I just want someone to love me!
I want to be able to see my dad and to be able to talk to him in person instead of over the phone. I wish that me and my brother could get along. I want to stop making my mom cry. I want my sister to quit smoking and stop doing drugs. I want my family to be back together.. I don’t want everything to be in shreds. I miss my old bestfriend. I wish I would just stop hurting. I want to be able to see me not pretend anymore..because im so tired of pretending.. Tonight has been rough.
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Tell me what is wonderful about being you?
What is wonderful.??
I dont know.
One thing that’s wonderful is that there’s all this painful not-okayness and she is smart enough to write it out and brave enough to seek support, comfort, or help?
*zutto ikite* wrote:
What is wonderful.??I dont know.
Tell me what you love.
Michael Leibman wrote:
One thing that’s wonderful is that there’s all this painful not-okayness and she is smart enough to write it out and brave enough to seek support, comfort, or help?
Very true.
I want everything abck the way it used to be .. where i didn;t have to worry if i liked the people my parents dating.. or moving becuase they break up..I want to see my real mom and dad back together.. but then I look at the photos that we took together when we were a a family and it all looks horrible.. they dont smile .
You are amazing for coming here and telling us what’s going on. I can tell by how well you type that you’re a very intelligent young lady.
My parents divorced when I was 7. Then came the dating, and eventually the new marriages. I know that it feels like if they got back together everything would be back to normal, but it honestly isn’t true. My dad even came back to live with us for a while after leaving and it still didn’t work between my mom and him. Things will settle down and get back on track.
Nothing goes back in time, We all move forward and have to deal with changes. Things change for the better and sometimes changes take place we don’t like. There are things that we can’t change, so wasting time focusing on them honey does not do you any good. Focus on the positive things you have going on and you will feel better. It must be so hard not to see you dad as much, that must really hurt, but try to focus on how nice it is to talk to him, even when it is just over the phone. Maybe you can find other means of communicating with him, like via email.
What I love? I love my parent. music. friends.Japan. animals. rading. going on the computers. .sitting outside.. drawing singing.watching movies. playing video games chatting. Theres so much I love..
*zutto ikite* wrote:
What I love? I love my parent. music. friends.Japan. animals. rading. going on the computers. .sitting outside.. drawing singing.watching movies. playing video games chatting. Theres so much I love..
So cool! You are lucky to have all those passions, so when you are feeling down try to draw or sing. Maybe when you miss your dad you can draw him a picture. I know that won’t fix everything, but it is a start. Both you parents are so lucky to have such an loving and sweet daughter!
snowflake048 wrote:
You are amazing for coming here and telling us what’s going on. I can tell by how well you type that you’re a very intelligent young lady. My parents divorced when I was 7. Then came the dating, and eventually the new marriages. I know that it feels like if they got back together everything would be back to normal, but it honestly isn’t true. My dad even came back to live with us for a while after leaving and it still didn’t work between my mom and him. Things will settle down and get back on track.
My dad is in Antartica, and he when he comes back he gets to see Pam, my sorta step-mom. My mom and my Sorta Step-dad just broke up and we’re living with another family There’s four people in my family and four people in theres. I hardly ahve any space to myslef.I don’t think that my mom and step dad will get back togetherunless they decide to marry each other. and i doubt that my mom and real dad would ever get back together.
Maximina wrote:
*zutto ikite* wrote:So cool! You are lucky to have all those passions, so when you are feeling down try to draw or sing. Maybe when you miss your dad you can draw him a picture. I know that won’t fix everything, but it is a start. Both you parents are so lucky to have such an loving and sweet daughter!
What I love? I love my parent. music. friends.Japan. animals. rading. going on the computers. .sitting outside.. drawing singing.watching movies. playing video games chatting. Theres so much I love..
When i do ffeel down i do something I like… but then the thoughts keep coming through my head, and i just crawl into bed and cry.. and my dad he’s in Anarctica what good would it o to draw him a picture? and we do e-mail.
just because you want stuff to happen im sorry but most of it wont happen .
you have to hint to them like ask your dad maybe if he wanted to go out someplace with u .
things will heal in time and try and find a passion untill then . write poems about your feelings .
I know that most of it wont happen, I am prett sure almost everything won’t happen.
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dont give up in time things will get better for you .
I’ll try.
We’re going to lake powell friday,and I get to bring my friend. So, maybe my mom and step dad won’t fight, and we’ll have a good time.
yeah lets hope so . xD
Yeah.. I still don’t want to go though.. because im worried they will fight,
Well, have you tried to talk to either of your parents about this? Mom, Dad or step-dad? I know that your Dad is far away, but do you have any contact with him via phone or email? They might be able to help you feel a little more secure if they knew how you were feeling.
As far as this weekend goes: tell your mom that you’re worried about going to the lake because you don’t want your friend to see your parents fighting. Hopefully she’ll understand and keep things calm.
*zutto ikite* wrote:
I’ll try.We’re going to lake powell friday,and I get to bring my friend. So, maybe my mom and step dad won’t fight, and we’ll have a good time.
Wow, that could be a great vacation. I just looked up lake powell and remembered when I drove by myself over the mountains and through utah and it was so nice.
Yeah maybe.
I just went and hung out with my friend, the one that’s going with me, and now I am happy ^^
I’ve decided I hate myself. I have made my mother really upset and I can;t forgive myself. I just want to die right now. I feel so horrible about everything..
I want yo share this with you
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