life help: I am not really THAT suicidal. - Help.com

other than all your acomplishments do you anything that makes you happy? Anything aside from what you are socially expected to do. Sometimes i feel like i just go through the motions. I have a great life but it doesnt seem like enough. Mas1s is right you do need to talk to someone figure out what is trigering this. from my interpretation it sounds like you arent very happy despite all the things you have accomplished. and thats not nessecarly bad thing it might just mean that what you are doing is not what you want to do.

I suppose that when considering what you do in life and then knowing you will die at the end of it can be a daunting prospect if you put your mind to it often enough.
Maybe you have lost someone dear to you and have thought about their life and how it all just came to an end.
I will tell you about my father. I lost my dad just before Christmas to a crippling disease that started a year ago. One minute he was a cyclist and the next he could hardly hold himself upright. He lost all his muscle power and could hardly speak. Eventaully his heart muscles just couldn’t keep his heart pumping away. why do I tell you this? Because my dad knew and | knew that he had, from the age of about 12, packed so much into his life that he hadn’t missed out on anything. He was a long distance walker, a climber, a father, a husband, as great cyclist, had travelled all over the world, a fell walker, a camper, a driver, he brewed his own wine and beer, he was an accomplished joiner, could deal with most building work, a swimming teacher, an organiser of events, a teacher and a head master, he taught one of England’s captains how to play cricket, this was Michael Atherton, he was a naval officer and worked with missiles, an electrician, a photographer and produced his own photographs - I could go on and on - His passing was not a sad thing - he had lived every second of his life and didn’t mind that he had to die - he knew this and at 82 he thought he had lived more years than he should have anyway.
My message to you is fulfil your life and then at the end you will die knowing you did just about everything you could - no regrets. I hope this helps.

Yeah…. thank you all. I honestly cannot say that right at this moment I have digested the advices you gave (but I know that I need to get professional help… problem is I don’t know how to find one). But I know that you all have a point. I’ll read and re-read your advices and maybe someday my mind would finally comprehend what you’re trying to tell me… or something… I don’t know.

Thanks.

This does sound like a state of mind that needs to be explored. I know mas1s is good at finding information so perhaps there is help with that if he comes back to this site. I will try to put my mind to this too. In the mean time, why not tell us more about you and may be we can pick something up from that. Where do you live?

Philippines… If I go to medical centers I know I’m supposed to find one but… I don’t feel like going there. >_

Anyway, I’m usually fine…. If seen on the outside, I quite certain I look alright (if not carefree). I find it weird myself, too. And it’s not like I want to add drama to my life…. I’m actually trying to be practical about this and convince myself of what I should be doing, thinking, and believing. It’s quite futile right now, though. Do I sound strange? It’s like I have two opposing thoughts…

Have you tried talking to your doctor. Are you surrounded by people who have real or perceived problems and your the only one who genuinely doesn’t, or think you don’t? If you are quite a thinker you can begin to worry that you are not normal because you don’t seem to have problems. If this is so, and even if it isn’t, perhaps the real problem is that you have too much thinking time and not enough going on. You don’t say if you are married, so perhaps a partner would brighten things up for you. Falling in love is not the entire answer, but it often helps to make us feel differently about things.
Your reply has just come in. No, it does not sound strange and I think you should try to trust in your doctor, or ask him to refer you to someone you might feel you able to talk to, a kind of specialist in this sort of thing. Often a lack of something can be the problem, like low or high thyroid, lack of a certain vitimins or another chemical our bodies need. I would go and see him if possible and remember, it is not at all strange.
If you are offered treatment by pills, ask if there is an alternative you could try first and promise to go back to him if the alternatives do not work.

Thanks. I’ll keep in mind everything you wrote.