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I’m 24 and I’m soo sick of my life I’m ready to end it.

I’ve been addicted to crack for five years and I just took up heroin too… as if I didn’t have enough problems as it were. I used to be considered one of the popular kids in high school, I had a couple really beautiful girlfriends and I had the world by the tail. I got hooked on crack in 2003 when I started working on the oil rigs. 2 years later my girlfriend left me and I’ve been riding a wave to suicide ever since. Some of the situations I’ve been involved in I’m surprised that I’m even still alive today and sometimes I even wonder why. I haven’t decided just what to do yet, but trapped inside my own mind, I am coming up with some pretty wicked stuff I could do to end it all. I just care to much for everyone else and not enough for me and now I’m soo ****** up and I feel alone in this world. I used to be a ‘cool’ guy and I tell ya, it means **** all now. I’m not cool, I’m a ******* loser and I’m sick of wasting oxygen by breathing. Either things will get better, time willing - maybe I’ll get a grip on myself and make sense of this unlivable mess that my life has become, or I won’t and I’ll just die. At this point, death seems like my most viable option. I used to have so much to offer this world friends, family, teachers and even cops and corrections officers used to tell me that I was worth something. Now I feel like a low life piece of ******* **** and I’d rather die than be any more of a burden to the people I have let down… including myself. Drugs are bad, they’ve taken 7 years to turn me from a young good looking guy with everything (any I mean everything I could’ve ever wanted) going for me, to a bi polar suicidal unhealthy unattractive freak who finds more comfort in the thought of death than in the thought of life. Thanks for reading. Be smarter than I’ve been, we only get one shot at this life.

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annlovestars offline Verified User (3 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 80 #
An Unknown Location | 2 months, 2 weeks ago (3 minutes after post)

Want to talk ?

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littlenick offline Verified User (3 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 239 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 months, 2 weeks ago (5 minutes after post)

Unload your mind. Now. What’s on your mind and heart. You have said a mouthful but do what annlovestars says. Talk. Right now you have, I’m sure, everyone’s attention.

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littlenick offline Verified User (3 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 239 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 months, 2 weeks ago (8 minutes after post)

We’re listening! :).

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rstarzboxer offline Verified User (2 months, 2 weeks) Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 2 months, 2 weeks ago (10 minutes after post)

It’s taken 7 years to hit rock bottom…now the only way to go is up…. so let’s work on going up and not what it is at this very moment.

First thing you need to do is get rid of your dark side, get itno a re-hab program. We can help you find a free one. Let’s get clean and let you control your life and not the drugs.

It sounds like you want your life back…. well let’s do that then.

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rstarzboxer offline Verified User (2 months, 2 weeks) Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 2 months, 2 weeks ago (11 minutes after post)

C’mon dude talk to us, we are here to help….

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littlenick offline Verified User (3 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 239 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 months, 2 weeks ago (31 minutes after post)

Listen, your life is one of the most precious things that God gave you. He gave it to you as a gift, you did not ask for it. What you accomplish with your life is the gift you will give back to God. You want to give it back to him unaccomplished? Don’t you have dreams? Don’t you have goals? C’mom even in your darkest moments you had to think of things and dreams you wish you could accomplish.
Don’t give up on yourself. Don’t give up your precious future that is just sitting there waiting for you to arrive and take it. You think if you do the unthinkable, your problems will end. You are not a selfish person. You think if you did what you want to do to yourself you would be doing everyone a favor. But, don’t you think of the people that you would be leaving behind to contend with the problems, trauma, and pain you would be leaving behind? They would always wonder what they could have done to help you and talk you out doing what you did. Talk to us, man. I had dark moments when I thought my life was over and it would be better if I was not in this world so I know what I am talking about. You did not come to this site because you actually wanted to end your life. You came to this site because you wanted help. You wanted understanding and maybe someone to give you some guidance. Now we are all here waiting for you to talk to us. Annlovestars, rstarzboxer, Renegade, even helpbot is waiting for you. The least you can do is respond. Believe me, you have our undivided attention. We care for you and would take it personally if anything bad was to happen to you. That would reflect as a failure on our parts to let you hurt yourslef. You deserve better than what you are thinking of doing to yourself. Think of all times you had those happy times before you became addicted to the drugs. Think of the family members who would be saddened because you gave up on yourself. Life will have its up and downs. The hurdles that you have in front of you right now are not unsurmountable. Everything has a solution. Don’t compound to your problems. There are plenty of other options besides what you want to do to yourself. 24 years old! Hurrah for youth! You are young! A whole life awaits you! Countless opportunities to succeed are just waiting for you to discover them and take advantage of them. Give yourself a chance. There will be other girls, there will be other people. Stay with us and share in this wonderful place we call world. You will see that this will come to pass and you’ll laugh about your present problems in years to come. Your family will be overjoyed to have you around. Your new friends await you. And…above all, once all is said and done. You await you. You deserve you. You.

