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I’m 24 and I’m soo sick of my life I’m ready to end it.
I’ve been addicted to crack for five years and I just took up heroin too… as if I didn’t have enough problems as it were. I used to be considered one of the popular kids in high school, I had a couple really beautiful girlfriends and I had the world by the tail. I got hooked on crack in 2003 when I started working on the oil rigs. 2 years later my girlfriend left me and I’ve been riding a wave to suicide ever since. Some of the situations I’ve been involved in I’m surprised that I’m even still alive today and sometimes I even wonder why. I haven’t decided just what to do yet, but trapped inside my own mind, I am coming up with some pretty wicked stuff I could do to end it all. I just care to much for everyone else and not enough for me and now I’m soo ****** up and I feel alone in this world. I used to be a ‘cool’ guy and I tell ya, it means **** all now. I’m not cool, I’m a ******* loser and I’m sick of wasting oxygen by breathing. Either things will get better, time willing - maybe I’ll get a grip on myself and make sense of this unlivable mess that my life has become, or I won’t and I’ll just die. At this point, death seems like my most viable option. I used to have so much to offer this world friends, family, teachers and even cops and corrections officers used to tell me that I was worth something. Now I feel like a low life piece of ******* **** and I’d rather die than be any more of a burden to the people I have let down… including myself. Drugs are bad, they’ve taken 7 years to turn me from a young good looking guy with everything (any I mean everything I could’ve ever wanted) going for me, to a bi polar suicidal unhealthy unattractive freak who finds more comfort in the thought of death than in the thought of life. Thanks for reading. Be smarter than I’ve been, we only get one shot at this life.
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