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i just want to SCREAM.

what to do?

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3 months, 2 weeks ago (3 minutes after post)

scream!

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Shakeybritches offline Verified User (3 months, 4 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 24 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (5 minutes after post)

I agree, if the situation allows….scream.

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qazsewq123456 offline Verified User (3 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (8 minutes after post)

Go for a walk away from the world, and let it out.
Just remember to come back, take ear plugs, and leave when you’re ready.

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kim. offline Verified User (3 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 31 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (9 minutes after post)

Just scream!!
I would scream too, but my parents would come running into my room with loads of questions.

xP

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oneword offline Verified User (11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (14 minutes after post)

i want to so badly so i dont cut but i dont know what to do.

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Shakeybritches offline Verified User (3 months, 4 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 24 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (15 minutes after post)

llllllll wrote:
i want to so badly so i dont cut but i dont know what to do.

Get some professional help right away if you are a cutter.

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oneword offline Verified User (11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (18 minutes after post)

i am a cutter

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Shakeybritches offline Verified User (3 months, 4 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 24 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (19 minutes after post)

llllllll wrote:
i am a cutter

Do your parents know?

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oneword offline Verified User (11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (21 minutes after post)

they found out once but then dropped it and i still cut

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Shakeybritches offline Verified User (3 months, 4 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 24 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (23 minutes after post)

Did they get you any help?

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oneword offline Verified User (11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (26 minutes after post)

no

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Shakeybritches offline Verified User (3 months, 4 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 24 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (29 minutes after post)

That is very important. There are ways of dealing with this. Please let someone know who can help you.

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oneword offline Verified User (11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (29 minutes after post)

why ill just cut anyway

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (35 minutes after post)

but maybe with help….you wont. I am just as lost as you are, and im 41 years old….I did scream today…..helps a little.

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rebek~always offline Verified User (5 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 19 #
US | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (36 minutes after post)

if your not interrested in helping yourself then why should anyone care?????
you should want to help yourself and i hope you find help!!!

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (39 minutes after post)

I dont think you DONT want to help, or you would still be in the privacy of your room, cutting, instead of here, talking about it. Talking is the best….even if you dont get any answers….Today I have been contemplating my life, and how many bad desicions I have made, and what a mess my life is. I still dont have any more knowledge than I did this morning, but I talked to my neighbor, and ….something about hearing yourself SAY it all, out load….to another PERSON….does help. tommorrow may start like today….but at least there is tommorrow.

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oneword offline Verified User (11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (40 minutes after post)

iv tried to stop for long time but have given up and telling my parents would be worse both of my sis have depression and its hard to live with that so i dont say anything i keep it to my self.

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (47 minutes after post)

i know. I was 12 the first time I thought, Enough is Enough, and had my x-mas present (22 shotgun) in my mouth.
I have failed at almost everything that I have tried. I am unemployed, and homeless (crashed a friends couch). Did I mention im over 40….I am supposed to be a responsible adult. And yet, it feels like I am curesed…..the good thing is I know whos fault it all is….mine! I am not going to punish myself tough….I am struggling with a solution to my woes, and talking to others who ….sometimes get angry, because they think “here we go with another ‘pity party’.”, BUT even them yelling, or whatever, still helps REALITY to snap back into play, and I think….maybe there is a future.
Thanks to the internet, we have a way of getting together here, and can try to help others….and by help, I mean….chit-chatting with others who FEEL just like we do. The answer is not in the form of a statement for us….it is in action….DOING something to change the problems…..unfortunitly….I dont know the answer yet either

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nsns7 offline Verified User (3 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (47 minutes after post)

you have a choice. you can scream then do something to help someone else or keep cutting and stop complaining. i’m suicidal every once and awhile…but if I know inside I don’t have the heart to do it and I have to put up with this world…I might as well do what I can to help someone who wants it. Join a charity or an organization- get a different perspective on things.

