Blood help: Help, please, I’m a nothing and a nobody.

lunagrrl7

Help, please, I’m a nothing and a nobody.

But I need some help. It always makes me think of that Beatle’s songs, Help, and Hey Jude.
Stronger people that ask for what you need.

It’s like a wall of glass, I should have been named snow white or some other fairy tale name. It’s a glass coffin, the darkness, it allows me to see but not to act, to hear but not to answer. It always leaves me sleepless. awake. hideously awake. in the dark mean times, in the brutal bright times, removed and deserted.
Disconnected.

Who is to blame? Me, definitely, I’m a sick little girl, the church. The Catholic church. yes, the church. The fire and hell they promise, the whole thing about desiring.
About wanting.
I wanted once and then I had it and it sickened me.
and that was my punishment.

I was

Used. discarded.
trash.

blood ran freely down my wrists,
horizontal steps to a false oblivion.

up and up and up
and never away.

life wins,

turns self inflicted wounds into
last minute saves

last minute saves heal to scabs
scabs that hurt.
but are itchy.

There’s a moment of grace.

a single breath of peace.

there is nothing I want but goodness,

so please, help me.

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PollyinLove 8 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 6 months ago (1 minute after post)

Nice poetry…. What is it exactley that’s the problem?

Help me with: I’m so over feeling like a loser with no friends.

Snar 41 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 6 months ago (2 minutes after post)

If we are gunna help you, wer are gunna need a little detail…. you are clearly hurting, what is the problem?

Help me with: I sometimes want to float away.

lunagrrl7 0 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 6 months ago (13 minutes after post)

I hurt. I feel like no matter what I do it makes no difference to anyone, I’m an annoyance

PollyinLove 8 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 6 months ago (15 minutes after post)

You are not an annoyance… And you do make a differnence! What about your friends, boyfriend, family, pets, job???

Help me with: I’m so over feeling like a loser with no friends.

PollyinLove 8 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 6 months ago (15 minutes after post)

What about you?

Help me with: I’m so over feeling like a loser with no friends.

epointmarketin 2 #
Eden Prairie, MN, US | 1 year, 6 months ago (29 minutes after post)

Where in africa are you, if you are? maybe, geographically, we can offer solutions? just a thought.

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The Seven Stars 1 #
Carlsbad, CA, US | 1 year, 6 months ago (39 minutes after post)

This is why the world is so screwed up. So many people and organizations working with the sole purpose of destroying man’s soul. If it makes you feel better, they do it because their afraid of you. Their afraid of you becoming an individual. Because when you are, you won’t need them anymore.

Help me with: New Coldplay Song

epointmarketin 2 #
Eden Prairie, MN, US | 1 year, 6 months ago (43 minutes after post)

The Seven Stars wrote:
This is why the world is so screwed up. So many people and organizations working with the sole purpose of destroying man’s soul. If it makes you feel better, they do it because their afraid of you. Their afraid of you becoming an individual. Because when you are, you won’t need them anymore.

what? I guess coming from CA., I might agree, but in no intention is the world set up to destroy its very existence in the organic human nature its comprised of.

Help me with: does cnet networks have any job openings?

The Seven Stars 1 #
Carlsbad, CA, US | 1 year, 6 months ago (49 minutes after post)

epointmarketin wrote:

The Seven Stars wrote:
This is why the world is so screwed up. So many people and organizations working with the sole purpose of destroying man’s soul. If it makes you feel better, they do it because their afraid of you. Their afraid of you becoming an individual. Because when you are, you won’t need them anymore.

what? I guess coming from CA., I might agree, but in no intention is the world set up to destroy its very existence in the organic human nature its comprised of.

Then why do so many people berate the worth of a man’s soul? Why do so many say that the only good thing a person can do is only work for the benefit of others? Why is it that human beings have been given souls, yet we are told to give them up everywhere?

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epointmarketin 2 #
Eden Prairie, MN, US | 1 year, 6 months ago (1 hour, 4 minutes after post)

We are not. We have the underlining choice. your giving the soul the benifit of the doubt. Like ancient philosophy, Socrates says that our soul leans towards what the human desire is. if you want to work for the benifit of others, you will, otherwise, it is entirely up to you how you manage your life. It does not matter what others think your soul is worth. Depending on what you do and how you do it, your soul will gravitate to your most plesure in life.

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epointmarketin 2 #
Eden Prairie, MN, US | 1 year, 6 months ago (1 hour, 12 minutes after post)

I can not argue on the basis that people berate the worth of a mans soul, or that we are told to give it up, because that is a personal speculation. It is in your opinion that you reply as such, and I am not agianst anyones opinion.

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