Piece of my diary
friday 27-10-2006:
Cursed
How does a person know he’s cursed?
I will tell you how:
When the bad events are so much that they could not be only random events in his life.
When a person starts a job and on his first day he’ll quit it!
When a person will start teaching and his second day of teaching will be his last day he’ll teach too.
When some company calls him for a job interview but at the same time, he’ll feel he is not wanted in this company.
When a person trys to find a job and he really do find one, a really good one, but wait a minute! My parents won’t allow me to do such a job!
The curse goes on and on untill you believe in it so much that you nearly go to a witch to make it go away. Or in my case just ask God “please please please remove this curse of my life and I’ll be a good girl again”
Ok all this is happening to me in this same year and I am sure there is more to come. Sometimes I see it funny and sometimes I cry because of it and sometimes I see it as an adventure because I am still young and do not have any responsibilities. But why couldn’t a single job work? I wonder.
I think I might have a solution, but it’s hard. A person like me must change her characters and behavior to change how others view her. I must change what others expect me to do, and I must let them expect from me different things. And if I need anything from people, it will be good to know what they are looking for in a person. I will try to give them what they want.
I’m not going to do that because I simply can not! It is a stupid thing to do! Not be myself. And it is a hard thing too. Sometimes bad luck would work against a person even if he did everything to fight it.
Sometimes I think that people failing will fail all the time. And those succeeding in life would succeed all the time too.
Some other times I will believe there is still hope for me.
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