depression help: I have a terrible pain killer addiction.

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I have a terrible pain killer addiction.

I practically eat about a bottle a week of 650mg pain killers. I take them so much, i cant feel a thing. I sit on my bed as if i am a vegetable feeling nothing for hours on end. I drink tons on top of that, I smoke a lot aswell and I’m too dependant of ambien(sleeping pill)
I can’t stop myself from taking these things constantly. If i don’t take them for atleast a day, anxiety settles in and i cant do anything properly. but I cant do anything proper after ive taken 12 pain killers either. I’ve had my stomach pumped about 3 times in the last year.
I dont know when this will end. My dependancy wont let me stop.
I have no more hope. Every last ounce of hope has been drained from me.
I dont know what to do anymore.
Thats about all the information I’m willing to talk about at this point, everything else is too much 2 much or 2 personal to even mention.
:(

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An Undisclosed Location | 2 months, 2 weeks ago (7 minutes after post)

What led you to this addiction of drugs?

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An Unknown Location | 2 months, 2 weeks ago (21 minutes after post)

First off, I’d have to tell you to find an expert on addiction, which I’m not. Do it now.

Second off, I don’t have first-hand experience, but from what I’ve gleaned talking to people I know, this is what it’s like to beat an addiction:

1. The hardest thing you ever have done or will do in your life.
2. The best thing you could ever do.
3. NOT impossible.

If you beat these addictions, you will be a better person than you are now, guaranteed. You will be glad you did it. You CAN pull it off.

And go get help. As they say, it helps.

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spiritedsoul 18 #
Sandgate, G5, GB | 2 months, 2 weeks ago (30 minutes after post)

if u carry on like this u wont be doing ur health any good.

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Nutmeg 22 #
Vancouver, BC, CA | 2 months, 2 weeks ago (2 hours, 32 minutes after post)

You need a professional. You CAN do it, you just need to make yourself. Its going to be really really hard, and you’re going to have to fight for every inch of it. But YOU CAN DO IT.

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