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I want to kill myself.

I hate myself for being fat. I was skinny all my life. How did I get like this? It hurts so bad. I left school, work, everything because of my fat issue. I don’t go anywhere because I am ashamed of my body and what people might think of me. I haven’t gone out of my house in alomost a month. I’m going crazy. What’s worse though is even though I feel like this I still keep eating and eating because there’s nothing else for me to do. I look in the moirror and I don’t even recognize myself …it’s DISGUSTING. I never told anyone about my issue because I don’t want them to know my horrible problem. My family is coming down today from NY and I don’t want them to see me like this. I never go to family functions anymore and I did’nt even attend christmas or ring in the new year with my family and it hurts so bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am ashamed for leaving school…it was the worst thing I’ve could have done. If they only knew the reason I was depressed was because I was so fat. Help I need to get out of here and go somewhere and get help. I need to have a life again.

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Dance w/me Cristiano offline Verified User (1 year, 6 months) Long Term User Shouts: 14 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (1 minute after post)

you can start a diet

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ĐaNi HaŦeS ŸoŪ offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Help.com Volunteer Moderator Long Term User Shouts: 207 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (1 minute after post)

you want to kill your self over something you CAN CHANGE?

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thesilence offline Verified User (2 years, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (4 minutes after post)

i hear so many people say they are tired of everything and that everything seems so ******.
also questions are asked like “why does this happen to me?” “why does this happen, what was the reason, what did i do to deserve this?”

my thoughts are that maybe, its good to have good and bad things happen. sure yeah the bad things might hurt us so much but we should NEVER walk away from a ****** situation with out learning something from it. for exxample. when your little and you touch somethign that burns, thats a ****** situation, but you learn how to avoid that and make things better. sometimes it takes ****** situations to make things better. just know your gonna get through that rollercoaster and dont let yourself down. everyday is a learning experience, look back and think about how you can change.

much love to you and hope you can work things out.

trust me you can get out of this dont give up please 3 dont think that its all over now because there is always a way out

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firestorm613 offline Verified User (1 year, 5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (39 minutes after post)

you sound like a girl with the power to change. you said you used to be skinny. well then, you can get back to that. you just need to throw out all your junk food right now, and go shopping for healthy foods: vegetables, fruits, water, energy bars… etc.
Once you realize that you are in control of your body, you will be more willing to change your current life style. nobody can really help you except yourself. You can be losing wait as soon as you decide you want to change. and you can start walking outside and start exercising. its not the end of the world to be fat. it just means that you need to decide that you want to be skinny again. there is hope for you if you choose to change. the power is in your hands. good luck
-Jake

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peepye101 offline Unverified User #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (45 minutes after post)

So what if you’re fat. At least you’re alive and you can do something about it. I just started a diet last week because I have about 35 extra pounds I want to lose. I was in the same place you are right now and the more I thought about it the more I ate. I took comfort in the food and my thought was “this one more snack isn’t going to add that much weight.” I thought that about everything though and all together, it added a lot of weight. There is a diet plan out there that will help you. I just started seeing a doctor and he prescribed phentermine for me. I have to go back and weigh in every 2 weeks. It’s one of those pills that gives you energy but it’s not the crazy energy. It’s helped me focus at work and I seem to be more productive and focused. I don’t have as much of an appetite as I used to but I think it’s because it keeps me from thinking about food as much. Just check around and see if there is a doctor in your area that could help. I’m not saying that the pill diet is the right thing to do or it’s the best way to go but it has helped me so far. Just know that you’re beautiful no matter what and you can lose the weight if you want to. When you get depressed, try to make weight loss your focus instead of food. Even get mad about it if it helps you. Sometimes I do the most for myself inthose areas when it makes me the maddest!!

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thep offline Verified User (1 year, 11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 15 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (1 hour, 12 minutes after post)

I love the way Pshyeah! explains things, so uncomplicated and to the point. I cant better what she says.
One young person I know put photos of their self on everywhere there was food. Photos of when they were thinner and looking fit and healthy.
Every time they went to get food, it reminded them that that was their aim, to look like that again, it worked for her.

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mumstheword offline Verified User (1 year, 6 months) Long Term User Shouts: 72 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (1 hour, 16 minutes after post)

I know there are certain health issues related to obesity and all that.. but you know most of our fears stem from media-hype about what is and isn’t beautiful. You are still beautiful, even if you do feel you would be happier if you were carrying less weight.

Health and beauty are separate issues. Yes, it’s important to be within healthy body mass guidelines.

But who says it’s ugly?

