I want to kill myself.
I hate myself for being fat. I was skinny all my life. How did I get like this? It hurts so bad. I left school, work, everything because of my fat issue. I don’t go anywhere because I am ashamed of my body and what people might think of me. I haven’t gone out of my house in alomost a month. I’m going crazy. What’s worse though is even though I feel like this I still keep eating and eating because there’s nothing else for me to do. I look in the moirror and I don’t even recognize myself …it’s DISGUSTING. I never told anyone about my issue because I don’t want them to know my horrible problem. My family is coming down today from NY and I don’t want them to see me like this. I never go to family functions anymore and I did’nt even attend christmas or ring in the new year with my family and it hurts so bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am ashamed for leaving school…it was the worst thing I’ve could have done. If they only knew the reason I was depressed was because I was so fat. Help I need to get out of here and go somewhere and get help. I need to have a life again.
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you can start a diet
you want to kill your self over something you CAN CHANGE?
i hear so many people say they are tired of everything and that everything seems so ******.
also questions are asked like “why does this happen to me?” “why does this happen, what was the reason, what did i do to deserve this?”
my thoughts are that maybe, its good to have good and bad things happen. sure yeah the bad things might hurt us so much but we should NEVER walk away from a ****** situation with out learning something from it. for exxample. when your little and you touch somethign that burns, thats a ****** situation, but you learn how to avoid that and make things better. sometimes it takes ****** situations to make things better. just know your gonna get through that rollercoaster and dont let yourself down. everyday is a learning experience, look back and think about how you can change.
much love to you and hope you can work things out.
trust me you can get out of this dont give up please 3 dont think that its all over now because there is always a way out
you sound like a girl with the power to change. you said you used to be skinny. well then, you can get back to that. you just need to throw out all your junk food right now, and go shopping for healthy foods: vegetables, fruits, water, energy bars… etc.
Once you realize that you are in control of your body, you will be more willing to change your current life style. nobody can really help you except yourself. You can be losing wait as soon as you decide you want to change. and you can start walking outside and start exercising. its not the end of the world to be fat. it just means that you need to decide that you want to be skinny again. there is hope for you if you choose to change. the power is in your hands. good luck
So what if you’re fat. At least you’re alive and you can do something about it. I just started a diet last week because I have about 35 extra pounds I want to lose. I was in the same place you are right now and the more I thought about it the more I ate. I took comfort in the food and my thought was “this one more snack isn’t going to add that much weight.” I thought that about everything though and all together, it added a lot of weight. There is a diet plan out there that will help you. I just started seeing a doctor and he prescribed phentermine for me. I have to go back and weigh in every 2 weeks. It’s one of those pills that gives you energy but it’s not the crazy energy. It’s helped me focus at work and I seem to be more productive and focused. I don’t have as much of an appetite as I used to but I think it’s because it keeps me from thinking about food as much. Just check around and see if there is a doctor in your area that could help. I’m not saying that the pill diet is the right thing to do or it’s the best way to go but it has helped me so far. Just know that you’re beautiful no matter what and you can lose the weight if you want to. When you get depressed, try to make weight loss your focus instead of food. Even get mad about it if it helps you. Sometimes I do the most for myself inthose areas when it makes me the maddest!!
I love the way Pshyeah! explains things, so uncomplicated and to the point. I cant better what she says.
One young person I know put photos of their self on everywhere there was food. Photos of when they were thinner and looking fit and healthy.
Every time they went to get food, it reminded them that that was their aim, to look like that again, it worked for her.
I know there are certain health issues related to obesity and all that.. but you know most of our fears stem from media-hype about what is and isn’t beautiful. You are still beautiful, even if you do feel you would be happier if you were carrying less weight.
Health and beauty are separate issues. Yes, it’s important to be within healthy body mass guidelines.
But who says it’s ugly?
(that should say “who said anything about you being ugly if you’re not” It makes more sense that way I think)
awww. thats really sad. if I was fat, I would kill myself too. but Iam thin and beautiful. “Thinspiration” videos from youtube will inspire you to make the change to who you want to be and what you should look like. DONT HARM YOURSELF. you have plenty of time to cahnge and live a long healty happy life. You can change, so start now. just excersise more and eat smaller portions. and when you feel sad and lonly and depressed, dont eat! go excersise, or watch thinspiration videos, or something that will remind you of your new goal, to change your body image and become a new person. Dont worry, just start making postive changes and your pounds of ugliness and sadness will go away! you’ll be beautiful, you just have to believe it!
your an idiot
I can help you but it wont be easy…..read my profile.. I will let you email me if you want.. but if you dont want help dont waste our time comprende
i read your profile, how does that help her?
Come on… I work out and know how to diet and get into shape…..read many books on matabolism and been there with a capitol B
eh your profile says nothing about you working out
really…. well unless you are missing something on your end or there is a computer glitch I dont know .. Anyway my services are to the poster if you want..
unless your referring to your post’s not your profile
no… are you sure because I see it as plain as an icecream sandwich
say nothing about you knowing how to loose weight and such
the hobbies are the key.. anyway no point arguing just am available for help….