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littlenick offline Verified User (3 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 239 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 months, 2 weeks ago (34 minutes after post)

knock knock

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littlenick offline Verified User (3 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 239 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 months, 2 weeks ago (36 minutes after post)

(knock knock)

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rstarzboxer offline Verified User (2 months, 2 weeks) Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 2 months, 2 weeks ago (36 minutes after post)

You came here to let SOMEONE know how you feel, maybe you didn’t expect anyone to reply or care? Well, we do. You really do have a bright future ahead if you can open your eyes from the fog.

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rstarzboxer offline Verified User (2 months, 2 weeks) Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 2 months, 2 weeks ago (37 minutes after post)

littlenick wrote:
knock knock

Who’s there?

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littlenick offline Verified User (3 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 239 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 months, 2 weeks ago (37 minutes after post)

Willow

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rstarzboxer offline Verified User (2 months, 2 weeks) Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 2 months, 2 weeks ago (42 minutes after post)

littlenick wrote:
Willow

willow who???

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littlenick offline Verified User (3 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 239 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 months, 2 weeks ago (42 minutes after post)

We love anonymous so much that we would all be sad if anything bad was to happen to him. :)

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rstarzboxer offline Verified User (2 months, 2 weeks) Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 2 months, 2 weeks ago (45 minutes after post)

Anonymous….where are thou anonymous….

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dizzydaisy offline Verified User (6 months) Long Term User Shouts: 6 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 months, 2 weeks ago (47 minutes after post)

You know, I recently stopped looking at suicidal posts because they were starting to get to me… but I read your and I had to reply. I truly want to help you.

Firstly, you are worth something… every person on this planet is worth something and don’t let anyone (including yourself) tell you otherwise. Second, every single day you live is another chance you have to turn your life around. No one can do it but you. If you want to change then you have to make the sacrifice to change. The BS they created in high school about setting standards of self-worth based on good looks, over achievements, high standards, are just that, BS, CRAP!! A load of **** created by society to make others feel inferior. It was all an illusion, there is so much more to life hun.. Don’t give a crap what other people think, you don’t need to be “cool” to have a good life, just live and enjoy life like it was supposed to be enjoyed. Take joy in the small things in life like blue skies, green grass, happiness, and every single breath you take because thank goodness you are STILL ALIVE!! The only time it is too late to change your life is when you are dead. To tell you the truth, guess when you’ll be letting everyone down… if you kill yourself. Your friends, your family, every single one of them will be furious and sad!

Please take some time out to watch this video. Myself and over 1500 other people (yes 1500) had to watch this when a dear friend committed suicide. He was 21, was “the popular” kid in school, “perfect” by societies standards, just like you and fell into some hard times just like yourself… he had his whole life ahead of him to turn things around, but he took the easy way out. If only he knew how many people loved and cared for him before he decided to shoot himself….
http://myspacetv.com/index.cfm?fuseac…

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lilnickiere0 offline Verified User (2 months, 2 weeks) Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 2 months, 2 weeks ago (2 hours, 57 minutes after post)

Hey, I came on here because i am nosey really plus i was feeling down… i felt the same, cant be bothered with life, what is the point and so on? then reading these posts made me think, actually my life is brilliant compared to some of these people’s the thing is that it didnt seem to make a difference, down and out i still felt. Everyone who is telling you to talk to someone is totally correct! It seems like a load of ********, a person you dont know helping you, understanding you, yea right how do they no what you going through? But it just so happens they probably do. If you dont want to post anymore and get pissed off with people feeling sorry for you or trying to understand, go to someone professional, it helps. People say psychologists/psychiatrists/councillors are just people who want to interfere, have no idea what they are talking about or just want to mark you down as ‘mad’ This is not true all these people are in that profession for a reason, because they care, all these people who have commented, including myself are people who care… believe me, talking does the trick, remember there always points in life where you feel like you cannot live anymore, you are not a loser at this point, you become a loser when you do the selfish act and committ suicide, leaving all the people who love and care for you behind.

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crazymomofboys offline Verified User (2 months, 2 weeks) Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 2 months, 2 weeks ago (6 hours, 12 minutes after post)

well… thanks for making me realize that my life could get worse. You are obviously a very intelligent man, simply by the way you write. You know that suicide is a selfish act. You care too much for your family to make them suffer like that. I’ve thought that way too, don’t get me wrong. Killing yourself is an easy out for you, but causes unmeasurable pain for everyone else in your life. You can’t possible think that people see you as a waste of oxygen?

I won’t preach too you, but I truly believe that those who take their own life becomes a lost soul forever. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. Thanks for reminding me of that.

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Eccedentesiast offline Verified User (3 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 8 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 months, 2 weeks ago (6 hours, 49 minutes after post)

dude… dude… anon’s never coming back…

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Help me with: yesterday i died alone.
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2 months, 1 week ago (22 hours, 20 minutes after post)

You think this life is not worth living. Check yourself in rehab, because if you check out, that’s it. If you kill yourself you will end up in Hell and eternity is longer than this life. God be with you.

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