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mumstheword offline Verified User (1 year, 6 months) Long Term User Shouts: 72 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (1 hour, 17 minutes after post)

(that should say “who said anything about you being ugly if you’re not” It makes more sense that way I think)

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ĐaNi HaŦeS ŸoŪ offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Help.com Volunteer Moderator Long Term User Shouts: 207 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (1 hour, 37 minutes after post)

Pshyeah! wrote:
awww. thats really sad. if I was fat, I would kill myself too. but Iam thin and beautiful. “Thinspiration” videos from youtube will inspire you to make the change to who you want to be and what you should look like. DONT HARM YOURSELF. you have plenty of time to cahnge and live a long healty happy life. You can change, so start now. just excersise more and eat smaller portions. and when you feel sad and lonly and depressed, dont eat! go excersise, or watch thinspiration videos, or something that will remind you of your new goal, to change your body image and become a new person. Dont worry, just start making postive changes and your pounds of ugliness and sadness will go away! you’ll be beautiful, you just have to believe it!

your an idiot

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aeolian mode offline Verified User (2 years, 9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 10 #
Rocklin, CA, US | 1 year, 5 months ago (1 hour, 55 minutes after post)

I can help you but it wont be easy…..read my profile.. I will let you email me if you want.. but if you dont want help dont waste our time comprende

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ĐaNi HaŦeS ŸoŪ offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Help.com Volunteer Moderator Long Term User Shouts: 207 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (1 hour, 57 minutes after post)

i read your profile, how does that help her?

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aeolian mode offline Verified User (2 years, 9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 10 #
Rocklin, CA, US | 1 year, 5 months ago (2 hours after post)

Come on… I work out and know how to diet and get into shape…..read many books on matabolism and been there with a capitol B

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ĐaNi HaŦeS ŸoŪ offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Help.com Volunteer Moderator Long Term User Shouts: 207 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (2 hours, 1 minute after post)

eh your profile says nothing about you working out

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aeolian mode offline Verified User (2 years, 9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 10 #
Rocklin, CA, US | 1 year, 5 months ago (2 hours, 3 minutes after post)

really…. well unless you are missing something on your end or there is a computer glitch I dont know .. Anyway my services are to the poster if you want..

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ĐaNi HaŦeS ŸoŪ offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Help.com Volunteer Moderator Long Term User Shouts: 207 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (2 hours, 6 minutes after post)

unless your referring to your post’s not your profile

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aeolian mode offline Verified User (2 years, 9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 10 #
Rocklin, CA, US | 1 year, 5 months ago (2 hours, 8 minutes after post)

no… are you sure because I see it as plain as an icecream sandwich

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ĐaNi HaŦeS ŸoŪ offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Help.com Volunteer Moderator Long Term User Shouts: 207 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (2 hours, 10 minutes after post)

say nothing about you knowing how to loose weight and such

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aeolian mode offline Verified User (2 years, 9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 10 #
Rocklin, CA, US | 1 year, 5 months ago (2 hours, 11 minutes after post)

the hobbies are the key.. anyway no point arguing just am available for help….

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1 year, 5 months ago (2 hours, 21 minutes after post)

Hello D. I know exactly how you are feeling. i too am overweight - once being very slim and happy with myself, about 28 pounds i need to lose, and i look in the mirror and am embarrassed and disgusted too. HOWEVER. this is not a problem that can’t be changed. you, like i, are in a bit of a vicious circle - you comfort eat through unhappiness and boredom, then you despise yourself for over eating and eventually end up eating more in order to comfort yourself. is that true? (please say if not). if this is the case the thing that needs to happen is the cycle must be broken - you must find something to replace the excessive eating. you didn’t say if you exercise? even going for a brisk walk each day will help and make you feel better. we’re living in such a ridiculous time now with size 0 celebrities constantly being shoved in our faces, being told this is how we’re meant to be and it simply isn’t true. its completely ridiculous! its crazy! small steps is what you need, replace extra food with a big glass of water instead - might sound stupid but it will fill you up! how about we stay in contact and try and lose weight together? you didn’t say how overweight you are….? you’re family love you regardless - thin or fat, bald or hairy! plus, we must count our blessings as we are alive and our bodies do work - there are much much worse problems then being overweight, yes? take care and be kinder to yourself. love anon xx p.s. please don’t take any notice of pshyeah, what a stupid unhelpful person. people can be so unkind, ignore ignore ignore.

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Dimond0 offline Unverified User #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 2 months ago (3 months after post)

I want to killmyself, im haveing problems with my babys father we broke up, im pregnet and i just cant take anymore pain, so i think i wanna end the pain.

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An Unknown Location | 8 months, 1 week ago (9 months, 3 weeks after post)

you don’t know what life is for. die and make room for the future.

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Ilira offline Unverified User #
An Unknown Location | 8 months, 1 week ago (9 months, 3 weeks after post)

maybe if this is your post you might wanna reconsider at this point. If you don’t wanna die then get over it.

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