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I am severely depressed.

My mood does change throughout the day but not drastically. Usually I wake up okay or maybe even optimistic but, as the days go on it seems to get worse and I find myself again, at square one. I’m just losing hope… I keep on thinking I’m at my lowest point but every day I’m proven wrong.

My parents fight and drink to much, they are sometimes violent but not as much as they used to be. My brother says frequently that I am just one of those people on this who is bad, nasty and sick. I really do not like myself.

I cannot say this to my best friend because I’m worried she is bored of my problems. My family (extended) has continuously given support but without ever coming through or taking action. I just want out… I don’t think I really want to die but sometimes I feel like that is the only way I will truly escape these issues.

Please, help.

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5 months ago (3 minutes after post)

Ask God for help and trust that he will. Im so sorry for how things are for you. I bet you cant wait to grow up and and the nice life you wish for. Just try to make the best of it all while your there. I would feel like you too. But people have it much worse and there is a better life awaiting you.

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I am severely depressed. My mood does change throughout the day but my drastically. Usually I wake up okay or maybe even optimistic but, as the days go on it seems to get worse and I find myself again, at square one. I’m just losing hope… I keep on thinking I’m at my lowest point but every day I’m proven wrong.

My parents fight and drink to much, they are sometimes violent but not as much as they used to be. My brother says frequently that I am just one of those people on this who is bad, nasty and sick. I really do not like myself.

I cannot say this to my best friend because I’m worried she is bored of my problems. My family (extended) has continuously given support but without even coming through or taking action. I just want out… I don’t think I really want to die but sometimes I feel like that is the only way I will truly escape these issues.

Please, help.

Anonymous edited this post 5 months ago. Read the previous text »

I am severely depressed. My mood does change throughout the day but not drastically. Usually I wake up okay or maybe even optimistic but, as the days go on it seems to get worse and I find myself again, at square one. I’m just losing hope… I keep on thinking I’m at my lowest point but every day I’m proven wrong.

My parents fight and drink to much, they are sometimes violent but not as much as they used to be. My brother says frequently that I am just one of those people on this who is bad, nasty and sick. I really do not like myself.

I cannot say this to my best friend because I’m worried she is bored of my problems. My family (extended) has continuously given support but without even coming through or taking action. I just want out… I don’t think I really want to die but sometimes I feel like that is the only way I will truly escape these issues.

Please, help.

PrettyBabyBlueEyes offline Verified User (5 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 9 #
An Unknown Location | 5 months ago (7 minutes after post)

There is always free help. Check schools etc. there will always be some one to talk to that won’t get tired of listening.

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An Unknown Location | 5 months ago (9 minutes after post)

Thank you guys. A few kind words can do so much… I suppose now I have become so terribly conscious of others thoughts. My thoughts eat away at me. It’s hard for me to reach out though I need it so badly.

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Anonymous #
5 months ago (21 minutes after post)

do you have friends that your realy close to?

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An Unknown Location | 5 months ago (24 minutes after post)

Yes, I have my best friend in the whole world Chloe… no one seems quite as significant as she is since she has been with me forever but I actually have a lot of friends. It’s just whenever I am with them I know that I am a lie because they do not know me. They are not friends with me, they are friends with the me that likes to have a good time, the me that does okay in school, the me who is funny. I am such a lie.

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Anonymous #
5 months ago (26 minutes after post)

your no lie and all this stuff going on at home is not who you are- its only things you go through. WHy cant it be ok to just be more free and have fun. Life shouldnt be so serious at this point so let go and be free. have a good time. Thats living. Living in all this is not living.

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An Unknown Location | 5 months ago (30 minutes after post)

You have basically described me. I am the most rambunctious in my family’s eyes. I party, have a lot a friends, am active and a little bit of a trouble maker but beneath it all, I feel like I’m fading. My family tears me down, makes me feel worthless and guilty… I am so heart broken by my relationship with each one of them because as a little girl I tried so hard being rejected everytime. It hurts.

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Anonymous #
5 months ago (33 minutes after post)

stop living in these negitive thoughts ….you are tearing you down, not them. U can be happy if you want to be.

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An Unknown Location | 5 months ago (37 minutes after post)

So many people have said that to me. Do you think I don’t want to be happy? I WANT to be happy. I have tried so hard, I was untouchable for so long. It’s not like I’ve given up at life. I am “involved” as I described but truly I am lost. It’s pure honesty. I’m just a result of a lot of wear n’ tear.

It isn’t that simple. Wanting is not that simple. Getting what you want is not that simple.

I have dreams. I have a lot of dreams. I know what I want to do, where I want to go. I want to travel, I want to see the world. I want to run far far away. I want to be independent and self sufficient, I want to be loving and free and held back by nothing. One day, I hope.

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An Unknown Location | 5 months ago (55 minutes after post)

And you will.Keep that good attitude.don’t let others take that away.Try to practice patients,look forward to the day when you are out.In order to get through the days without having so much depression by the end of the day when you hear,see and experience the negatives,just let it be a lesson to you so you don’t follow in their footsteps. And It may help to try and make them aware of their actions as they happen in a nice way.You can be a good example for them.

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An Unknown Location | 5 months ago (58 minutes after post)

Thank you. I know a lot of my attitude affects me and I know I have a lot of growing to do but I know if my situation changed even the slightest, it would help. I will try harder, I certainly will until the day I get to leave.

I hope I did not disrespect by passing on what you had said (Anonymous) ^^

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An Unknown Location | 5 months ago (1 hour, 4 minutes after post)

Maybe try learning something or doing a craft or ? to ‘Tune them out’.use earphones with your music.

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