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Anyone ever feel so fed up with life they just shut down?

I feel like this is happening to me, I’m getting 300 dollars tomorrow from my mom, from her economic stimulus check. I don’t know what I’m gonna spend it on, I don’t really want anything, I like music, I wanna learn how to play, anyone got any ideas? On how to spend it, where to get lessons? Anyone here to cheer me up? I’m slowly shutting down with every day that passes, and I just feel like a weakling for doing this, I just feel like sleep. My mom cares about me but she doesn’t know what to do for me… I want to learn to read and write music too… anyone out there who could teach me? I could pay I guess…I don’t know anymore… What should I do with my life? I’m incredibly smart, my dad thinks I’m throwing my life away by not going to school, but school is too boring, I just want to write music but I don’t know how, so for now all I felt like doing was sleeping, I’m barely talking to anyone, I went to the doctor today to see if I had diabeties, I don’t, I don’t even know how to spell it, every time I don’t take my meds I start shaking… Maybe it’s because of them like this guy said… I don’t know, I just need some comforting and someone to say everythings gonna be alright… I’m 17 years old and a sophmore in highschool, my grandma died last october, so that pushed me towards the edge even more, I guess right now I’m going on and off the topics a little bit, but I don’t care anymore, my grandma died… I was getting straight A’s, now I’m getting straight F’s, I got in a fight with my father a couple a weeks ago that resulted with me laughing hysterically and them taking me to the mental hospital because I said I was suicidal… And I am… I don’t know what to do, My friends won’t talk to me except my best friend Zack who has been my friend since the second grade, and above it all, I think I’m BI, and my mother is against homosexuality. Wtf is wrong with me? Is it me… Or is it society…

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An Unknown Location | 4 months, 1 week ago (21 minutes after post)

I’ll talk to you :) email me or give me your im or msn. i swear i’m not a creeper or anything. i’m just kind of stressed out myself and your post caught my attention when i was about to post something.

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Newark, NJ, US | 4 months, 1 week ago (35 minutes after post)

Hi there, Lionheart… I’m glad to hear you don’t have diabetes… but did they consider the meds you were on and possible side effects or interactions? How long have you been on the meds? Is it possible you are on some rather addictive ones and then when you don’t take them you are having withdrawals (shaking)?? But some meds have side effects that actually cause tremors too… I know ’cause I’ve had this happen!!

I’m sort of rushing this reply as I have to leave in a minute for a doctor’s appointment myself… but I hope we can chat more later or next time I’m on…

I think you should get yourself a musical instrument with that money!!! I don’t know what you’re interested in exactly, but why not look around a little and see what you could get…. it will be great for you to have a hobby you enjoy!

You’ll probably have to look around locally to see if there’s anyone who could teach you something about music… there might be ads in your local paper, or bulletin boards in grocery stores often have this kind of stuff…

I’m so sorry about the loss of your grandmother… that’s hard and it will take some time to get over. She will always live on in your heart, of course.

Well, sorry I have to run so quickly, but hope to chat some more… ttyl!!! :)

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An Unknown Location | 4 months ago (6 days, 22 hours after post)

My Email is i> small>(email removed) /small> /i> so if anyone wants to talk just email me with more suggestions. OH! And, Cattail, I’m gonna have my meds switched, because I was reading the side effects and I pretty much have all of them. So… Yay, new meds…………. bleh.

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Newark, NJ, US | 4 months ago (1 week after post)

Thanks for the update, Lionheart!!! I’m glad you will get off those meds with the side effects, and hopefully whatever they put you on won’t have such a bad effect at all!! Hope you get to feeling better real soon… :)

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Horsham, I9, GB | 4 months ago (1 week after post)

I think you should mainly take it easy on yourself and be nice to yourself, try get some fresh air when you’re feeling stressed about anything.

I don’t know how much you know already about music but my flatmate has a kind of flipchart (looks like a calender) thing which has all of the guitar chords on it. Its really useful for reference and it has all of the fingers on it so you can start from scratch.

Sorry to hear about your Grandma.

As for being BI there’s nothing wrong with you if you are, some people just are, Society should just Get Over it!

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 3 weeks ago (1 week, 4 days after post)

Thanks for the responses everyone.

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