dont use our imaginations. play with toys, pretend to be an airplane when you walk places, or imagine what people are thinking(funny things only!) or when doing chores, put on some music and dance with the broom! live life!
and when you come down from that high, and think, ‘this is dumb’ say, “**** IT! i LIKE being an airplane!” and the keep doing it till you get bored.

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MamaBear {Felicity} offline Verified User (9 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 129 #
An Unknown Location | 6 months, 1 week ago (17 minutes after post)

Sounds like your angry at yourself,I do it to.IF I’m right it’s regret.For not speaking up,for not letting the tears come when they should.All you need is balance.Instead of holding it in all day then letting it out at night.Try facing things right when they happen.In pieces.

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Valença, 05, BR | 6 months, 1 week ago (20 minutes after post)

I think you look to be angry with the situation you are in and are thinking only about the bad that is happening in your life. Instead of doing that in the night why dont you try to think happy thoughts, like you being a Hero and saving a damsel in distress and stuff like that, It will help you get a good nights sleep… although your mind will want to migrate towards the things bothering you, you will need to consiously think about your fantasy :O)

Dont worry we are with you :O)

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attica offline Verified User (6 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 6 months, 1 week ago (22 minutes after post)

bad stuff is always going to happen, and its the happy things that make it all worth living. so stop ignoring the best in life!

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iLuv ♥ offline Verified User (6 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 367 #
An Undisclosed Location | 6 months, 1 week ago (47 minutes after post)

I just went through this 2 hours ago and im just starting to stop the crying…If you seen my post How I am Feeling… I was crying for two hours… Im just now telling myself to let it go

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iLuv ♥ offline Verified User (6 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 367 #
An Undisclosed Location | 6 months, 1 week ago (48 minutes after post)

I think you should do the same

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*lilies offline Verified User (1 year, 6 months) Long Term User Shouts: 719 #
An Undisclosed Location | 6 months, 1 week ago (48 minutes after post)

Real feelings come at night because that’s when you are on your own and there is not one to talk to but yourself.

Hugs. Talk about your sad feelings.Let if flow.

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attica offline Verified User (6 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 6 months, 1 week ago (52 minutes after post)

drawing, writing, painting, singing, spinning around in circles till you fall, thats all a release. release your bad feelings like a child would.
lol, why do you think we start out as children? to learn how to cope with adulthood.

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jlawthelarso offline Verified User (9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
US | 6 months, 1 week ago (57 minutes after post)

Take it from someone who knows. Its hard, but for me It honestly takes my girlfriend and just seeing her and being with her takes it away. It might be a person, or an activity or something else. What you have to do is find that one thing that gives you that emotional high (not a drug high). I also draw, sing, and play guitar…and honestly these feelings bring unbelievable creativity because its driven by emotion. Like attica said, regressing into childhood for a short amount of time is often seen as a bad thing, but it helps tenfold. I still struggle with this problem and honestly am struggling with it as I write this. Helping other people also helps you feel better and gets your mind off of it. I myself, am happiest with my girlfriend, but have found other outlets as well. It sounds corny, but meditation is unbelievable for this. I’m not talking about the stereotypical kind, im just talking about when you lay down and when you start to think about something you just stop yourself and focus on absolutely nothing. All these things help.

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pft200 offline Verified User (6 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 6 months, 1 week ago (3 days, 2 hours after post)

I know exactly how you feel, some nights I don’t even sleep with all the thoughts racing through my head. And I do get angry at myself for letting certain things happend in my life. There was a point where I felt like I was suffocating and just wanted to end everything. Luckily I met certain people who helped me open up, it helped alot to talk. From there I found other outlets for my emotional distress. There are so many people out there who are willing to just listen and more importantly willing to help. Remember your never alone and don’t be afraid to open up. Talking helps, singing helps, dancing helps, painting helps, but what doesn’t help is isolation. Open up and enjoy the many wonderful things the world has to offer.

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