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I’m ready to admit I have a problem.

I ate three vicodins last night, snorted one, and smoked so much weed that I had no idea what was happening…and I was alone the entire time, not even at a party or anything. The days before that I got so high that I vomited. And the days before that I got drunk and had a few more pills. Why cant I just be happy without the drugs? I’m seriously ****** up…

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Summerson offline Verified User (4 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 4 months, 3 weeks ago (6 minutes after post)

a lot of it may be psychological. your best bet is to get professional help. turn to your family and friends and find a rehab center near by.

if your parents are rich, have them send you to one of those fancy places in utah.

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spiritedsoul offline Verified User (1 year, 6 months) Long Term User Shouts: 39 #
Sandgate, G5, GB | 4 months, 3 weeks ago (9 minutes after post)

I am proud of u u admit ur have a problem. it is a very brave thing to do.
I hope u will get help and the support u need to help you stop putting these drugs into ur system because ur precious and deserve to be healthy and happy.

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An Unknown Location | 4 months, 3 weeks ago (9 minutes after post)

Okay well, you have a problem if you think you have a problem,
(otherwise I’d just let you kill yourself it it made you happy and didn’t affect anone else, as you said you were alone.)

So in any case first thing to be happy about:
You’re not dead!

Next thing to do… is to only allow yourself to do half the weed and no pills and alcohol.
You won’t die from shock without pills, or at least I hope not.

So anywaysz, after 2-3 months just start quitting weed,
find something else to do, if you can’t find anything else to do,
I always suggest sleeping, exercising, or cleaning.
(Or you could play an MMO RPG…)
Not professional advice!!!

To better serve yourself, see a local rehab center.

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effie.200 offline Verified User (5 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
An Unknown Location | 4 months, 3 weeks ago (26 minutes after post)

What would you say got you here - mentally . Most people remember when they realised things were going wrong - what ’s yours

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4 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 14 minutes after post)

effie.200 wrote:
What would you say got you here - mentally . Most people remember when they realised things were going wrong - what ’s yours

When I had nothing to drink/smoke/eat…it terrified me. I really REALLY want to go and do a few more vikes, but I cant do too many in the same week or I’ll build up a tolerance, and a dependence. I’ve soaked my pipe to get every…last…bit…of resin and smoke it. I’m smoking it right now as a matter of fact…and I’m glad I am.

But I guess I realized I had a problem when I realized that I’m only at my happiest when I’m getting f***ed up…or when I’m with the person I think I’m in love with.

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Nutmeg offline Verified User (6 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 22 #
Vancouver, BC, CA | 4 months, 3 weeks ago (3 hours, 51 minutes after post)

Good for you :) It’s hard to admit you have a problem. Now, the next question is, how much do you want to change? From what you’ve been writing, I would assume that you would like to quit the pills and so on, but you want to keep doing the weed… which is ok, baby steps will get you there.
You need to find something to replace the high. Some people ride rollercosters. Maybe you could find a scary, tense, or exciting job.
DO you want to break free?

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4 months, 3 weeks ago (4 hours, 16 minutes after post)

Nutmeg wrote:
You need to find something to replace the high.

So should I get over my fear and see if the person who makes me happy feels the same way? Hes already in a relationship…but he never talks about her and hes given me signs that hes attracted to me.

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Nutmeg offline Verified User (6 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 22 #
Vancouver, BC, CA | 4 months, 3 weeks ago (5 hours, 18 minutes after post)

No. I don’t think so, anyway. See, then you’re replacing one selfdestructive habit with another… you don’t want to be in a relationship with a guy who would dump one girlfriend for another. I mean, if his relationship is already dying, then you can move in AFTER its gone… but if you make him break up with her, you’re probably setting yourself up for even more heartbreak.

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4 months, 3 weeks ago (22 hours, 57 minutes after post)

Nutmeg wrote:
No. I don’t think so, anyway. See, then you’re replacing one selfdestructive habit with another… you don’t want to be in a relationship with a guy who would dump one girlfriend for another. I mean, if his relationship is already dying, then you can move in AFTER its gone… but if you make him break up with her, you’re probably setting yourself up for even more heartbreak.

Your right. I shouldn’t try to break them up…but I know that hes not that in to her. Hes been gay for…well, forever, but now all of a sudden hes dating this girl. All I can do is hope that they break up soon (Is it wrong that I hope that?).

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Nutmeg offline Verified User (6 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 22 #
Vancouver, BC, CA | 4 months, 3 weeks ago (1 day, 4 hours after post)

lol no it isn’t wrong :) you can dream, right? And since he’s gay, maybe he’s just (awful as this sounds) using her to show his family or someone that he isn’t. Or then again, maybe he’s bi. So be careful how you act around him :)

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