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I’m feeling suicidal again and I don’t know why.

But I wish the thoughts would go away!

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ba-tampt offline Unverified User #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (1 minute after post)

Then make them go away, they are your thoughts. You are stronger then you think, always remember that.

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miss lizzie offline Verified User (8 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 11 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (2 minutes after post)

i have these feelings too…just talk 2 someone about what your thinking it really does help i promise…

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Puck You offline Verified User (6 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 114 #
Spokane, WA, US | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (2 minutes after post)

Easier said than done!

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Puck You offline Verified User (6 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 114 #
Spokane, WA, US | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (3 minutes after post)

miss lizzie wrote:
i have these feelings too…just talk 2 someone about what your thinking it really does help i promise…

That’s what I am doing here

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Puck You offline Verified User (6 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 114 #
Spokane, WA, US | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (3 minutes after post)

ba-tampt wrote:
Then make them go away, they are your thoughts. You are stronger then you think, always remember that.

Easier said than done!

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Puck You offline Verified User (6 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 114 #
Spokane, WA, US | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (4 minutes after post)

I just feel like the world would be betteroff without me.

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Puck You offline Verified User (6 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 114 #
Spokane, WA, US | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (7 minutes after post)

and I guess I am right

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (7 minutes after post)

Look, I never said it would be easy.

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An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (8 minutes after post)

The_Alice wrote:
I just feel like the world would be betteroff without me.

No it would not, it would be a net loss for the world!

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Puck You offline Verified User (6 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 114 #
Spokane, WA, US | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (9 minutes after post)

Thanks. It just doesn’t feel like it.

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ill-wil offline Unverified User #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (10 minutes after post)

I feel the same way. Such a hopeless feeling that I just can’t shake. I love my children and my family, which is the only thing that keeps me going.

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Puck You offline Verified User (6 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 114 #
Spokane, WA, US | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (11 minutes after post)

eless and helpless and I just can’t shake either one of them

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Puck You offline Verified User (6 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 114 #
Spokane, WA, US | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (12 minutes after post)

*hopeless

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (13 minutes after post)

Depression is the worst thing to go through. Trust me, I know. It’s said in fact that a survey between patients with Cancer that have also battled depression in their lives would take the cancer any day. There is nothing worse than wanting to just curl up in a ball, and lay in bed to die…
Depression makes you feel awful all around, with everything. Rather than Physical pain which comes from ONE part of the body. Depression can effect not only your mental well being but can make you physically ill too. So I feel for you.
Alice, why not just lay in bed and turn some music on. Perhaps you can listen to a radio show or something to try to make you sleep. This way, you can sleep until tomorrow when you can just “vent” to someone.
Do you have friends and neighbors that you can talk to? not even about your thoughts of suicide per say, but just to talk about what’s going on in life?
Best,
Concerned

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (14 minutes after post)

Seems like each day just gets a little tougher. Now that my business has dissappeared, I started looking for work, but there just isn’t anyplace for someone with my past. I feel worthless when I can’t provide for my family. Do you have family near?

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (15 minutes after post)

Ill Will, what do you mean there isn’t anyplace for someone with your past?

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (17 minutes after post)

You can’t just sit around feeling sorry for yourself saying that the world would be better off without you because if you kill yourself now in twenty years no one is going to care and no one is going to remember you, that’s just bottom line. You have to accept that you are in a ****** situation and then change it. But you have to want to change, I shouldn’t have to convince you to pull yourself up from the rut you are in if you aren’t going to be willing to do it but I’m trying because I know suicide is the wrong decision. I feel pretty worthless now too to be completely honest but I’m not going to give up and I hope you won’t either. Live the life you want to lead, change everything that you don’t like because nothing can hurt you unless you let it. I know that must sound cliche but what I really want to hear right now is that everything will work out for me so I hope that maybe thats what you want to hear too; one day you’ll wake up and it won’t hurt anymore and you won’t feel hopeless or helpless. For now just watch some good movies or do something you enjoy, personally I really like the film French Kiss, it always makes me feel better. I wish you the best of luck with your life and I know things will get better for you someday so stick it out, its the best thing you can do.

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (19 minutes after post)

Hey Alice - what happened? last time we spoke we were choosing hockey shirts - what triggered this off?

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (20 minutes after post)

Oh,Honey, You sounded like you were doing so good.Anything happen? or is it an ongoing thing? Ups and downs/sounds like your bi-polar,sorry I cant remember all your labels right now.lol.If so, you need a change in meds asap

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Puck You offline Verified User (6 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 114 #
Spokane, WA, US | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (20 minutes after post)

I dunno. I’m bi-polar so I have major mood swings anything could trigger it.

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lifeisabeach offline Verified User (4 months, 4 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (22 minutes after post)

read my last post about suicide.

