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I don’t know what the hell I want to do with my life, I can’t tell who I am anymore!

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My brother recently had a hard time with college, and now he predicts the same fate for me, partly placing the blame on the boarding schools we attend; the kind that give tons of work and always love to grade low, no matter how much effort we seem to put into our work(true statement). I don’t know what to believe anymore: I can’t believe in myself, not what I hear in the media, everyone lately around me has closed up emotions/very fake, nothing is working out well and I’m not succeeding like I want to, and I am reaaallyyy working hard, don’t get me wrong, it’s just.. never good enough.
I went home for the first time in a while and saw my dad. I’m a sophomore in highschool, and I guess I’m going through that stage where daddy wants his little girl back or something. I was saying goodnight to him, the last time I’d see him before I left for school again, and I was really tired because I had just gotten back from a dance-a-thon.. (a 10 hr dance thing to raise money for the dance sing troupe i do over the summer to help aid the finances of those in the group who need it) and i was obviously exhausted. I was like, “Dad, I know I’m tired, and this ‘goodnight’ doesn’t sound so loving, but i do love you a lot!” And the only this he replied was, “Yeah I know.. just, when you leave, can you look for the old (my name)? I miss the old (my name), and if you see her, just tell her to come back.”
My dad is like my idol. That really crushed me. That I’m not good enough now in his eyes already..?? I’m working so hard and I’m trying to make him proud of me and all he can say is he misses the old me? Why is that? I’m so confused. I was a lot happier when I was younger. I had less stress on myself. Idk. I want to be happy. Can you please give me some help???????

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FrozenShade85 offline Verified User (1 year, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 8 months ago (1 hour, 50 minutes after post)

I don’t know, to me it sounds like your dad was saying that he wanted the happier you back. Don’t stress out about what you want to do with your life you have some time to figure it out. My first two years of college I went to a community college and just took any class that looked interesting. I still don’t know what i want to do but i had a hell of a time and founds some degree programs that look good. For right now I think you should just take it a day at a time and cut yourself some slack.

good luck

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