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Admitting the problem to yourself is the first step in solving it.

Cool symbols, as well.

the past does not equal the future and how do you make those symbols?

The good news is now I may be able to work past it, now that I’ve identified it.

I’ve identified one possible solution. Show this irrational belief to people around you and they might tear it into shreds and then ostracize you into a happier place.

I’m kind of the same way. I’m guessing you are on the artistic side (as am I). I work as a graphic designer (for fun), a guitarist and a writer, though I actually work in none of these areas where my talents are suited - I’m actually a system admin for my family’s staffing firm. I continually allow myself to feel ashamed of the things I feel are aesthetically pleasing to me, and things I have spent many hours laboring and pouring over, and usually it’s my own family that hurts the most. Is this the case with you as well?

Why bother spending the effort?.. what about the self-satisfaction? The accomplishment?..

And you could be making assumptions about people.

I am the same way. I can’t open up to anyone.

I totally get where you’re coming from! Childhood events/encounters/traumas can shape how you see the world without you even realising it - at least, not at first. But, as you say, now that you’ve recognised it, you can change it - and power to you. Because every time we let fear like that get in the way of us doing our thing, we’re letting the ostracising, belittling jerks - past and present - win. And who wants that? ;)