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I can do my best. I’m not exactly sure what you mean by define though. For example: do you mean looks, personality, actions etc.?

I havn’t really thought of it quite like that before…
I suppose I would like to be able to express stereotypical male characteristics(I’m such a horrible speller, I have no idea if I spelled that right). I know that I absolutly loathe my breasts. Not just because they’re annoying, they feel and look out of place. I wish my voice were deeper and my eyes less feminine.
…That’s not the answer to the question…
I want to be able to walk down the street and be treated like a man. I don’t want people in a store to say “Hello, miss, how may I help you today?” I want them to look me right in the eye, give me a firm handshake and say “Good afternoon, sir. What can I do for you?”
I don’t like being dainty or feminine at all….I like to show toughness and masculinity as much as possible.
Ummm, is that close enough to the answer?

Thank you so much. I really think this will help!

I read almost all of that paper and about 3/4 of the way down I found this:

“Transgenderist”

Transgenderists are men and women who prefer to steer away from gender role extremes and perfect an androgynous presentation of gender. They incorporate elements of both masculinity and femininity into their appearance. Some persons may see them as male, and by others as female. They may live part of their life as a man, and part as a woman, or they may live entirely in their new gender role but without plans for genital surgery.

It’s me in a paragraph. I really just wanted to thank you again. I didn’t know that there was a term for the way I feel. I’m so much less confused. I know that there’s more I need to learn, but this little paragraph is more than I could have hoped for so soon. Thank you, thank you, thank you!