Hello D. I know exactly how you are feeling. i too am overweight - once being very slim and happy with myself, about 28 pounds i need to lose, and i look in the mirror and am embarrassed and disgusted too. HOWEVER. this is not a problem that can’t be changed. you, like i, are in a bit of a vicious circle - you comfort eat through unhappiness and boredom, then you despise yourself for over eating and eventually end up eating more in order to comfort yourself. is that true? (please say if not). if this is the case the thing that needs to happen is the cycle must be broken - you must find something to replace the excessive eating. you didn’t say if you exercise? even going for a brisk walk each day will help and make you feel better. we’re living in such a ridiculous time now with size 0 celebrities constantly being shoved in our faces, being told this is how we’re meant to be and it simply isn’t true. its completely ridiculous! its crazy! small steps is what you need, replace extra food with a big glass of water instead - might sound stupid but it will fill you up! how about we stay in contact and try and lose weight together? you didn’t say how overweight you are….? you’re family love you regardless - thin or fat, bald or hairy! plus, we must count our blessings as we are alive and our bodies do work - there are much much worse problems then being overweight, yes? take care and be kinder to yourself. love anon xx p.s. please don’t take any notice of pshyeah, what a stupid unhelpful person. people can be so unkind, ignore ignore ignore.
I want to killmyself, im haveing problems with my babys father we broke up, im pregnet and i just cant take anymore pain, so i think i wanna end the pain.
you don’t know what life is for. die and make room for the future.
maybe if this is your post you might wanna reconsider at this point. If you don’t wanna die then get over it.
I have tried ever diet out there and recently was hospitalized which I could only tolerate fluids for a week. I still keep gaining. I am so depressed I cant even function, losing business, friends, if I had someone to run my business so my family would be financially ok I would stop this pain in a minute. I was a model and an athlete, can’t even walk to mailbox anymore. Sick of suggestions on ” if you want it you can” omg you think I don’t want it.
Kiptabsmo.. It’s clear you need a doctor’s input if dieting and exercise are not working. You need to have a full medical and to check for an underlying condition that may be causing your weight gain. Your doctor may also be able to put you on a more effective programme.
Keep working with your doctors towards finding a solution. Don’t let them “hang up on you”. There are solutions for people who have tried everything for themselves to no avail. You may be a candidate for surgery that could help you, though it is not to be undertaken lightly.
Don’t let things bring you down. Stay positive. Fight for the professional help you deserve.
Meanwhile, try talking to your doctor about your depressive feelings too. He may recommend a specialist counsellor who can help you to cope and function better. It’s a vicious circle.. weight gain.. depression..family and work problems…relationship difficulties.. Break that circle in any way you can. Attack this problem from all angles.
Be open with people. Don’t hide the reality. Learn to say to friends “I am struggling with weight issues and this is impacting on my functioning. I would like your understanding, help and support while I am dealing with this. I understand our relationship has suffered because I have not been myself. I hope you can understand and stick by me”.
Try to enlist whatever help you can to keep your business afloat while you are recovering.
Because, my friend, that’s exactly the situation you ARE in. You are unwell, you need medical care and like anyone else who falls sick at work.. you need the support until you are better.
Obesity is not a character flaw and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.
Obesity is a body issue just like any other disabling condition.
Every doctor I see says, be glad you have a great blood pressure. This happens when you get older, your husband still loves you….The comments are far from therapeutic. I have searched doctors all over the place, had tests out the “you know”, am so done with everything. I have explained to friends that I am struggling, and they say “Awww well if you just stop eating….”, “….try this diet”, “….take these pills”, “exercise everyday all day long”…..Or the best ones are like the jerk that said, It is all in your control, if you want to be thin you can. I have seen the psychiatrist and been put on medications but he is also very “eat less calories than you burn and you HAVE to lose weight”. WOW thanks, I didn’t realize that…..I am so frustrated and done with the whole thing. My husband still looks like he did when we got married, so people look at as like the odd couple. I get comments like, “is that your brother”. If you know of any doctors on the east coast that will hear me let me know.
I think you need to find a new doctor who specialises in treating obesity if you don’t have faith in your current one.
I’m in UK, so cannot recommend anyone. However your general medical doctor should be able to refer you to a good one.
It’s a hard fact that they will make suggestions that are going to seem darned frustrating. But, don’t lose hope.
Start afresh. Try to be positive (I know it’s hard). Every time you have a test done, ask for a copy of the results and build up your own case file. Try to stick to one medical specialist so that he/she can build up a true picture of your problem over time. Work with him and don’t give up on counselling.
Like I say.. there ARE alternative options for you. But they will not consider them until they have enough evidence to show that nothing else has worked. It’s a long haul unfortunately, and before they can offer you surgical solutions, you need to be able to show that you have adhered to their every recommendation.
The best way to do this is to keep a VERY comprehensive diary over several months. It may take a year.
In your diary you need to record EXACTLY what you eat and drink. Get your husband to help with this. You will need to weigh your portions and write that in too. It’s no use writing “a plate of pasta and tomato sauce” - you need to put the exact weight. Invest in some good digital scales if you don’t already have them.
Your diary also needs to include exactly how much exercise you have. That includes housework and walking. So put down “1 hour gentle gardening” or “200 yards brisk walk to the store”..
I’m sure you already tried diary work before, but without a very comprehensive one to hand to the specialist, they cannot really do much to help. A good specialist will provide you with a special diary.
Your friends are trying to be supportive in their own way. They can only give ideas that they have heard about really, so try not to condemn them. Of course they cannot understand how debilitating this is for you.. but it sounds like they do WANT to try to help.
It’s a sad fact of life that men and women age differently. It sucks that men never have to spend hours doing their hair and make-up too!
I can understand how frustrated you must feel. Try not to let negativity make things worse for you. Put that brave face back on and smile. People notice smiles first - and that’s scientifically proven.
Remember that you can radiate beauty in your face. Do EVERYTHING you can to make your face the focus of everyone’s attention. Treat yourself to a great new hairdo, get some lessons on natural make-up at the salon and ask the dentist to spruce up your smile. You will soon get LOTS of compliments. Compliments help us to feel better about ourselves. That helps us to stay strong and tackle life again.
Show your hubby this post.
Let him be your biggest supporter :o)
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