me head feels like it’s about to explode.
not ugly, kinda pretty, in a colorful way sorta i suppose. i can’t tell which direction i’m going, because last time i checked i was standing still and i hear someone singing and i can’t be entirely sure it isn’t me. inside my brain is hummin like a smooth vehicle machine it’s not throbbing only spinning and wish i could see the dsmn thing. like that man with the open heart - had a metal plate over it to protect him, but he could take it off anytime he liked. i would’ve like to have seen it, maybe even touch it if he’d let me. i’m sure anyone else would be curious too. i still feel like i’m moving, but i think this time i’m falling and my computer is calling for me to get back to the screen. the phone continues ringing but i pay it no attention because it’s been ringing straight for the past two days and i’ve gotten used to the sound. the lights are changing colors and my dog is trying to get them to stop all jumping up and down and barking which i find so funny because it’s not working. and i don’t have a dog. i’m speaking so coherently i’m surprised no one is hearing me but i can’t hear anyone else because i think no one’s around. i’m having so much fun i know it but somehow i can’t feel it, like i’m watching someone else float around the room and wonder where they’ve gone. i’m alone i think but surely there’s someone in this room with me i can feel it but i don’t think they exist. i’m a nut and always have been it’s so clear now why these things happen but i’m happy i’m not happy but i sure as hell am not unhappy i’m high and low and in between and nobody can catch me. i don’t think i am singing, that person must be making that beautiful melody i can’t hear with my ears, but i hear with my tongue. the phone continues ringing, but i still sit at this bright screen and my head, it is exloding with a sound no one can hear.
pop.
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