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oneword offline Verified User (11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (50 minutes after post)

i have tought of suicide but that would be pointless

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (51 minutes after post)

BINGO! the one thing I wont fail at is life……gonna go till it is over

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oneword offline Verified User (11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (52 minutes after post)

maybe but still

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nsns7 offline Verified User (3 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (54 minutes after post)

the feeling is mutual. look life isn’t cake but you know this already - all of us do. so if living in our heads is driving us insane then why not shift the focus on something positive. i mean if the way we’ve been all this hasn’t been working- then why not try the opposite and see what comes of it? just a thought…

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oneword offline Verified User (11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (55 minutes after post)

i only cut to feel somthing rather than nothing

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nsns7 offline Verified User (3 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (59 minutes after post)

i used to feel like i felt nothing…i was scared half to death b/c i couldn’t remember the last time i really cried. u feel.trust there’s alot of feeling going on…but we block it with crap we’ve built up in our heads along with way. but lllllll, so what? let me ask u something, do you alienate yourself from people?

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oneword offline Verified User (11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour after post)

everyone except my one best friend

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oneword offline Verified User (11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 1 minute after post)

the last time i cried was the day my grandfather died a yr ago

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nsns7 offline Verified User (3 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 5 minutes after post)

you know what, me too. but my best friend doesn’t know how crazy i am. if alienating yourself is obviously not helping you, why not try surrounding yourself with good people. i just joined a charity feeding food to people with AIDS. I don’t feel like my life has changed…but I know at least I helped someone eat today. secondly, if i’m going to try and do the opposite of what i do now…i am going to have to keep joining groups and surrounding myself with good people…and definitely people different than me. am i making sense b/c i’m confused myself?

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oneword offline Verified User (11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 7 minutes after post)

iv talked to my friend about me cutting and stuff but i dont know any more im 16 and just tring to get through school the best i can.

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 11 minutes after post)

been years (unless you count the ‘family moment’ commercials)

I dont have the answer, but I know what it is….change.

How to do that is, the whole reason lllllll started this post, and perhaps what led us to search this particular post.
GOD I wish I knew. I do KNOW….there are hundreds….thousands of us out here….not FEELING, because we believe we are alone.

I come to these webposts to see who is like me. Its nice to know….even if YOU dont think so, Im not the only one who feels like this in a world full of normal 9-5 people, living the TV family life.

One thing that keeps me going when I think life is ****…..could have been born in Ia different life…..2000 years ago, as a slave in Egypt, or 200 years ago, as a black man in the south, or this or that. life is pretty good as far as, we do live in an age where more people do care, and we have things pretty easy.

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 13 minutes after post)

change can be as simple as wearing a smile….everyday for one hour…
:)

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 14 minutes after post)

lol….i suck…..I dont know what the answer is….but talking out loud REALLY helps

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oneword offline Verified User (11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 15 minutes after post)

i smile everyday to hide what i feel

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 15 minutes after post)

you don’t have to know. you’ll never know. look at the gentleman who’s still stuggling and he’s in his 40’s. It’s ok not to know. maybe, we’re not supposed to. ur in high school - perfect, high school can be hell or heaven, often both. i hated high school so much i dropped out and got a ged. i’m in my twenties now, and i learned something. i alienated myself completely from everyone in high school b/c i was afraid of being rejected, misunderstood - i felt different and alone. funny thing is look at all these people posting their drama…how similar their stories are 2 yours…they’re are people in ur school right now who are just like you but b/c we all feel alone and refuse to open up///then we suffer for nothing…should i go on or am i a bit much?

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oneword offline Verified User (11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 17 minutes after post)

iv tried to tell some one at my school but that failed soooo…

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nsns7 offline Verified User (3 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 18 minutes after post)

soooooo…what? that’s it. u quit?

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oneword offline Verified User (11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 18 minutes after post)

its hard to try if no one whats to listen

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nsns7 offline Verified User (3 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 19 minutes after post)

i am.

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 21 minutes after post)

i found this site…..looking for someone to listen…..and wound up doing the listening. Try a real smile….for huh? I KNOW how you feel, and we are listening right NOW! but like nsns7 said, and I think this is correct….It’s ok not to know. maybe, we’re not supposed to.

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oneword offline Verified User (11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 22 minutes after post)

im glad you want to listen but i dont know how to tell what i think

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 23 minutes after post)

but i kinda know…..i feel it too….right now! NUMB….no direction, no ambition, or motivation to find ambition…..I sat here today thinking about what do I do next….I still dont know.

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 24 minutes after post)

if I could go to sleep and stay asleep …i would. but then tommorrow a buddy might come over and say “lets go ….do whatever”, and life resumes. I never know what next, but I am open to anything

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