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (22 minutes after post)

So Alice what can we do ? Do you want to talk or what ? What’s going to get this to pass - because you know it will so what’s to be done? C’mon get it out.

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Puck You offline Verified User (6 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 114 #
Spokane, WA, US | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (22 minutes after post)

I just need someone to talk to.

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MamaBear {Felicity} offline Verified User (8 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 230 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (23 minutes after post)

Only from my experience,its a chemical imbalance not triggered by anything.

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lifeisabeach offline Verified User (4 months, 4 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (23 minutes after post)

i’m here! read my last post about suicide. its a very true story. plus if you’re bi-polar you should see a doctor.

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Puck You offline Verified User (6 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 114 #
Spokane, WA, US | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (24 minutes after post)

It’s a chemical imbalance but bi-polars are easily depressed by something as little as someone telling them that they don’t like their shirt.

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An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (25 minutes after post)

The_Alice wrote:
It’s a chemical imbalance but bi-polars are easily depressed by something as little as someone telling them that they don’t like their shirt.

In that case, I really like your shirt.

Feeling a little better?

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Puck You offline Verified User (6 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 114 #
Spokane, WA, US | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (26 minutes after post)

Commander Ikari wrote:

The_Alice wrote:
It’s a chemical imbalance but bi-polars are easily depressed by something as little as someone telling them that they don’t like their shirt.
In that case, I really like your shirt.Feeling a little better?

lol. Thanks! laughter always helps.

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An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (26 minutes after post)

i know how that feels being over-sensitive and everything. i get like that alot. you need to remember that you need to rise above that no matter how you feel. try not to live off of feelings. live off of decisions to improve yourself to your best standard.

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An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (26 minutes after post)

: ) glad to help

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Puck You offline Verified User (6 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 114 #
Spokane, WA, US | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (27 minutes after post)

lifeisabeach wrote:
i know how that feels being over-sensitive and everything. i get like that alot. you need to remember that you need to rise above that no matter how you feel. try not to live off of feelings. live off of decisions to improve yourself to your best standard.

Yea, I know.

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MamaBear {Felicity} offline Verified User (8 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 230 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (29 minutes after post)

Alice,I wont argue,but i very much disagree with what you said.

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Puck You offline Verified User (6 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 114 #
Spokane, WA, US | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (29 minutes after post)

Felicity-{KIMKRISS} wrote:
Alice,I wont argue,but i very much disagree with what you said.

You have a right to disagree.

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I’m feeling suicidal again. I don’t know why but I wish the thoughts would go away!

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (35 minutes after post)

Try finding a job with a criminal record; just wrong places at wrong times(not a perv/violent person) with guilt by association really. I’ve got a degree, years of managing a business. An example: got through an interview and invited to train. I was honest and noted the convictions on the apps, so I was encouraged at first. On the exit interview, I thanked them for giving me a chance. Reply was what do you mean. When I told him directly(even though it was clear on the app), he apologized saying that he didn’t see that and there was no chance at all.

I’ve had to deal with this since I was 17, but there’s just no such thing as a second chance. I started my business 15 years ago, as it was clear I could never work in my major field. Hell, I can’t even get a fricken job as a janitor. I made a good life for my children, despite this, as customers rarely do background checks on company owners and are more concerned with the quality of work. I bust my *** to provide for my wife and kids. My life insurance recently became irrevocable, so it’s really looking like the only way I can secure our home and give them what they need. Money has never been important to me, but when it’s not there….

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An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (37 minutes after post)

ill-wil wrote:
Try finding a job with a criminal record; just wrong places at wrong times(not a perv/violent person) with guilt by association really. I’ve got a degree, years of managing a business. An example: got through an interview and invited to train. I was honest and noted the convictions on the apps, so I was encouraged at first. On the exit interview, I thanked them for giving me a chance. Reply was what do you mean. When I told him directly(even though it was clear on the app), he apologized saying that he didn’t see that and there was no chance at all.

I’ve had to deal with this since I was 17, but there’s just no such thing as a second chance. I started my business 15 years ago, as it was clear I could never work in my major field. Hell, I can’t even get a fricken job as a janitor. I made a good life for my children, despite this, as customers rarely do background checks on company owners and are more concerned with the quality of work. I bust my *** to provide for my wife and kids. My life insurance recently became irrevocable, so it’s really looking like the only way I can secure our home and give them what they need. Money has never been important to me, but when it’s not there….

huh?

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Puck You offline Verified User (6 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 114 #
Spokane, WA, US | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (38 minutes after post)

Oh for a while he took over the post and it became about his depressing life

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (39 minutes after post)

Your life could be worse…that’s the point.

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Puck You offline Verified User (6 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 114 #
Spokane, WA, US | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (39 minutes after post)

Dude! You don’t know what kinda life I am living!

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An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 4 weeks ago (40 minutes after post)

Pointing to someone else and saying it could be worse is not helpful.

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