suicide help: i just went outside and smoked my last blunt.

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i just went outside and smoked my last blunt.

i layed in the grass and just looked up at the sky and closed my eyes. i saw the sun shine thro the corner of my eye making a tunnle of bright light… and all i could think is i wanted to die. i didnt want to be in this ugly world we all live in anmore. i just want to move on, say goodby to the ones i love and go… I have a bag of lets call it happyness that will bring me even closer to that bright tunnle of light and probable let me walk thro it as well….. and well i dont see anthign that can hold me right now and i just want to see if people agree with me…. i was the happest i could have ever been thinking about dieing out in the grass. i have never been happer in my life.

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Anonymous changed the tags on this post: they were "sun, Eye, Gremlins, light, Love, life, Anmore, British Columbia, world, walking, Sky, death suicide, suicide, death" 5 years, 2 months ago.

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justo706 0 #
An Unknown Location | 5 years, 2 months ago (12 minutes after post)

about 300 25mg seroquel

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An Unknown Location | 5 years, 2 months ago (19 minutes after post)

i know my friend left them here and i thoght it might be a good idea

issybelle 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 5 years, 2 months ago (19 minutes after post)

♥
i know what you mean
but i refuse to give in to that impulse

Help me with: alright my loves

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justo706 0 #
An Unknown Location | 5 years, 2 months ago (23 minutes after post)

iv felt suicidel befor but iv always been unhappy about it. i feel difrent about this time. im happy for once in my life

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An Unknown Location | 5 years, 2 months ago (29 minutes after post)

****

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An Unknown Location | 5 years, 2 months ago (38 minutes after post)

haha yeh. idk it feels like my life is so meaningless i have my girlfriend that loves me but thats it. my parents abanedn me.. all day i just sit around trying to feel good with the pot but its not worth it ne more. every day is exacly the same and id rather just sleep then go thro it again.

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An Unknown Location | 5 years, 2 months ago (44 minutes after post)

i know it was hard for me to trust women because when i was yonger i found my mom cheating and she broke up the whole family…. my girl is the only person i love in this world and is the only one i would be concerned about after im gone.

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An Unknown Location | 5 years, 2 months ago (48 minutes after post)

yeh its one of two things thats holding me together

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An Unknown Location | 5 years, 2 months ago (53 minutes after post)

its kinda sad but pot. iv been smoking it ever since all my family isues… and it just kinda zones me out for alittle. mostly all day now tho. i think without it i would have been dead along time ago

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An Unknown Location | 5 years, 2 months ago (57 minutes after post)

the devils drug… iv had a few trips with that stuff. i pefer acid or some nice shrooms

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An Unknown Location | 5 years, 2 months ago (1 hour, 3 minutes after post)

hey i just want to thank u for talking to me and getting my mind of everyting. i just get these fing emotinal spikes and i feel like theres no point to life and living in the same **** day in and out

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justo706 0 #
An Unknown Location | 5 years, 2 months ago (1 hour, 10 minutes after post)

peace

theresape 4 #
Waltham, MA, US | 5 years, 2 months ago (1 hour, 39 minutes after post)

You can take this same zen attitude and use it to embrace life instead of death. I hope you do. Just release the need for control and embrace life as it comes to you.

It’s our struggle against the realities of life that bring us most of our pain.

Good luck.

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justo706 0 #
An Unknown Location | 5 years, 2 months ago (1 hour, 49 minutes after post)

feeling nothing felt so good

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